BLAKE The last few days has been hell and not just because I am under the weather but because I have not been able to see Nate and I am upset that he didn't even bother to look for me. I know that he has been wanting me to leave him alone but I didn't think that he was serious, I thought he was just saying it to get on my nerves... He didn't hear from me in three days and he doesn't care, so I know now that he is serious and maybe I am just wasting my time and fooling myself into thinking that I can somehow make him fall in love with me.I reluctantly left my room and I made my way to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water. "Arghhh, everywhere hurts." I murmured to myself."That's none of your business Charvi." I heard faintly from the kitchen and I know that has to be Nate. "Just call him for me." A huge grin spread across my face as I heard his voice.I know his voice and he is definitely the one and even if I wasn't sure of his voice, he is the only one I know that calls Char
ALPHA NATE I woke up to a slight movement on my bed and I know for sure that it's Blake, I remember asking him to sleep over last night when he wanted to leave... The fact that he is not feeling fine, couple with the fact that Charvi is an ass doesn't sit right with me and I will rather take care of him myself than to let him go while I worry about his health.I mean him staying here isn't exactly good especially because I am trying to get him out of my head but not having him around sucks. "What are you doing?" I asked with my eyes still closed while he was trying to get out of bed and out of my hold "It's morning." He pointed out as if it explains everything."So?""So I want to get up and make you breakfast, you are going to work right?" Is he crazy?He is the sick one here, why will he think that I will allow him make breakfast for me in his condition?"Yes I am going to work but I don't need breakfast and if I do, I will take care of myself." I said as I pulled him closer to me
ALPHA NATE "Why so many people, what's going on?" I asked as we entered my office."I don't know, I just saw them here this morning and they said they wanted to see you." This is just so weird, I don't think I have come across this amount of rogues all at once before."That's strange, okay let them in." I instructed but I don't really know if letting them stay here is the best thing to do considering that they are like eight or so."Okay Alpha." He left my office and I turned on my laptop to begin the days work.I hate it when I come to the office in the morning and I have to attend to people, I prefer to be alone for a while before I have to deal with people and their different issues... It's just too early for all the drama."Good morning Alpha." They greeted all at once and it was almost noisy."Morning, pick a representative to talk on your behalf." I waited for them to decide and the person they picked stepped forward. "Why are you guys here?" I asked as I gestured to Jake to si
ALPHA NATE "So what did it say?" He asked while waving the note at me."I have not read it yet." And I honestly don't think I will read it, what's the point of hurting myself on purpose."Why not? Haven't you missed him?" Of course I have missed him and I regret what I did to him, my actions still hurts him till now but we all know that's not a friendly note."Of course I have missed him but what has that got to do with me reading the letter, we both know that the content of that letter is not friendly... I feel like I already know the content, maybe not word for word but I know what's in it." I pointed out as I got up to grab a drink.This whole Raphael thing is stressing me out, it's like I am being punished all over again, as if Blake is not enough punishment. He has become someone I can't get rid of even if I try and in some ways, I am not sure I really want to get rid of him."Okay since you know the content of this letter so well, why don't you tell me what's in it?" I returned
ALPHA NATE After I finished making pasta Alfredo following Blake's directions, I served the food and we sat at the dining table and we started eating or should I say I started eating because all Blake did was to play around with the food... He was excited about the food while I was cooking but now he doesn't seem interested.I mean I know that I am not a good cook but I followed his directions and the food turned out great, it's actually very tasty but he has refused to taste it."You don't like the food?" I asked after observing him for a while."I do but I am not hungry, sorry." He said but I don't think that's the problem, to the best of my knowledge the only thing he had since morning is pasta, so there is no way he is not hungry."Did you eat anything other than breakfast when I was at work?" "No but I don't want to eat." He said and pushed the plate away from him.Something is definitely wrong, I find it difficult to believe that he just doesn't want to eat and nothing is wron
ALPHA NATE Days later..."Blake you have done enough for today." I said but he didn't listen to me and he just kept training. He has been training since he got here this morning and it's been three hours already, he has never trained for that long.He went back to his house after we realized that he is not exactly sick, he is just feeling sick and having symptoms because he is about to transform and ever since he left, he has been showing up every morning and training like a maniac... It's obvious that his strength has been hightened and he has started growing hair more on his legs and even hand, he is definitely transforming during the full moon.I know he is trying to stretch his body to the limit, he is probably thinking the stronger he gets, the lesser the transformation pain but it's not true... Transformation is brutal and there is nothing he can do to escape it but if he keeps training like this, his entire body will be so tired and it will even hurt more. "I'm talking to you
ALPHA NATE "You heard what they said at the meeting right? So we have to be really careful and more security minded... So you will call Richard, the head of security and the new herbal wolf to meet me at the office tomorrow, I need to give them a few suggestions." I informed.We just got back from a three hours long meeting with all the alpha's and their beta's. There was a lot of concerning topics that was raised but the most important and most pressing is the issue of the werewolf hunters. It has been a reoccurring issue and we need to take it more seriously before things gets out of hand."Of course Alpha, I will inform them and they will be at the office first thing tomorrow morning." Jake said just before we stepped out of the car, the meeting was in town at the chairmans office."Alright, see you tomorrow." It's been a long day and I am not going back to the office today, I need to get a proper rest and maybe sleep... I woke up early today because I had to train Blake before g
ALPHA NATE I know I started by complaining about the fact that Blake always sneaks in my bed at night or early hours of the morning when he comes for his training but now, I always look forward to sharing my bed with him.It's crazy that I even find it difficult to sleep in my bed alone, I have the best sleep when he is in my bed but it's annoying that he wakes up super early and tries to wiggle himself out of my hold just like right now.After the mess he created in my living room yesterday, I just asked him to stay over and he agreed and now he is trying to get out of my hold ."What are you doing?" I asked with my eyes still closed. I don't know why I enjoy keeping my eyes closed when I am still in bed, I just prefer to let all my senses fully wake up before opening my eyes."Nothing." He lied."But I can feel you trying to wiggle out of my hold." I pointed out."I am just trying to give you space." That was the last thing i expected him to say."When did I ever ask you for space,
ALPHA NATE "First phase has been completed, tomorrow I will go again." Although tomorrow will be more difficult than this but I am going to celebrate my little victory. Although I am baffled that a whole seventeen people thinks like my father, it's obvious that they will be a problem.I have a feeling that the seventeen people are probably the elderly people in the pack, maybe I should have included names so that I can know the exact people to watch out for but it's all good.I am particularly excited because I can bring Raphael back and any other person that feels like it, out of the thirty five people that said yes yesterday to the lift, only five of them said no to bringing the banished people back like Jake which is okay by me. I am not going to force all of them to return, it's not like I know where to find them but if there is a pack member communicating with them like I am doing with Raphael, they can ask them to return when the time comes."Wow, I need to go home and celebrat
ALPHA NATE I mean it's not like I don't want to tell her, I mean I know that she's very open minded and she's not homophobic like my father but this is different, I am her son, what if she's not okay with me dating Blake. It's one thing to not care about gays but it's another thing entirely to find out that your son is also gay, I really don't want to disappoint her but there is really nothing I can do. The moon goddess chose him for me, so I guess I can't keep hiding it from her because she will find out eventually and I think it will be better if she finds out from me."Yeah, you are right. There is more to this, I found my mate three months ago." I blurted out."Oh my goodness, I am so happy for you but why didn't you say anything, why am I just hearing this?" She asked curiously as she came over to my side to give me a hug."Well I found my mate the same day I banished Raphael and I was so confused, infact up until recently, I was convinced that the moon goddess was trying to pun
ALPHA NATE "I just feel like it's better we leave the past in the past, they already left the pack and their way of life is certainly different, besides most of them might still be very upset about the way we treated them and bringing them back is like bringing back trouble because there is no guarantee that they won't seek for revenge or cause any form of trouble, they might decide to be rebellious. So I think if it's possible to change what happens in the future then that's fine but there is really no need bringing them back." He explained and I think he as a point, he is right.They were all sent out of the pack in a shameful banishing ceremony, so there is every chance that they will be defiant when they return just to prove a point and I honestly don't need that drama. I guess I will just leave the decision in the hands of the pack members, it's up to them."You are right but I guess the rest of the pack members will have to decide." I pointed out."Okay but can I ask why you ar
ALPHA NATE I woke up to Blake wiggling out of my hold again and I wonder if I am poking him again or something. "Oh sorry." I said when I looked down and I saw that I was poking him, I am always rock hard around him. I don't want to torment him especially because I know he is ready for me to have sex with him but I am not, maybe I shouldn't be holding him at night when we sleep."It's fine, good morning." He said while smiling at me and I pulled him closer and I planted a kiss on his lips.I got out of bed after giving him a kiss and I made my way to the bathroom, I have to go to the office early today because I have something to handle... Before I went to bed last night, I decided that it will be wise for me to go to my father with proof of why taking down the gay ban law is the best thing to do and to do that, I need to actually know how the pack members feel about it, so I will use today to gather the informations and then I will determine if I should bother talking to my father a
ALPHA NATE I really don't know what I want to eat yet, so I just kept bringing out different ingredients from the fridge, maybe the ingredients can determine what I will make. I was staring at all the ingredients while trying to figure out what to make when there was a knock on the door. "That was fast." I said to myself."Come in." I called and after a while, the door opened and Blake stepped in."Hi, you called me." He said.He doesn't look cheerful like his normal self and I just have a feeling that I am the reason he is not in a good mood but he is here now and I will try to make you feel better."Yeah, how are you?" I asked curiously as he joined me in the kitchen."I'm fine, what are you making and isn't it too late to cook?" He asked as he struggled to sit on the tall bar stool in front of me."Well I have not eaten all day and I am hungry, that's why I need to cook but I have not decided on what to make yet." I informed."Okay, I will make something for you but why haven't yo
ALPHA NATE "It doesn't matter bro, I am not blaming you for anything, I just want to make sure that you do the right thing moving forward, don't run away from your problem anymore." He advised but I still feel very guilty."Thanks for your understanding and all your advice and suggestions, I have been looking for when I will have this conversation and it was totally worth it, I feel much better and for the first time in a long time, I actually know what to do and how to go about it. You have no idea how much of a burden this whole Blake issue has been, couple with the pack issues, I have been a complete mess." I pointed out."Well thank goodness we were able to figure the issue out, but what's happening at the pack?" He asked curiously."Honestly man, I don't know. I realized that one part of the fence is broken but I don't know who did it and yesterday, I got a report that someone has been stealing from the clinic and I am thinking that it's the same person that broke the fence that
ALPHA NATE "Relax, I have another drink." He said as he brought out another bottle of whiskey. "What do you mean by it's a disaster, I thought you said he is special?" Raphael asked curiously but the issue at hand has nothing to do with the fact that he is special.I poured myself another drink and I chugged it down again. "Have you forgotten what I had to do to you when you told me about your mate? What will I do with Blake, how will I keep him safe and what will I do when people eventually finds out that he is my mate or do you think I can hide him forever?" I asked curiously because even if there is a possibility that I can hide him forever, I still don't want that. He doesn't deserve to be kept a secret, I want to show him off, I want him to be happy and free but there is no way all of that can happen with the law we have against gays."Well you are the Alpha of the pack and it's your call, your father made the law while he was the Alpha, so maybe it's time for you to make your o
ALPHA NATE "I don't understand, what do you mean by you can't reject him? You just said that you are not in love with him, so the best thing to do is to reject him or what's the plan here?" He asked curiously but I don't know. "Look man, you have to tell me what the real issue is else I can't really help you, what's going on?" He asked curiously.I came here for his help and he is my best friend, so I shouldn't hide anything from him, it's ridiculous even as I am thinking about it and I know saying it out loud will even be worse but it has to be done."Ummm, he went through a transformation process recently and for some reasons, I just wanted to be there with him and help him lessen his pain, so I took him to the sex dungeon and I was there with him through out the process. It hurts so much to see him in so much pain, my wolf was a mess and when he finally transformed, he was the cutest and the most beautiful wolf I have ever seen." I said and smiled when I pictured his wolf again in
ALPHA NATE "Hehehe, are you kidding. That's fucking good, gosh I am so happy for you man. Wow that's good news, why do you need to be so dramatic about everything. Moon goddess thank you, finally." He said excitedly while laughing in between. "For a minute there you scared me, I thought you were going to say something terrible happened. Do you know for how long I have been hoping and praying for you to find your mate? Wow, this is fucking awesome, we should celebrate." He said as he poured us more drinks.He tried to make a toast with me but when he realized that I didn't make any move, he realized that something was wrong. "Wait, you found your mate and it's not good news?" He asked curiously."Let me guess, you don't like her because she's not as sexy as you hoped for, she doesn't have massive ass and boobs?" He asked curiously.I wish that was the problem because then it could have been easily fixed, you know with a surgery or any related methods but In this case, how do I fix him