Inferno of emotions
His heart was broken
Cracked into two by events of past
Where the other part was hidden by him somewhere where it could never be found again.
She knew his heart like her own
As once they beated as a whole.
She was going to mend his broken heart.
Even if she had to break her own heart into two,
Just to complete the jigsaw of his heart's missing part.
Even if after it her heart would be sacrificed but still
knowing that his heart was complete she will be satisfied.
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Walking down the streets alone with your phone battery dead, at 11 o clock at night. Through a deserted street with sounds of cats meowing and stray dogs growling is an indication of a bad omen.
Unless an angel comes and removes the albatross from around your neck.
I was focused
Focused to reach without looking here and there and minding my own business.
Just like black side flaps near the eyes of a horse.
But what to do when your distractions come from above..
Raindrops decided to grace my with their presence
But how could they come alone
Along came gushing high velocity winds and thundering storm
Oh god why me!!
Picking up my pace was not a good decision..
As I landed with my twisted ankle in the middle of the muddy road.
A scream escaped my lips as I tried to move it
Shi**..Shi* man!!
10 minutes passed ....
My body was now shivering and my lips quivering...
Oh god I was going to die here!!
Then a miracle happened
I don't know if I should call it a miracle because no one can be trusted here at this place at this time.
But I didn't had any options at my disposal.
A BMW's high beam blinded my eyes and I shielded my eyes with my hand.
Screeching sound of tyres was heard and the car stopped few meters away...
My anxiety rose and my hands started trembling
What if ...??
All the worst case scenarios dominated my mind and I in spite of the pain tried to get up and leave.
As I put my weight on my left leg my right leg dragged along and I was able to stand.
Crouching and holding my thigh I tried to move forward but a sudden pain numbed me and I found myself loose my balance.
Before I could fall two strong arms balanced me and helped me get up on my feet again.
I looked up to see brown eyes staring at me .
He had a chiselled jawline
Highlighted by subtle beard gave him a manly look.
The expensive velvet coat he was wearing was now drenched in rain
But he looked least bordered by it.
"It's okay you can put your weight on me"
His calm voice calmed my alarmed nerves.
Did I got lucky to be helped by such a gentleman.
His eyes looked genuinely concerned as his gaze shifted to my ankle.
"It looks swollen...can I drop you to your place..or a hospital?"
I was reluctant to ask help but he was my lost resort
"Th..anku"
I spoke with trembling lips and he realised how cold I was.
Completely unexpectedly my feet were lifted from the ground as he held me bridal style and started moving towards his car..
"Ehhhh it's.....okay...I can wa..lk.."
I said feeling embarrassed and awkward getting carried by a stranger.
He ignored me and placed me softly on his cars leather seat.
Closing my door softly he got seated on the driver's seat and turned on the heaters to their maximum.
He started the drive and for few minutes silence prevailed.
"AR mansion...street 5 "
On hearing the address he looked at me...he smiled and nodded making me relax.
I kept looking around to see that he was not taking me somewhere else other than the address mentioned
I guess he noticed this
"Don't worry I am not kidnapping you...we are just 5 minutes away"
He passed me a smile while I wrangler my hands together feeling very awkward.
Finally we reached
"Thank you....Mr....."
"Walker....Reynold Stone Walker"
His smile was addicting and I found myself returning it.
I shook his hand as we introduced ourselves.
"Sapphire Brown.."
"Miss Brown I don't think you will be able to reach you room in this condition...let me carry you to your room and I'll try finding someone to heal your injury"
I nodded
I was getting anxious with his closeness...but I had no choice.
As soon as his one arms went under my legs and the other under my back
I blushed and tried to hold onto him.
I guided his way and he finally reached my small single bed room.
Placing me down he turned around to leave
"Thank you...so much"
I managed to say and he turned around and give me a wide smile.
"My pleasure"
With this he was gone and soon some of my co maids entered and helped me heal my swollen ankle.
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The other side of the bed was empty as Andrea placed her hand on it
Supporting her weight on her elbows she lifted her self up .
There he was standing at his window still with a glass of wine in his hand .
The rain drops were tapping on the window breaking the silence of the night.
Her eyes were focused on him but his were focused on someone else.
His grip on the vine glass tightened as he watched a man carrying Sapphire up the stairs of his house.
Her hands on his neck lightened the fused spark in his heart.
He gulped the remaining vine in one go and turned his back from the window.
Placing the glass on the side table he laid on the bed and engulfed Andrea from behind.
Her Jasmine fragrance calmed him down and her presence was enough to forget what he just saw...
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Next morning
Sapphire pov
My life slowed down....
I was late and Andro already left for office...
It was not because I woke late but because my foot was not at all supportive.
It took 15 minutes to reach the main door to see that he already left.
30 minutes to reach his office door from the taxi door.
But when I entered he didn't even acknowledge me.
I limped and reached his table to be only ignored .
"Mr Romano..here are the files you asked for..."
He didn't replied for a minute and I expected he wouldn't.
But what he replied his words made me freeze with horror
"You are fired miss Sapphire...you are not to be seen here or at my house again...."
He didn't even look up...
"I am sorry..Sir....I was a bit late...it will not happen again....last night I had a-..."
"Did I asked for reasons...miss Sapphire...I am not interested in knowing with whom you were whoring around....so before I reprimand you any further please leave.."
His words shattered my soul
I couldn't just leave now...I wanted his forgiveness and few harsh words couldn't stop me from it.
"What.. are...you.saying Sir....I didn't did......."
"Oh please miss Brown I don't want any explanations...I just want you out of my face..is that too much to ask?"
Now his eyes met mine and the seriousness and determination in them made me take a step back....
"No....No...Sir....I....I'll ...take my l..eave..."
I tried moving out of his room without limping...but my confident steps staggered when pain returned.
My hands clinged the door frame for support but his next words managed to upheaval the very floor under my feet
"What happened Miss Brown?.Last night was rough I guess....he fuc*** you so hard that you can't even walk??"
The mocking tone in which he spoke lighted an inferno inside me that swallowed me completely.
I wanted to yell at him!! Proclaim my innocence! Prove him wrong...
But what's the use when he can't see me as I am...
With a heavy heart and large amount of self control I stepped out of his door....
Silence has a power hidden underneath...and I was keen on using it ....
It makes you rise above others...it saves you the self respect you have...and most importantly it infuriates the other person to such extent that no words can ever could.
As soon as the door closed my eyes couldn't hold it any longer...
My tears flowed like waterways and calmed the heated inferno inside
My legs couldn't hold on and I slides down the wall..
My shaking hands searched for my medicine inside my bag and the tablets proved to be my only support system...
Soon my breathing returned to normal and my eyes could focus again..
I just wanted to escape this place for today...
The walls were closing down on me and his aura was castrating me
I needed a break
Lifting myself up I decided to leave
People stared at me as I slowly made my way towards the entrance.
Some few good souls stopped to help me
As soon as I entered the ground floor I didn't expected to see him standing these with few assistance and associates..
The same calm brown eyes stared at me with concern...within seconds his hand reached on my waist to support me.
But I stopped him...I couldn't let other people assume something else
He signalled his associates to go ahead and they went towards the elevator.
"Miss Sapphire...are you alright?"
His eyes lingered longer on my dried tears and puffy eyes..
His scrutinized gaze went further down and he crouched down to take a look at my swelling
The people around stopped and stared at us wide eyes..
"
..I....am fine.....now...it's okay....what ...are...you...?"
Feeling awkward and embarrassed I stepped back but he was fast to hold my leg and lift my long skirt up to look at my ankle.
I placed my hands on his shoulders for balance as a curse left his lips as he saw the blue purple condition of my swelling
"It's fine...it doesn't hurt much...it hurts less than how bad it looks..."
But I guess he was not listening to me...he called someone and within minutes a helping maid came with wheelchair.
"Sir...plea-"
"Will you stop with your pleadings miss Sapphire...I asked you to rest and take care of your wound not to roam around. Do you even know the repercussions of not treating it? How can you be so damn ignorant woman? Do you even love yourself or not?"
His question made me go silent...
Do I even love myself...I wanted to laugh at it....
No....I don't .....
My heart has place for only one person and that is him...
He placed me on the wheelchairs and instead of asking the girl he himself directed me to the medical room.
As we entered doctors were ready
I was operated on for the next 25 minutes and this time he didn't left me...
His eyes followed each and everything the doctors did and once they were done he thanked them.
When we were left alone he approached me and continued to stare at me
Feeling uncomfortable I looked down
"I have no right to interfere in your life and ask you why you were crying...or why you are so vulnerable...but remember no man is worth it and no one will come to save you ...you have to be strong to fight this world ...not with anyone but alone...in solidarity lies strength hidden to most but once discovered can make you a rock penetrable by none and withstand able to all..."
His words were the wisest of words I had ever heard...
Was this man real?
"Than..k..you Mr Ronald..."
"I don't want a thanks miss Sapphire...I want a strong girl...can you give her to me..."
He showed me his palm asking for a promise...
I doubted if I will be able to be that girl back again but his eyes made me give it a try
Placing my hand on his I promised something I never thought I would
A wide smile on his lips made me smile in return and I must say this was the first time I actually smiled from my heart since last two years.
He turned around to leave but I couldn't stop myself from asking the question that was roaming my mind since the second I saw him here
"Mr Ronald...how come you are here?"
"I am here to discuss regarding a new business venture with my brother in law....and also to visit my little sister....you must be knowing her... Andrea Stone"
The colour drained from my face as I realised his position
He was miss Andrea's elder brother!!
No doubt his ethics and values resembled hers...
Perfect in all respects
"See you miss Sapphire...hope you work on your promise. And take care"
I returned his warm smile and he was gone...
Chivalry was not dead and he was an epitome of it.
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Hate PersonifiedI know he hates me now...But to this extent....I could have never imagined....Yesterday I was fired from my jobLast night my clothes were literally thrown out of his mansion..And today I was refused each and every job I interviewed for....They simply rejected me with one line"You shouldn't have messed with such a powerful person"Sitting on a bench with my suitcase at my feetA sub in my handAnd few bucks in my pocket was ISapphire brown drowning in my tears.The teardrops were reaching my lips as I took another bite.They made my food salty but that was my least concern.I was hopeless. Penniless...homeless. Jobless and what not.What will I do now?Where will I sleep....It's nothing new...I have been in this condition before but the results have been alwa
Mission to devils caveA heartbreak is not the end of this worldBut deception is.A rejection can only hurt youBut a betrayal kills you.But you can still surviveYou can survive if you freeze your heart and lock your emotionsYou can survive in the shell of a person you once were.And today I just happened to realise how strong of a shell Andro had build around him.As I came out of the bathroom fully soaked in water and back in my senses I was met with his presence.Sitting on the sofa ,scrolling down his phone."1 month"He spoke without looking at me"1 month you have to leave this town and never come back..all your needs will be provided with. You could find a decent job and live your own life without messing with mine...best for both of us"He got up to leave but I will not accept my
Deal with the devilI closed my eyes with my arms engulfing myself trying to protect me from the unknown.My heartbeat was increasing with each passing second and I could feel my hands starting to shake.Minutes passed and my condition worsened in anticipation.A panic attack was in making and me forgetting today's dose of my medicine was a catalyst.He was silent...only his strong cologne and cigar smoke intermixing could be felt.Finally after waiting for too long I decided to open one eye.He was very close...his fingers held my brown locks with which he was playing.."I....I...a...m so..rry...I... didn't..meant.to....""Just shut up your pretty mouth belle"I zipped my mouth shut and breathing became difficult.My chest started moving up and down faster as tears stinged my tears..The pain is startin
DeceivedI was desperate for his forgiveness...Desperate beyond limits...And maybe that's why I was standing here in Henry's office ,handing him over the file behind Andro's back.As I made way out of his office and the news of Henry's final confirmation to the project spread my happiness had no limits.I was sure Andro will be very happy after all this project was his dream project and also one of the biggest.He was celebrating his victoryBut his celebrations involved being with her and not me.I must admit I never saw Andro as happy as he is today..With her in his arms he is staring at Andrea with so much love ."Oh god Alex I can't believe....I am so happy for you..."With this she captured his lips...I should look awayI know but I can'tMy eyes wanted to see it...to feel my heartbreak...to f
Ending the painI granted his wishI never showed him my face again6 months have passed since I last saw himJust 6 and it feels like I haven't met him in eternity.How is life if you ask?Well it's stagnant...boring...dull. DepressingI got a job after all...I am not very proud in telling what is it.But at least it is the only one I have."Sapphire!! You are needed here!!"I looked around to see my co worker holding out the garbage bag for me.I grabbed it and made my way towards the dumpster in the alley.The clothes I wore were not at all decent.It was my work dress so I didn't had a choice.Night was approaching and my shift was going to start.Breathing a long sigh I searched my pocketPlacing two tablets in my mouth I was ready to go.&nbs
Chapter 16 {9°Celsius}Where are you now?Alessandro Romano p.o.vStaring at her back as my mind registered her wordsA disastrous kind of a storm broke inside me."I was a mistake...I was discarded in dump......I don't deserve happiness....you will not have to see this ugly face anymore.... don't have to touch this disgusting body.... congratulations....goodbye......"No!!This can't be it.I should be happy that she finally decided to leave forever.But then I don't know why a feeling of dread enraptured inside me... like my very soul was getting separated from me.Like by not stopping her right now I was committing the biggest mistake of my life.She said she was a mistake...agreed ...but she was my life's most beautiful mistake.Those years with her were the golden period of my life.She said she is ugly.
Chapter 17 {8°Celsius}Boulevard of broken dreamsMy childhood was the one every other child dreamed of.I never longed for anything neither did any of my demands were left unfulfilled.Result of it being that I never grew up to be greedy.When all your wishes get satisfied you no longer aspire for more and more.You learn contend.And that's what my parents desired me to be like.Humble, sweet, understanding ,down to earth and a perfect gentleman.A man who has strength of character.Power of wordsAnd heart of emotions.A man who doesn't class people instead treat rich and poor equally.And may be that was one of the reasons I Alessandro Romano fell madly in love with a poor orphan girl.Who had nothingNo status, no riches ,no family name.Nothing but a pure soul, a bright smile and golden heart.
Chapter 18 {7°Celsius}Diary part 2I never thought I would meet him again but our destiny had different plans.I was again placed in front of him with head hung downNot daring to look into his eyes and focussing on his perfectly shining shoes instead.I was ashamed of myself.Ashamed of being so damn ignorant and lost while crossing the road.Ashamed of my own situation that made me stand here lost at the centre of the road waiting for death without even knowing it.If he hadn't been the one driving the car I was sure any other person must have ran over me .I expected him to yell at meScold me for being so carelessBut he didn't say a word except asked me if I was alright.I gave my answer with a nod and after that there was silence.I could feel his deep state at me but I couldn't dare to look
Beginning of thawPainAn emotion better described by feeling than words.But what he felt was not pain.It was numbness.A numbness that froze whatever was left of him .Froze his brain to even command his body a single action to move.Froze his body to even move a muscle.And when he had accepted his fate and predicted his end.When his whole life had flashbacked in front of his eyes and come to a dead end.An external force cameA force that was enough to throw his body away from the zooming car's path.As soon as his body landed on the pavement and his hands broke the fall a sound was heard that silenced all the other voices around him.The sound was enough to end the screeching voice of the car and the honking horns of the cars.His eyes could only see the cemented grey colour
In his shadowsHe was walking down the halls of the 80 floored office with a satisfied smile on his face.People were congratulating him as he walked passed them with long confident steps.Today was his dayHis company was declared one of the top 10 conglomerates in the world and he was declared the entrepreneur of the year.Today he could actually say that he was successfulNot from the lineage that got passed from his father but which was self made by him.And he was very much proud of it.As he made his way towards the stage to give the speech everyone was eagerly waiting for his eyes fell on the person who stood beside him all along.His motherHer head was held up in pride of him being her son and her eyes had shine of happiness.He offered her his arm and she entangled her own arm with his.He ascended the st
Stay with meI was too blinded by my own problems to see how much he was suffering.I was too blind to see him cry at night holding on to his mother's pictures.I was too blind not to see how much losses his dream business was making because of his lack of presence in his office.I was too blind not to see him give away whatever he ever considered dear in his life.For what if you askFor MeFor making me his Saph again.And maybe for repentance.But for how long.How long will he take care of me.How long will he wait for me to be normal.Some say schizophreniea is life long.What if my problems continue for my entire life.Will he spend his entire life looking after me?Hoping one day I will be fine?When that one day may never come.No if this happens he will destro
Dangerous loveHe entered nearly throwing the car keys in the bowl and made his way towards her room.He marched inside without knocking to find it empty.He was going to exit when he heard the bathroom tap running.He tried opening the bathroom door but it was locked."Saph come out right now!"He shouted knocking on the door.He again tried but no response.He banged on the door calling her name but there was again no response.He made his way down the stairs and opened the drawer to get the spare key of the bathroom.Opening the door he entered to find her no where.He looked around and his eyes fell on the shadow behind the curtain.He pulled the curtain away to take a step back.There she was lying inside the bathtub still wearing her white dress.A bottle of vine in her hands and the fr
Burning in fire of jealousyTears got dried after pleading for so long.Wrists had red marks after struggling for so long.Her chest was heavily moving up and down as she laid on the bed.Devastated.Drained.Destroyed.Her lips wanted to scream, to plead but all that come out of them were silent rough gasps.Gasps for more air.Gasps for calming her chaotic insides.Beads of sweat lingered on her foreheadDropping down on the pillow along with her salty tears.He didn't help herHe stayed in the shadows seeing it all but not doing anything.He wanted to but couldn't.He was dying piece by piece by doing this to her.By seeing her in such a state.But he couldn't step in15 minutes were still left for this madness to end.His eyes kept shifting b
Insane loveSapphire povInsaneThat's what I hear people calling me behind my backBut when was I not insane.Then when I came to know I was thrown away by my parent's into a bin.Then when I didn't speak a word for a week when children at the orphanage bullied me.Then when I slept for days under a tree or anything that covered my head and the passer-by’s just stared.Or then when Andro left me after showing me what you mean by the word love.Yes I was insaneAnd I am happy about it.You know why?Because that's what made me survive.That's what made me realise that after everything I suffered I was still human.A human with lost mindBut she is alive.Breathing each second...Seeing the only person I cared for caring for me in return.Giving me everything he couldn't.Trying his be
I am faded2 months laterAlessandro's study roomHe sat at his table with study lamp being his only illumination.Papers lie scattered around him and the clock stuck 2 at night.He removed his specs from his nose, rubbed his eyes and placed his specs on the table.Placing both his hands behind his head he leaned back on the chair and closed his eyes.He loved the silence...he loved the darknessThey gave serenity to his chaotic mind.But this silence was also short lived when he heard something falling down in the room next to him.Rushing out of his room to the next one his heart accelerated just like it did most often these days.As soon as he opened the door pitch darkness welcomed him.Afraid he called out her name.."Saph....?...are you fine ....where are you...."No reply...
Chapter 20 {5°Celsius}Broken AngelSomewhere in New York city"You think there is any chance doctor?"Asked the nurse while looking at the clipboard in her hands"I can't say but she is surely not our responsibility.....no one claimed to know her....we are only left with the last option.."The nurse looked up at the doctor, a little bit surprised at his answer."But doctor how....how ...can we...I mean she is on high dose right now...if we stop it....the results could be severe...""I understand your worries Melissa but can't you see the long line of patients dying to get a bed in here....look outside the door...there are patients who will die if they are not treated right now....she can still survive without the medicines but they won't....""Right sir....I'll get the bed cleared as soon as possible...."The doctor nodded wh
Chapter 19 {6° Celsius}When he broke18 March 2017I never deserved AndroHe is too good for me or I can say I am too bad for him.I admit we have a connection very few can have.A connection which soothes my anxious heart with just a mere touch of his fingers.But this connection is good for me and a downfall for him.His mother and his friends have made it clear to him.They can predict his downfall with me at his side.But he cannotHe is too adamant and independent to let others control his life.He wants me and he has made this clear to everyone today.He proposed to me today.We haven't even dated but again he was not the kind of man who dated.He never thinks what others think and does what he wishes to do.He said he wanted me to be his if I permitted.My