Deceived
I was desperate for his forgiveness...
Desperate beyond limits...
And maybe that's why I was standing here in Henry's office ,handing him over the file behind Andro's back.
As I made way out of his office and the news of Henry's final confirmation to the project spread my happiness had no limits.
I was sure Andro will be very happy after all this project was his dream project and also one of the biggest.
He was celebrating his victory
But his celebrations involved being with her and not me.
I must admit I never saw Andro as happy as he is today..
With her in his arms he is staring at Andrea with so much love .
"Oh god Alex I can't believe....I am so happy for you..."
With this she captured his lips...
I should look away
I know but I can't
My eyes wanted to see it...to feel my heartbreak...to feel emptiness
His hand pulled her waist to deeper the kiss
They looked oblivious of the world
Oblivious of me
But for me seeing him in someone else's arms was the only thing that mattered.
It didn't mattered that I was shamelessly staring at them
Or that people around were talking about me being a sl** who sold her body to get this deal.
They ended the kiss...
Smile lingered on their faces as the first teardrop managed to escape my eyes.
I turned around my back to them and I remembered the last time he turned his back on me.
Flashback
The debit card in her hands brought a smile on her face as she proceeded towards the jewellery shop.
Her eyes landed on it...
The perfect cut diamond ring
The one she always used to see from the window and wonder if she will ever wear it.
Placing the ring on her finger and giving it a kiss she handed over the card at the counter.
"Thank you ma'am"
the counter girl said
She nodded and made her way out to the car that was already waiting for her.
The driver opened the door for her and she again smiled wondering how money can buy everything.
As she entered the AR mansion looking at her ring from different poses she saw Andro's back on her.
He looked engaged on a call.
Unable to hide her happiness she engulfed him from behind and pressed her head on his shoulders.
Usually he replies or reacts but today his hands stood stiff. Still at his side clenching .
Something was wrong and she could sense it
"Andro...."
He didn't turn...he didn't reply...he simply cut the call and unwrapped her arms that engulfed her.
As soon as his touch left her and he moved away from her without even looking at her the smile on her face disappeared.
"Why?"
Was his simple question. A question that sparked the long hidden fear in her heart.
She knew what he was asking...
The question was her worst nightmare
The nightmare that was becoming a reality.
"A....Andro...please first....listen...to...me....."
He turned around and I saw a fire in his eyes which I never saw before.
His fire didn't scare me but the burning hatred in them against me did.
Before I could react a lot number of pictures were thrown at my face...
As each picture descended on the ground and my eyes lingered on them
My heart got ready to burst and my hands started shaking...
With the little courage left I lowered on my knees and picked the first picture
It was true..
The picture was not fake but the emotions were.
It showed me in arms of him...who was my worst nightmare.
He was holding me but you can't see how he was forcing me.
His harsh grip on my waist and it leaving a bruise for next few days was hidden from the picture.
The next pic my eyes landed on was again true.
Me handing over bundle of dollars in his hands
But the fear in my eyes of him blackmailing me was again hidden.
No one knew the secret behind this happy smile.
But the next picture that laid near my heel made my heart stop for a second.
Two people were laying naked under the sheets. His hand held my locks as he smiled at me ..I was asleep peacefully on his chest.
But they didn't show that I was drugged that night
They didn't show that this picture was planned and clicked perfectly when nothing actually happened.
"Is anything left to listen after seeing this?"
Andro's voice brought me back and I looked up at him
"Andro...I swear....I..."
"Just shut the Fu** up Saph...!! Shut up!!....I want just a yes or no ...tell me Saph...
"Are these pics true?"
They were but they were a deception. He forced me...he blackmailed me...
I continued to sob. How do I tell him the truth..
"Are they true Sapphire!!"
His thunderous voice made me shiver and I nodded
"Y..es"
"Did you stole my money and gave it to that bastard?"
I remained silent not able to answer
"Answer me dammit!!"
"Y....es..."
"Did you lied to me that your friend needed it for her operation...did you lied to me that you were in the hospital that night...did you lied ...?"
"Yes..."
He turned around and grabbed his hair in his hands frustrated...
"Did you did all this for my money...did you agreed to be my fiancé because I had money...."
"Andro...initially-"
"Yes or no dammit!!"
"Y...e...s"
Next I heard a glass landing on the wall and breaking into pieces..
Followed by another and another...
His violence and anger never surfaced before...he was mostly very calm and composed but today this side of him made me fear him.
"I satisfied each and every wish you had...you asked and I placed it at your feet...clothes, jewellery...everything....in return I asked only one damn thing....your love....but you couldn't give it to me......"
I moved towards him trying to explain that I did like him...maybe not as much as he loved me ...but still he was the first man that made me feel this way .
The first man who brought butterflies in my stomach and whose one touch made my soul shiver.
"Andro.... please........there is no other man in my life.....'
"Oh so this is a hobby...huh..?...he is not the only man...you go and sleep with other guys and in front of me you act as a virgin...well played miss Sapphire Brown....well played..."
Next I know he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me up
His eyes were pools of hatred
"Tell me Saph.... wasn't I enough?... wasn't my love enough for you?...or I was always just a source of money for you....a toy with who you can play as you pleased..."
Tears were leaking like stream and my throat felt blocked with all the tears and anxiety..
I wanted to tell him so much but he was not ready to listen to me...
"Andro...you are getting me wr...ong.."
But he won't listen...
He had stepped back from me and turned his back
"Just get lost from my life and don't you ever show me your face...you were a mistake...a mistake that made me realise what a fool I was defending the girl the everyone warned me about..."
"Andro......!!! Please.....I really love you...."
He shut the door on my face and like this the girl named Sapphire Brown was thrown out of Alessandro's life .
She stared at the ring on her finger and endless teardrops fell on the solitaire.
This ring was his only sovereign she had and she loved it more than herself.
After all it was the only thing that made her realise that materialistic things can not buy you true happiness....only love can.
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I didn't wanted anyone to see me in such a vulnerable state...so here I was crying my heart out inside the washroom cubicle...placing my hands on my mouth to silence my breaking sobs.
I know it has been long
I should accept the fact that he has moved on in life with Andrea
But I just can't.
I cannot see him finding comfort in someone else's arms
I just cannot see his smile at her like he used to smile at me.
Oh god please give me strength..
Strength to repent for my mistakes before breaking down.
Cleaning my face and washing away all tears and sadness I made my way out of the washroom like nothing happened.
But what I saw was completely unexpected.
Gone was the wave of happiness. Instead everyone looked tensed with their eyes fixed on the led screen.
The news was enough to shake the very floor under my feat
"....the breaking news of the minute is that in the latest Business rivalry we have MM industries as the leader...the shares were reported to be 20% up within one trading day. Reaching it’s 52 week high...the opening bid was the highest in 12 weeks and we all can guess the reason behind it.....yes you are guessing right ..they have won the patent infringement case from AR industries ....clearing it's name in the 10 year long case...this victory is evident in the shares...investors have again gained confidence in MM after they managed to get 80 million $ compensation from none other than AR industries.....Mr Alessandro Romano suffered the greatest loss of the decade with investors drawing out their money and shares reaching their lowest....."
That was enough to make me take a step back and find where Alessandro was..
He must be devastated!!
He needs to be strong at this point...
I need to make sure he is alright...
I frantically searched for him
There he was sitting in his office with eyes fixed on a stationary point lost in his own thoughts...
Before I could open the door a guard stopped me .
"Sorry ma'am sir has ordered....no one is allowed to enter right now..."
I nodded and he returned...placing my hands on the glass wall overlooking his office....I kept staring at him...
He looked so lost and vulnerable...
I hope I could help him...
Suddenly his lost eyes met mine through the glass and I stepped back.
Before I know he moved out of the office grabbed my wrist painfully and dragged me along
"Andr-"
He didn't let me complete...instead I was pushed harshly inside the elevator with him behind me.
As soon as the door dinged closed both my wrists were grabbed harshly and my head was slammed on the elevator wall.
A throbbing pain entered my skull and for a second my vision became hazy.
His cold red eyes never looked so dangerous before
His intention never so unpredictable
And touch never so hateful before.
"Andro....pl...ease....why....are....yo-"
"You are a disgusting bi***...a fuc**** backstabber!! Sapphire Brown why the hell you have to ruin my life every single time I get up!! Why you have to destroy my dreams...my ambitious...my life!!!Can't you just leave me alone!!! Why...."
"Andro....please try to understand...I cannot forget you...you are my everything...I. Love you...."
"Love me....huh....love is a word that girls like you can never understand.... don't confuse lust with love....you like my body...my status...my money....but you don't love me.....a girl like you can never love anyone except herself!! "
"I know what I am feeling...I have lived with it for last 2 years.....if it wasn't your love....I would have died many years before...you are my lifeline Andro....why don't you understand!"
"You don't destroy the person you love miss Sapphire"
What was he saying....I gave him a confused look and his next words made me hate myself more than I ever did
"Don't give me these innocent eyes....you think I don't know how you got that deal....you think I don't have cameras hidden in my book shelves...you think I don't know how you shamelessly stole my most confidential file and gave it to that Bastard Henry!!............
Are you happy to finally destroy me!!
To watch me on my knees....as a failure!! To kill me !!"
His grip on my hands loosened and he stepped back placing his head on the wall behind and closing his eyes..
I...
I did this?
That file .......?
Oh god what have I done!!
"Andro....I didn't knew...Henry.........he...said....it was a file....on some....old project....!!"
He laughed...
With his eyes yearning to cry his lips were smirking
His emotions were jumbled at such a vulnerable time
Unable to express anyone could see he was an emotional mess right now.
"You didn't know!! Oh wow!! What are you Sapphire 3 years that you didn't know!! You think I am a fool who will buy your lies...if you have guts to deceive me...do have guts to accept it on my face as well..."
The lift dinged as we reached the ground floor
"If I had known I....would have never given him that file...I thought you
..will forgive me...if I got...you the deal...."
"Forgive you...? Listen this for once and for all Sapphire Brown because I don't like to repeat myself.....I will never ever forgive you for what you did to me...you can cry,plead,...die begging for forgiveness but Alessandro Romano has never before nor will ever forgive those who break his trust...and heart..."
"There is the door and I hope you will not waste you time anymore...you can go and live your life...but if you are adamant with this impossible wish of yours to get forgiven....then let me remind you miss Brown....I will no more hesitate to get my revenge on you which I am being generous enough for not taking from you....because you also know if I come on taking my revenge you will regret the day you stepped in my life...and the girl left after I had taken my revenge will be even more broken than I am...I am refraining...don't let me question it...."
"Get lost...hope to never see you again!"
With this I was slightly pushed out of the elevator and slowly the door closed on me.
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Ending the painI granted his wishI never showed him my face again6 months have passed since I last saw himJust 6 and it feels like I haven't met him in eternity.How is life if you ask?Well it's stagnant...boring...dull. DepressingI got a job after all...I am not very proud in telling what is it.But at least it is the only one I have."Sapphire!! You are needed here!!"I looked around to see my co worker holding out the garbage bag for me.I grabbed it and made my way towards the dumpster in the alley.The clothes I wore were not at all decent.It was my work dress so I didn't had a choice.Night was approaching and my shift was going to start.Breathing a long sigh I searched my pocketPlacing two tablets in my mouth I was ready to go.&nbs
Chapter 16 {9°Celsius}Where are you now?Alessandro Romano p.o.vStaring at her back as my mind registered her wordsA disastrous kind of a storm broke inside me."I was a mistake...I was discarded in dump......I don't deserve happiness....you will not have to see this ugly face anymore.... don't have to touch this disgusting body.... congratulations....goodbye......"No!!This can't be it.I should be happy that she finally decided to leave forever.But then I don't know why a feeling of dread enraptured inside me... like my very soul was getting separated from me.Like by not stopping her right now I was committing the biggest mistake of my life.She said she was a mistake...agreed ...but she was my life's most beautiful mistake.Those years with her were the golden period of my life.She said she is ugly.
Chapter 17 {8°Celsius}Boulevard of broken dreamsMy childhood was the one every other child dreamed of.I never longed for anything neither did any of my demands were left unfulfilled.Result of it being that I never grew up to be greedy.When all your wishes get satisfied you no longer aspire for more and more.You learn contend.And that's what my parents desired me to be like.Humble, sweet, understanding ,down to earth and a perfect gentleman.A man who has strength of character.Power of wordsAnd heart of emotions.A man who doesn't class people instead treat rich and poor equally.And may be that was one of the reasons I Alessandro Romano fell madly in love with a poor orphan girl.Who had nothingNo status, no riches ,no family name.Nothing but a pure soul, a bright smile and golden heart.
Chapter 18 {7°Celsius}Diary part 2I never thought I would meet him again but our destiny had different plans.I was again placed in front of him with head hung downNot daring to look into his eyes and focussing on his perfectly shining shoes instead.I was ashamed of myself.Ashamed of being so damn ignorant and lost while crossing the road.Ashamed of my own situation that made me stand here lost at the centre of the road waiting for death without even knowing it.If he hadn't been the one driving the car I was sure any other person must have ran over me .I expected him to yell at meScold me for being so carelessBut he didn't say a word except asked me if I was alright.I gave my answer with a nod and after that there was silence.I could feel his deep state at me but I couldn't dare to look
Chapter 19 {6° Celsius}When he broke18 March 2017I never deserved AndroHe is too good for me or I can say I am too bad for him.I admit we have a connection very few can have.A connection which soothes my anxious heart with just a mere touch of his fingers.But this connection is good for me and a downfall for him.His mother and his friends have made it clear to him.They can predict his downfall with me at his side.But he cannotHe is too adamant and independent to let others control his life.He wants me and he has made this clear to everyone today.He proposed to me today.We haven't even dated but again he was not the kind of man who dated.He never thinks what others think and does what he wishes to do.He said he wanted me to be his if I permitted.My
Chapter 20 {5°Celsius}Broken AngelSomewhere in New York city"You think there is any chance doctor?"Asked the nurse while looking at the clipboard in her hands"I can't say but she is surely not our responsibility.....no one claimed to know her....we are only left with the last option.."The nurse looked up at the doctor, a little bit surprised at his answer."But doctor how....how ...can we...I mean she is on high dose right now...if we stop it....the results could be severe...""I understand your worries Melissa but can't you see the long line of patients dying to get a bed in here....look outside the door...there are patients who will die if they are not treated right now....she can still survive without the medicines but they won't....""Right sir....I'll get the bed cleared as soon as possible...."The doctor nodded wh
I am faded2 months laterAlessandro's study roomHe sat at his table with study lamp being his only illumination.Papers lie scattered around him and the clock stuck 2 at night.He removed his specs from his nose, rubbed his eyes and placed his specs on the table.Placing both his hands behind his head he leaned back on the chair and closed his eyes.He loved the silence...he loved the darknessThey gave serenity to his chaotic mind.But this silence was also short lived when he heard something falling down in the room next to him.Rushing out of his room to the next one his heart accelerated just like it did most often these days.As soon as he opened the door pitch darkness welcomed him.Afraid he called out her name.."Saph....?...are you fine ....where are you...."No reply...
Insane loveSapphire povInsaneThat's what I hear people calling me behind my backBut when was I not insane.Then when I came to know I was thrown away by my parent's into a bin.Then when I didn't speak a word for a week when children at the orphanage bullied me.Then when I slept for days under a tree or anything that covered my head and the passer-by’s just stared.Or then when Andro left me after showing me what you mean by the word love.Yes I was insaneAnd I am happy about it.You know why?Because that's what made me survive.That's what made me realise that after everything I suffered I was still human.A human with lost mindBut she is alive.Breathing each second...Seeing the only person I cared for caring for me in return.Giving me everything he couldn't.Trying his be
Beginning of thawPainAn emotion better described by feeling than words.But what he felt was not pain.It was numbness.A numbness that froze whatever was left of him .Froze his brain to even command his body a single action to move.Froze his body to even move a muscle.And when he had accepted his fate and predicted his end.When his whole life had flashbacked in front of his eyes and come to a dead end.An external force cameA force that was enough to throw his body away from the zooming car's path.As soon as his body landed on the pavement and his hands broke the fall a sound was heard that silenced all the other voices around him.The sound was enough to end the screeching voice of the car and the honking horns of the cars.His eyes could only see the cemented grey colour
In his shadowsHe was walking down the halls of the 80 floored office with a satisfied smile on his face.People were congratulating him as he walked passed them with long confident steps.Today was his dayHis company was declared one of the top 10 conglomerates in the world and he was declared the entrepreneur of the year.Today he could actually say that he was successfulNot from the lineage that got passed from his father but which was self made by him.And he was very much proud of it.As he made his way towards the stage to give the speech everyone was eagerly waiting for his eyes fell on the person who stood beside him all along.His motherHer head was held up in pride of him being her son and her eyes had shine of happiness.He offered her his arm and she entangled her own arm with his.He ascended the st
Stay with meI was too blinded by my own problems to see how much he was suffering.I was too blind to see him cry at night holding on to his mother's pictures.I was too blind not to see how much losses his dream business was making because of his lack of presence in his office.I was too blind not to see him give away whatever he ever considered dear in his life.For what if you askFor MeFor making me his Saph again.And maybe for repentance.But for how long.How long will he take care of me.How long will he wait for me to be normal.Some say schizophreniea is life long.What if my problems continue for my entire life.Will he spend his entire life looking after me?Hoping one day I will be fine?When that one day may never come.No if this happens he will destro
Dangerous loveHe entered nearly throwing the car keys in the bowl and made his way towards her room.He marched inside without knocking to find it empty.He was going to exit when he heard the bathroom tap running.He tried opening the bathroom door but it was locked."Saph come out right now!"He shouted knocking on the door.He again tried but no response.He banged on the door calling her name but there was again no response.He made his way down the stairs and opened the drawer to get the spare key of the bathroom.Opening the door he entered to find her no where.He looked around and his eyes fell on the shadow behind the curtain.He pulled the curtain away to take a step back.There she was lying inside the bathtub still wearing her white dress.A bottle of vine in her hands and the fr
Burning in fire of jealousyTears got dried after pleading for so long.Wrists had red marks after struggling for so long.Her chest was heavily moving up and down as she laid on the bed.Devastated.Drained.Destroyed.Her lips wanted to scream, to plead but all that come out of them were silent rough gasps.Gasps for more air.Gasps for calming her chaotic insides.Beads of sweat lingered on her foreheadDropping down on the pillow along with her salty tears.He didn't help herHe stayed in the shadows seeing it all but not doing anything.He wanted to but couldn't.He was dying piece by piece by doing this to her.By seeing her in such a state.But he couldn't step in15 minutes were still left for this madness to end.His eyes kept shifting b
Insane loveSapphire povInsaneThat's what I hear people calling me behind my backBut when was I not insane.Then when I came to know I was thrown away by my parent's into a bin.Then when I didn't speak a word for a week when children at the orphanage bullied me.Then when I slept for days under a tree or anything that covered my head and the passer-by’s just stared.Or then when Andro left me after showing me what you mean by the word love.Yes I was insaneAnd I am happy about it.You know why?Because that's what made me survive.That's what made me realise that after everything I suffered I was still human.A human with lost mindBut she is alive.Breathing each second...Seeing the only person I cared for caring for me in return.Giving me everything he couldn't.Trying his be
I am faded2 months laterAlessandro's study roomHe sat at his table with study lamp being his only illumination.Papers lie scattered around him and the clock stuck 2 at night.He removed his specs from his nose, rubbed his eyes and placed his specs on the table.Placing both his hands behind his head he leaned back on the chair and closed his eyes.He loved the silence...he loved the darknessThey gave serenity to his chaotic mind.But this silence was also short lived when he heard something falling down in the room next to him.Rushing out of his room to the next one his heart accelerated just like it did most often these days.As soon as he opened the door pitch darkness welcomed him.Afraid he called out her name.."Saph....?...are you fine ....where are you...."No reply...
Chapter 20 {5°Celsius}Broken AngelSomewhere in New York city"You think there is any chance doctor?"Asked the nurse while looking at the clipboard in her hands"I can't say but she is surely not our responsibility.....no one claimed to know her....we are only left with the last option.."The nurse looked up at the doctor, a little bit surprised at his answer."But doctor how....how ...can we...I mean she is on high dose right now...if we stop it....the results could be severe...""I understand your worries Melissa but can't you see the long line of patients dying to get a bed in here....look outside the door...there are patients who will die if they are not treated right now....she can still survive without the medicines but they won't....""Right sir....I'll get the bed cleared as soon as possible...."The doctor nodded wh
Chapter 19 {6° Celsius}When he broke18 March 2017I never deserved AndroHe is too good for me or I can say I am too bad for him.I admit we have a connection very few can have.A connection which soothes my anxious heart with just a mere touch of his fingers.But this connection is good for me and a downfall for him.His mother and his friends have made it clear to him.They can predict his downfall with me at his side.But he cannotHe is too adamant and independent to let others control his life.He wants me and he has made this clear to everyone today.He proposed to me today.We haven't even dated but again he was not the kind of man who dated.He never thinks what others think and does what he wishes to do.He said he wanted me to be his if I permitted.My