Lilith’s POV
The food on the table looked so good, but neither of us had an appetite. I watched as Rebecca kept crying, and even though I wanted to comfort her, I couldn’t. I needed answers, to understand what really happened. “I’m sorry. I just can’t help but tear up when I talk about this,” she said, trying to brush it off. I didn’t like how she made light of it when it was clearly hurting her. “How did my dad meet my mom?” I asked, steering the conversation back to the real questions. “They met through my brother.” She looked at me, and I could tell there was more to it than she was letting on. “What are you hiding?” My voice came out sharper than I intended, but I couldn’t hold back. “My brother and your father went on a double date, a blind date actually. My brother suggested it after countless rejections from my mother…” she said, trailing off. “Why would Bastian suggest that?” I muttered, not realizing I’d said it out loud. “Your father and I were madly in love. After my mother kept rejecting him, and since I wouldn’t stand up to her, I think my brother suggested it as a way to distract your father. Plus, he’d just lost his mother, so he really needed something to take his mind off things.” “So, in the end, you betrayed my dad?” “Yes, I chose my family over him,” she replied, eyes sad. “Oh… and what did your mother get out of it?” I asked, unable to keep the bitterness from my voice. “I don’t blame her…” “What?” I interrupted, stunned. “It was really my fault. If I hadn’t listened to my mother, I would have married your dad, and you would have been my daughter.” “Too bad you’re not my mother,” I replied sarcastically. Just then, a maid approached, saying, “My lady, your son is on the phone. He wants to speak to you.” “He called the home phone?” “Yes, ma’am.” Rebecca excused herself to take the call. I hadn’t even known she had a son. Was she married? Divorced? Suddenly, my phone buzzed, snapping me from my thoughts. It was Tommy. I knew I owed him an apology since I hadn’t spoken to him after suddenly leaving for Scotland. “Hi, Tommy. I’m sorry for how I left last time. It was so sudden.” I texted. Almost immediately, he replied. “Babe, I’m not mad. I’ve just been worried. Are you okay?” I felt grateful for Tommy. I’ve never been good at making friends, which is why I’d stuck with Ella and Markle for so long. Tommy was one of the few people who reached out as a true friend. “Yes, I’m fine. How about you? How’s your boyfriend?” I chuckled as I remembered the part I’d forgotten to tell Bastian, Tommy has a boyfriend, so he wasn’t interested in me romantically. It wasn’t my fault if Bastian assumed otherwise. My phone buzzed again. “Girl, I’m good, and James is amazing! I’ve got some juicy news for you!” I giggled, amused. Tommy always had the best gossip and never held back. “Let’s hear it! You know I’m always down for a good story.” While waiting for his reply, I helped myself to some pancakes and sausages. I wasn’t a fan of greens, but I added some veggies to balance things out. The pancakes were incredible; whoever made them definitely knew what they were doing. I admired people who could cook because, honestly, I couldn’t cook to save my life. My phone buzzed again, but the message wasn’t from Tommy. It was from Ella, my ex-best friend who had stabbed me in the back with Markle and my mom. My stomach twisted, and I felt like I was going to be sick. How could I still feel anything for her after everything? “Hi, Lilith. I’m in Scotland. Not sure why I’m telling you this, but I felt you should know. Markle’s here with me to meet his mom’s family.” Why was she messaging me? Why was she telling me this? I rushed to my room and threw up everything I’d eaten. The thought of her with Markle and my mom still made me feel sick every damn time. After a few minutes of debating with myself, I decided to respond. I’d been waiting for an apology, but clearly, I was fooling myself. “Go screw yourself.” I typed and hit send. Almost immediately, my phone buzzed again with another message from her. “I’m sorry Markle chose me. He even proposed to me. You don’t have to be jealous. I was going to ask you to be my maid of honor, but since you’re obviously jealous, I won’t anymore.” Was this girl serious? How could she think I was jealous of her when she was the one who stole my boyfriend? Not the boyfriend was even worth stealing. The audacity was unreal. But I knew I’d let her get away with too much before. This was my fault for enabling her. Just then, my phone buzzed again with a message from Tommy. “Girl!!!! Guess what? Markle’s video of him sleeping with Ella was leaked at their last day of school! Last I heard, they ran off to Scotland.” I let out a laugh. It was ironic, really, here was Ella, trying to make me feel small and pathetic, while she was the one caught up in drama. That video leak was karma at its finest. As I lay back on my bed, I realized I felt lighter. For the first time, I felt like I was finally moving on. I don't think I can ever forgive her nevertheless, I am happy my heart is healing. “You won't believe the idiot messaged me just now.” I hit send. “What did Judas say?” I let out another hearty laugh at Tommy's reply. “She said I was supposed to be her maid of honor.” “What??? Girl, you gotta be kidding me!!! I am going to smack that bitch’s face into the wall.” oh lawd, Tommy is so funny. I couldn't stop laughing. It felt like I was being tickled. “What's funny Lilith?”Lilith’s POVI couldn’t hold back my giggles. The whole situation with Ella was so ridiculous that it had me laughing out loud without even realizing it.“What’s so funny?” a familiar voice asked, pulling me from my thoughts. I looked up to find Bastian standing in the doorway of my room. He looked breathtaking, as always. Just seeing him there made my heart race.“You’re here!” I exclaimed, rushing to him. I threw my arms around him in a tight hug.“I thought you’d miss me, so I came back early,” he said, ruffling my hair affectionately. Bastian always felt like a safe haven, a lush, green forest where I could escape to. He was a green flag and I am a red carpet. It's a perfect match!“I missed you more than you can imagine,” I said, flirting as I inhaled his scent. He smelled amazing, a mix of masculine musk and the intoxicating cologne he always wore.“Hmm… that’s the best thing I’ve heard all day.” His voice was smooth, and before I could respond, he leaned in and kissed me. It wa
Bastian's POV The minute I stepped into her room and saw her sitting in that seductive manner, I knew I was going to have her as a meal before the dinner party. She started laughing loudly, I couldn't help but admire her beauty. She is indeed very beautiful. The chandelier light shimmered around her and gave her hair a flaming glow. The fire in the corner of the room added a cozy warmth, but I knew the heat building in me had nothing to do with the heater. It had more to do with the little vixen on the bed that was laughing hysterically. It was about an hour later. Carrying out the devilish thoughts in my mind that I began to unbind her from the bedpost. I folded her in a hug, inhaling her wonderful fruity scent with a touch of vanilla fragrance. I just couldn't get enough of her and since I finally was able to tell myself that I couldn't do without her and wanted her and was willing to do away with years of friendship with Marcus, I have been able to ignore the guilt. I know s
All I wanted to do was help myself, I wasn't expecting to see Bastian sitting on my bed looking at me with wild eyes that were devouring me. I don't want to wait. I wonder what will happen if I disobey him. What kind of punishment would he give me? The thought of having him punish me made me feel so unhinged and excited. I did not realize when my hand moved to my clit as I slowly massaged it, just as I liked it . The electrifying pleasure that shot through my body made my body spasm, I could feel my climax. I couldn't stop my finger as it sank deeply into my needing cunt. It went in and out. I tried holding my moan in. I didn't want him to hear me but I couldn't contain the sound of pleasure that came out of my mouth. Suddenly, the bathroom door opened and Bastian stepped in looking angry. The look on his face was scary. The desire was palpable but he wasn't joking when he said, he didn't like being disobeyed. He watched me like a wolf watches his prey. My hand froze inside my
Bastian's POV The low hum of the city buzzed in the distance, a backdrop to the thrum of my heartbeat. I shouldn’t be here. Not now. Not with her. But the pull was stronger than my will. I hear my footsteps echo down the hallway, bouncing off the walls like a warning. I could feel the sweat dampening my palms, the tightness in my chest that came with knowing I was walking into a willing sin. The door stood before me, simple, wooden, yet so much heavier than it should be. Behind it was everything I should avoid. Everything I had no right to want, yet, I am unable to ignore the pull. HER. Lilith Morrell. I knew she was there waiting for me. I gritted my teeth, my hand hovering and shaking over the brass doorknob. The metal was cool, but within, I burned with the heat of a thousand forbidden desires. One twist, one pull, and I’d be on the other side. I’d told myself I could handle it, her. That I could stay in control, and keep the boundary between us clear. But the more I s
Bastian's POV Once again, I felt her breath before I saw her, soft and warm against my skin, like a secret. I turned, my hands outstretched to touch her, but she was just out of reach. The moonlight caught the curves of her body, her skin glowing as if she were made of shadows and light. Lilith. She stood before me, yet out of reach, mischief glinting in her eyes. Her lips parted, curling into that wicked sexy smile she always wore when she knew she had me. She always had me hooked and panting for more. "Come closer," she whispered, her voice winding around me, soft, dangerous and alluring. My heart pounded in my chest, each beat louder than the last. I moved toward her, every muscle in my body aching, burning with a need I couldn't explain nor understand. But no matter how close I got, she drifted farther away, taunting me with that damn laugh, reechoes like melodious music. She was my master and I, her slave. Suddenly, her hands were on me, tracing lines over my chest, wit
I couldn’t get the sound of her voice out of my head. Even after the call ended, even after I slammed the phone down, it lingered, her moans, the way she said “Daddy” like a sinful promise. It stuck to me, clung to my skin no matter how hard I tried to shake it off. I shouldn't want this. Not her. Not Lilith. But I did. I got dressed quickly, throwing on my usual suit, trying to focus on anything that wasn’t her. The office. The meeting with Marcus. Anything. Ha, yes, Marcus. My stomach twisted as his name floated to the surface of my mind. He was supposed to be my best friend. The man who trusted me above all others. And I... I was slowly betraying that trust in the most dangerous way possible. I walked to the window, staring out at the city below, trying to calm the storm raging inside me. The sun was already high, casting long shadows across the sky, but it did nothing to warm the cold pit of guilt that had settled deep in my chest. I thought about my daughter, Sofia, the w
Bastian's POV Today was the Ammoret charity ball, I would likely be meeting Lilith there. I have been avoiding her. It has not been easy but I have to do it for her. I stood in front of the mirror, adjusting my tie for what felt like the tenth time. The silk caught the light just right, but no matter how much I tried, I couldn’t focus on my reflection, no matter how bad I tried. My mind was spinning from another damn message from her. I got it this morning. Her voice, her moans, they had haunted me all day, making it impossible to keep my thoughts straight even at the office. Tonight was meant to be different. I had forged a plan. I was going to protect and avoid her at all costs. That’s why I had asked Sabrina to come with me to the event. Sabrina was everything I should want, gorgeous, smart, and most importantly, age-appropriate. I could do this. I could. I will not screw this. I made my way to the event, New York city, lights flashing by in a blur, I forced myself to t
Bastian’s POVThe sunlight streamed through the blinds, cutting across my office desk in harsh lines. I’d been sitting there for hours, staring at the stack of papers in front of me, trying to focus on the endless contracts and spreadsheets that demanded my attention. But all I could think about was last night. Lilith.Her messages, her pictures, it all replayed in my mind like a movie on loop. The way her body glistened, the curve of her breasts, the wetness between her legs. She was relentless. And no matter how much I tried to push her out of my thoughts, she refused to leave, I know right now, there is no salvation for me only damnation. I leaned back in my chair, rubbing a hand over my face. This has to stop, I told myself for what felt like the hundredth time. I had to get her out of my head. I had to. Yet, no matter what, she doesn't leave. One thing about temptation is, the more you fight it, the more you get pulled in.My phone buzzed, and my pulse quickened, knowing who it
All I wanted to do was help myself, I wasn't expecting to see Bastian sitting on my bed looking at me with wild eyes that were devouring me. I don't want to wait. I wonder what will happen if I disobey him. What kind of punishment would he give me? The thought of having him punish me made me feel so unhinged and excited. I did not realize when my hand moved to my clit as I slowly massaged it, just as I liked it . The electrifying pleasure that shot through my body made my body spasm, I could feel my climax. I couldn't stop my finger as it sank deeply into my needing cunt. It went in and out. I tried holding my moan in. I didn't want him to hear me but I couldn't contain the sound of pleasure that came out of my mouth. Suddenly, the bathroom door opened and Bastian stepped in looking angry. The look on his face was scary. The desire was palpable but he wasn't joking when he said, he didn't like being disobeyed. He watched me like a wolf watches his prey. My hand froze inside my
Bastian's POV The minute I stepped into her room and saw her sitting in that seductive manner, I knew I was going to have her as a meal before the dinner party. She started laughing loudly, I couldn't help but admire her beauty. She is indeed very beautiful. The chandelier light shimmered around her and gave her hair a flaming glow. The fire in the corner of the room added a cozy warmth, but I knew the heat building in me had nothing to do with the heater. It had more to do with the little vixen on the bed that was laughing hysterically. It was about an hour later. Carrying out the devilish thoughts in my mind that I began to unbind her from the bedpost. I folded her in a hug, inhaling her wonderful fruity scent with a touch of vanilla fragrance. I just couldn't get enough of her and since I finally was able to tell myself that I couldn't do without her and wanted her and was willing to do away with years of friendship with Marcus, I have been able to ignore the guilt. I know s
Lilith’s POVI couldn’t hold back my giggles. The whole situation with Ella was so ridiculous that it had me laughing out loud without even realizing it.“What’s so funny?” a familiar voice asked, pulling me from my thoughts. I looked up to find Bastian standing in the doorway of my room. He looked breathtaking, as always. Just seeing him there made my heart race.“You’re here!” I exclaimed, rushing to him. I threw my arms around him in a tight hug.“I thought you’d miss me, so I came back early,” he said, ruffling my hair affectionately. Bastian always felt like a safe haven, a lush, green forest where I could escape to. He was a green flag and I am a red carpet. It's a perfect match!“I missed you more than you can imagine,” I said, flirting as I inhaled his scent. He smelled amazing, a mix of masculine musk and the intoxicating cologne he always wore.“Hmm… that’s the best thing I’ve heard all day.” His voice was smooth, and before I could respond, he leaned in and kissed me. It wa
Lilith’s POVThe food on the table looked so good, but neither of us had an appetite. I watched as Rebecca kept crying, and even though I wanted to comfort her, I couldn’t. I needed answers, to understand what really happened.“I’m sorry. I just can’t help but tear up when I talk about this,” she said, trying to brush it off. I didn’t like how she made light of it when it was clearly hurting her.“How did my dad meet my mom?” I asked, steering the conversation back to the real questions.“They met through my brother.” She looked at me, and I could tell there was more to it than she was letting on.“What are you hiding?” My voice came out sharper than I intended, but I couldn’t hold back.“My brother and your father went on a double date, a blind date actually. My brother suggested it after countless rejections from my mother…” she said, trailing off.“Why would Bastian suggest that?” I muttered, not realizing I’d said it out loud.“Your father and I were madly in love. After my mother
Lilith’s POV What?” More tears fell down her eyes. I use my tongue and lick them off.“I would rather be a source that drains all your sorrows than make you cry.”My heart still couldn't comprehend what Bastian was saying. I just let myself cry. I just cried for all the hurt I couldn't let out before my dad. The things I couldn't tell him.Why would such a man like Bastian be interested in me? I wanted to ask when it all began. I should be happy, but somehow, I am not. I feel responsible for amplifying his traumas. I was the only one who had seen Bastian cry when I was younger.I still remember that cruel day, I had returned from school. I had cried to my dad that I wanted to check up on uncle Bastian since he just lost his wife.Sofia had been so mad at his father, I was eight and she was five years old, yet she had that anger and hatred against her dad. She had insisted on staying with her grandparents, Ellana's parents.Bastian had not resisted because he was in pain and was blami
Bastian's POVMy hands were trembling, no matter what I did, they wouldn't stop shaking. I don't want Lilith to see me this way. Even as she led me out of the dinning hall to my room, I wasn't paying much attention to my surroundings. I should be used to my mother's cursive ways by now. However, getting used to it is one thing but living it and knowing somehow, she is right is another. If I had not had that argument with Ellana that night, she wouldn't have driven off with Sofia. She wouldn't have gotten into an accident that took her life.I am a sick psycho. That's what I am. A selfish man, if I wasn't a selfish man, my daughter wouldn't have hated me. If I wasn't a selfish and cruel man, I wouldn't be yearning for my best friend's daughter.Yes, I am demented psycho. I hear Lilith’s voice calling out to me even with the loud ringing in my ear. I thought I was going to lose consciousness. I held onto the bed post. I needed my pills. I need them to calm me down.“Bastian, calm down
Lilith’s POVDinner went on, but I couldn’t stop noticing Bastian’s mother's icy eyes watching me. She sat straight, her eyes were fixed on me as though she was trying to see through me and waiting for me to make a mistake or a fool of myself. The feeling was intense, and my chest tightened each time I caught her gaze. Nervousness was killing me and I was already experiencing indigestion. I have altogether lost my appetite but I had to continue eating so I don't look rude. What the heck am I doing here? I feel hands on my thighs. I instantly looked up and met the gaze of Bastian with a gentle smile and smoldering look that always warmed me up in his eyes. My face heated up and I knew I would be as red as the tomato sauce on the table. I returned his smile as I bowed my head shyly. I won't say I am a shy person but Bastian makes me feel heated up anytime he looks at me.Hellena finally looked at me and cleared her throat. “Lilith,” she said slowly, “tell me about your mother.”Her vo
Lilith's POV“Come with me.” Those were the only words Bastian said to me when he stood there looking at me so lost. I could have said no. I could have ignored and moved on yet I couldn't.I had placed my hand in his outstretched hands. I had gone with him so gullibly. When he told me during the drive to God knows when to go pack up, I had done that without saying anything. I felt so lost without him. I have been fighting this attraction for so long.I know I might be setting myself up for hurt, nevertheless, I was willing to risk it all. I looked at him. He was sitting across from me. I wanted to lean in, his suit was off, he was wearing a crisp white shirt that was tucked into his suit pants. The shirt was rolled up, the veins in his hands were so damn distracting. I want to trace my tongue around them. I peeked at a butterfly tattoo in his left arm. I didn't know he had tattoos. The veins and that one single tattoo was so maddening. I wanted to ruffle his hair that was perfectly i
Bastian's POV“All I want is you, Bastian. Your touch, your caress, that’s the only protection I need.” All I could think of was Lilith's sad face. It haunted me that I was causing her pain. I look towards the direction she has walked towards, my blood ran cold the minute I did see her. Lilith.She was in the arms of a young man. The guy was hugging her so tight. Jealousy roared through me and every other common sense I had flew out the window of my SUV.I hated the fact that the young man was young, something I wasn't. Hated that he was handsome, not that I can't beat that. However, he had something I didn't. Youth.Whenever I am in close range with Lilith, all I can think about is how I am too old for her and how she deserves better. I wish I was that young man. I wish I wasn't thinking of a girl my daughter’s age. The thoughts of Lilith felt so wrong and right at the same time. Man, I did do anything for that little lass. I couldn't control myself as I saw the hands of the youn