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A Sweet Sin Come with me
Bastian's POV“All I want is you, Bastian. Your touch, your caress, that’s the only protection I need.” All I could think of was Lilith's sad face. It haunted me that I was causing her pain. I look towards the direction she has walked towards, my blood ran cold the minute I did see her. Lilith.She was in the arms of a young man. The guy was hugging her so tight. Jealousy roared through me and every other common sense I had flew out the window of my SUV.I hated the fact that the young man was young, something I wasn't. Hated that he was handsome, not that I can't beat that. However, he had something I didn't. Youth.Whenever I am in close range with Lilith, all I can think about is how I am too old for her and how she deserves better. I wish I was that young man. I wish I wasn't thinking of a girl my daughter’s age. The thoughts of Lilith felt so wrong and right at the same time. Man, I did do anything for that little lass. I couldn't control myself as I saw the hands of the youn
Last Updated : 2024-10-30A Sweet Sin Meeting the family
Lilith's POV“Come with me.” Those were the only words Bastian said to me when he stood there looking at me so lost. I could have said no. I could have ignored and moved on yet I couldn't.I had placed my hand in his outstretched hands. I had gone with him so gullibly. When he told me during the drive to God knows when to go pack up, I had done that without saying anything. I felt so lost without him. I have been fighting this attraction for so long.I know I might be setting myself up for hurt, nevertheless, I was willing to risk it all. I looked at him. He was sitting across from me. I wanted to lean in, his suit was off, he was wearing a crisp white shirt that was tucked into his suit pants. The shirt was rolled up, the veins in his hands were so damn distracting. I want to trace my tongue around them. I peeked at a butterfly tattoo in his left arm. I didn't know he had tattoos. The veins and that one single tattoo was so maddening. I wanted to ruffle his hair that was perfectly i
Last Updated : 2024-10-31A Sweet Sin The dinner uproar
Lilith’s POVDinner went on, but I couldn’t stop noticing Bastian’s mother's icy eyes watching me. She sat straight, her eyes were fixed on me as though she was trying to see through me and waiting for me to make a mistake or a fool of myself. The feeling was intense, and my chest tightened each time I caught her gaze. Nervousness was killing me and I was already experiencing indigestion. I have altogether lost my appetite but I had to continue eating so I don't look rude. What the heck am I doing here? I feel hands on my thighs. I instantly looked up and met the gaze of Bastian with a gentle smile and smoldering look that always warmed me up in his eyes. My face heated up and I knew I would be as red as the tomato sauce on the table. I returned his smile as I bowed my head shyly. I won't say I am a shy person but Bastian makes me feel heated up anytime he looks at me.Hellena finally looked at me and cleared her throat. “Lilith,” she said slowly, “tell me about your mother.”Her vo
Last Updated : 2024-11-01A Sweet Sin I didn't mean to harm them
Bastian's POVMy hands were trembling, no matter what I did, they wouldn't stop shaking. I don't want Lilith to see me this way. Even as she led me out of the dinning hall to my room, I wasn't paying much attention to my surroundings. I should be used to my mother's cursive ways by now. However, getting used to it is one thing but living it and knowing somehow, she is right is another. If I had not had that argument with Ellana that night, she wouldn't have driven off with Sofia. She wouldn't have gotten into an accident that took her life.I am a sick psycho. That's what I am. A selfish man, if I wasn't a selfish man, my daughter wouldn't have hated me. If I wasn't a selfish and cruel man, I wouldn't be yearning for my best friend's daughter.Yes, I am demented psycho. I hear Lilith’s voice calling out to me even with the loud ringing in my ear. I thought I was going to lose consciousness. I held onto the bed post. I needed my pills. I need them to calm me down.“Bastian, calm down
Last Updated : 2024-11-05A Sweet Sin A perfect dream
Lilith’s POV What?” More tears fell down her eyes. I use my tongue and lick them off.“I would rather be a source that drains all your sorrows than make you cry.”My heart still couldn't comprehend what Bastian was saying. I just let myself cry. I just cried for all the hurt I couldn't let out before my dad. The things I couldn't tell him.Why would such a man like Bastian be interested in me? I wanted to ask when it all began. I should be happy, but somehow, I am not. I feel responsible for amplifying his traumas. I was the only one who had seen Bastian cry when I was younger.I still remember that cruel day, I had returned from school. I had cried to my dad that I wanted to check up on uncle Bastian since he just lost his wife.Sofia had been so mad at his father, I was eight and she was five years old, yet she had that anger and hatred against her dad. She had insisted on staying with her grandparents, Ellana's parents.Bastian had not resisted because he was in pain and was blami
Last Updated : 2024-11-06A Sweet Sin Karma is a bitch.
Lilith’s POVThe food on the table looked so good, but neither of us had an appetite. I watched as Rebecca kept crying, and even though I wanted to comfort her, I couldn’t. I needed answers, to understand what really happened.“I’m sorry. I just can’t help but tear up when I talk about this,” she said, trying to brush it off. I didn’t like how she made light of it when it was clearly hurting her.“How did my dad meet my mom?” I asked, steering the conversation back to the real questions.“They met through my brother.” She looked at me, and I could tell there was more to it than she was letting on.“What are you hiding?” My voice came out sharper than I intended, but I couldn’t hold back.“My brother and your father went on a double date, a blind date actually. My brother suggested it after countless rejections from my mother…” she said, trailing off.“Why would Bastian suggest that?” I muttered, not realizing I’d said it out loud.“Your father and I were madly in love. After my mother
Last Updated : 2024-11-12A Sweet Sin You are my everything
Lilith’s POVI couldn’t hold back my giggles. The whole situation with Ella was so ridiculous that it had me laughing out loud without even realizing it.“What’s so funny?” a familiar voice asked, pulling me from my thoughts. I looked up to find Bastian standing in the doorway of my room. He looked breathtaking, as always. Just seeing him there made my heart race.“You’re here!” I exclaimed, rushing to him. I threw my arms around him in a tight hug.“I thought you’d miss me, so I came back early,” he said, ruffling my hair affectionately. Bastian always felt like a safe haven, a lush, green forest where I could escape to. He was a green flag and I am a red carpet. It's a perfect match!“I missed you more than you can imagine,” I said, flirting as I inhaled his scent. He smelled amazing, a mix of masculine musk and the intoxicating cologne he always wore.“Hmm… that’s the best thing I’ve heard all day.” His voice was smooth, and before I could respond, he leaned in and kissed me. It wa
Last Updated : 2024-11-17A Sweet Sin Chapter 21: An unholy obsession
Bastian's POV The minute I stepped into her room and saw her sitting in that seductive manner, I knew I was going to have her as a meal before the dinner party. She started laughing loudly, I couldn't help but admire her beauty. She is indeed very beautiful. The chandelier light shimmered around her and gave her hair a flaming glow. The fire in the corner of the room added a cozy warmth, but I knew the heat building in me had nothing to do with the heater. It had more to do with the little vixen on the bed that was laughing hysterically. It was about an hour later. Carrying out the devilish thoughts in my mind that I began to unbind her from the bedpost. I folded her in a hug, inhaling her wonderful fruity scent with a touch of vanilla fragrance. I just couldn't get enough of her and since I finally was able to tell myself that I couldn't do without her and wanted her and was willing to do away with years of friendship with Marcus, I have been able to ignore the guilt. I know s
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A Sweet Sin Chapter 43: I will drop the charges
The antiseptic smell of the IV drip hung heavily in the room, hitting my nostrils anew. Jelly's trembling voice broke the suffocating silence Hellena's presence had brought and the trance I was seeking refuge in."Please, ma'am," she pleaded again, her eyes now wide with desperation. "Just let me go, and I promise I'll tell you everything I know."Yes, she had said that before.My heart quickens in excitement, a mix of fear and curiosity dancing within me. I took a cautious step closer, my voice barely above a whisper."What could you possibly know?" I asked again. It was more of a question to myself than to her.Jelly glanced nervously at Dr. Thomas and the officers before focusing back on me. "It's about Ellana, Bastian's late wife."I drew in a deep breath, shocked and appalled at her words. "What do you know about her?" I asked fearfully.Jelly hesitated, wringing her hands. "I know why she died."A cold shiver ran down my spine. "What are you saying?" I asked hoarsely. This was b
A Sweet Sin Chapter 42: What do you know?
We all turned toward the voice that had bellowed that question. I instantly tensed when my eyes met the cold ones of Bastian’s mother. Hellena Lockhart’s sharp voice silenced the yelping of the struggling Jelly. She stood at the doorway, her presence commanding immediate attention.“What’s going on here?” she repeated.Her gaze swept across the room, looking at everyone as if they were insignificant. Even Dr. Thomas wasn’t spared from her disgust. Rather, her eyes shot daggers at him.Finally, her eyes landed on me, burning with an intensity that made my heart race, not with fear, but with anger and bitterness. If I were still trying to be in her good graces, like I had before, the weight of her stare would have been suffocating and overwhelming.But now? I didn’t care.A lump formed in my throat, stopping me from spitting out the venomous words stuck at the tip of my tongue.“You,” she spat, stepping forward with a pointed finger. Her face twisted into a mask of pure rage. “This is a
A Sweet Sin Chapter 41: Has the operation been scheduled?
Chapter 41: Has the operation been scheduled?What did she just say? First madam. Hellena or Rebecca, which one? If they drugged me, what about Bastian? My heart skipped a beat. They did something to Bastian." No, don't take her away," I screamed in fear. My palms became clammy with anxiety as my legs shook, almost giving out again.However, I am held by Dr. Thomas. I felt grateful towards him. Only God knows what Jelly would have done to me if it were not for him." Why?" I knew what he was asking without further clarification. " I need to know who was responsible." I simply stated. My voice, calmer than how I am actually feeling inside." Hmm." He turned to the two security guards who were holding the struggling Jelly down. " Hold her down, so she doesn't escape." The guards did as they were commanded.Jelly calmed after her hands were restrained behind her back. She looked fiercely at the guards. If we didn't know better, we would think that she was the one wronged and not me."
A Sweet Sin Chapter 40: Please, Give Me a Chance
~Bastian's POV~She was here. Ellara and Sofia. They looked so happy and peaceful. If I hadn’t failed them, this is how they were supposed to be, filled with happiness when they were with me.I trailed after them through the wild field of sunflowers and lilies, the air fragrant with their scent, fresh and unpolluted. It was clean. It was refreshing.An overwhelming sense of peace washed over me. I had finally left it all behind. I could finally rest, rest from the guilt, the pain, the hurt, and the failures. My parents, my sins, my regrets, it was all behind me now. That was a good thing. That’s what I should have been thinking.So why was my peace being interrupted by the green-eyed, red-haired spitfire I left behind? Would she be fine? No, I didn’t think she would. Knowing Lilith, she would blame herself.I had heard her crying, soaking me with her tears, yet I couldn’t open my eyes. My eyelids were too heavy. No matter how hard I tried to move, I was stuck.I knew then and there, m
A Sweet Sin Chapter 39: It Was All the First Madam’s Idea
~Lilith’s POV~The sting of the slap still burned my cheek, but I didn’t care. I had drawn blood. Her blood. That was enough for me. But before I could gloat, before I could even process my next move, the world tilted, and I saw myself being welcomed by the ground.However, hands,strong, and firm, gripped my shoulders, steadying me. My body, about to crumple due to the exhaustion from fighting off the drug, threatened to give out, but those hands held me up. Kept me from falling.“Miss Morrell, are you alright?”That voice sounded so familiar. It felt like I knew it, but I couldn't pinpoint where, so I kept my cool, protecting myself from losing control to the drug.“Miss?” The voice called out again. I wanted to say I was fine, but I couldn't. Not that I didn’t want to, but my lips wouldn’t move.“Leave me alone! I was helping her!”It was the fake nurse from earlier. Whatever exhaustion my body was feeling flew out the hallway.Knowing she could still spill lies that might put me ba
A Sweet Sin chapter 38: I need to get out of here
~Lilith’s POV~ Bastian… he’ll be fine, right? Yes, Bastian will be fine. I tried opening my heavy lids, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't. What’s happening? Did I fall sick or something? No. I need to wake up. I need to stand up and check on Bastian. I need to remind him not to die on me. Foolish Lilith, foolish Lilith. You caused this. It’s all your fault. You should have paid more attention to him. You should have checked up on him even after you left New York. If anything happens to Bastian, you are to blame. Guilt, shame, and hurt rushed through me. To think I’ve been making life difficult for Bastian… Jesus. What have I done? Why did I let my desires control me? No. First things first, I need to get up from this bed. The smell of antiseptic hits my nostrils. The beeping of a machine. Pain tears through my wrist. My hands feel heavy, just like my lower body. It feels like I’ve been hit by a train. Slowly, I pry my eyes open. A blinding light pierces through my
A Sweet Sin Chapter 37: I AM TIRED
~Lilith’s POV~Where are the meds? I can't find them. Bastian doesn't look good. What should I do? No, Lilith, just concentrate on finding the medications. Why didn’t he say anything?Even in the midst of all this, his family was still frustrating him. Mad people everywhere.A loud thud echoes through the room, so loud that I fear whatever falls is already broken.I shouldn't have left him. That was the thought that crossed my mind when I saw him.Bastian had fallen. He was the one that had fallen. When did he stand? Wasn't he sitting on the floor? The sound I heard, it was him? And not an object?The marble wood drawer crashes against my leg, jolting me from my shock. My eyes snap back to him lying there, his eyes wide open. As though, shocked life was being snatched from him.No. No. No.“Bastiannnnnnnn!”I run with all my might, closing the two feet between us.I lift him up the moment I reach him, his weight heavy against me. His eyes are still bulging.“Please, don't die. I don't
A Sweet Sin chapter 36: Let's go home
~Bastian's POV~Do I hate myself? Yes. Do I feel like ending it? Yes. Am I tired of everything? Yes. Yes, and yes again.Yet, in the midst of all this, all I could see was the little woman standing up for me. No one ever did. They all blamed me. Whoever heard the story without knowing everything blamed me.As a growing adult, unable to bear the accusatory eyes and demeaning words, I had left home with Ellara, fully intending never to look back. Like a ray of sunshine, Ellara and I found out three months later that we were expecting our first child.Like a fool always seeking his parents’ validation, I had called home to share the good news. And what had my father's reply been? "You dare have a child after destroying your brother's home?"I dare? What do you mean? How many times do I have to tell you that Lucy drugged me? They faulted me even when I told them the truth.One truth I’m a hundred percent sure of, that my dad isn’t aware of, is that Lucy found out his golden boy, Alfonso,
A Sweet Sin chapter 35: This man is mine.
~Lilith's POV~When I got to Bastian's room, I could hear low, harsh whispers. I didn’t mean to eavesdrop, I swear, but I couldn’t help it.Bastian’s voice sounded so broken that it tore at something inside me, a piece of me, longing to take away all his hurt.“How could you do this to me?” he yelled, his voice hitching, and the raw pain in it shattered my heart into a million broken pieces.“What do you mean you didn’t mean to hurt me? And yet, you kept the fact that you got pregnant with my child after you literally drugged me to get back at your husband?!” he snarled.I had never heard Bastian sound so angry. He was such a sweet soul, but these people; his own family, had pushed him to the edge. And if I wasn’t mistaken, he was speaking to Alfonso’s wife.“I don’t want to meet with you, Lucy.”That confirmed my suspicion. It was Lucy. The woman had the nerve! She had used Bastian to get back at her husband, and now she wanted to use him again, to save her son. Well, logically, Bas
