Deal with the devil
I closed my eyes with my arms engulfing myself trying to protect me from the unknown.
My heartbeat was increasing with each passing second and I could feel my hands starting to shake.
Minutes passed and my condition worsened in anticipation.
A panic attack was in making and me forgetting today's dose of my medicine was a catalyst.
He was silent...only his strong cologne and cigar smoke intermixing could be felt.
Finally after waiting for too long I decided to open one eye.
He was very close...his fingers held my brown locks with which he was playing..
"I....I...a...m so..rry...I... didn't..meant.to...."
"Just shut up your pretty mouth belle"
I zipped my mouth shut and breathing became difficult.
My chest started moving up and down faster as tears stinged my tears..
The pain is starting....sh**....this panic attack seems worse than others.
Within next minute I was sliding down the wall holding onto my chest. My legs felt heavy and my energy was draining.
Before my body could hit the ground a hand on my waist supported my weight.
My face was pressed on his chest as my body was completely left at his mercy.
"Belle..."
I felt cold fingers hold on to my wrist to check my pulse rate
"Sh**!! It's a panic attack!!"
I was lifted up bridal style and placed on the sofa...through teary eyes I could see him ransacking my purse .
The next minute my head was placed in his lap and he raised my head a bit
"Open your mouth...here take the medicine.."
The medicine was placed on my lips followed my him placing a glass of water on my lips.
I gulped enough water to swallow the medicine and my body fully collapsed on him exhausted.
Just before my eyes closed down I saw him looking at me with gentle eyes while wiping my tears .
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Henry was a playboy
There was no doubt in this
And most of the girls with whom he played also liked to play his games.
They liked to be with such a handsome and influential person even if it's for a short time.
But today sitting on his office chair staring at the cute little unconscious girl he questioned himself
"Why would Alessandro send a girl like her?"
Alessandro as per him was a very intelligent person ..with no time for love and emotions...he was cold and he never did anything wrong..
Then why send an innocent girl like her to convince him. Earlier the girls that came to convince him knew what they came for and did it well..
But this girl...she wanted to do business by talking and not with her body..
Unlike others who came.
There was no doubt that he was intrigued by her...by her bravery and her actions...
But she was too innocent for her own good.
And he will use this innocence of her to his best advantage.
He looked at her and smirked.
The brilliant idea that he just came up with will not only make me grab the 5 millions deal but will also destroy his only business competitor Alessandro.
And she will be his Ace in this game of cards.
A businessman is always an opportunist and today this opportunity itself knocked on his door in the form of this innocent girl.
How can he let her go?
Get ready belle...you won't even know what you did that caused the entire deck of cards to come crashing down.
He thought as she opened her eyes.
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I woke up with a heavy headache
I looked around to see that I was still in Henry's office and he was sitting on his table looking into some papers.
"..s..orry...for ....causing you ...trouble I'll take...my leave"
I lifted myself up and was ready to leave when his words stopped me
"You want me to sign this deal ...right belle?"
I turned around and looked at him shocked.
Will he sign it?
If he does will Andro forgive me?
"Yes.."
"Well then you have to do something for me in return.....there is a file ...file no 211 in Andro's office...I want it within next 24 hours "
A file?...
Well that is a very easy task...but it sounds fishy....
"So what do you say? Do you accept devils deal belle?"
".......okay......but...first I need to know what's inside it...that's so .... important...?"
"It is a deal we both decided to do few years back...but he backed out of it...the deal documents are still with him and he refuses to give them to me ...if you can get me the file I can amend some clauses and carry it out with my other partners.."
I don't understand business....but this file seemed harmless to me.
If it can help me get forgiveness by Andro then why not.
"Okay...I'll get it by tom"
He smiled and signed the file I bought him...
"I have done my part ..now you need to do yours"
I nodded and left with a broad smile on my face.
Andro will be very much surprised..
I will love to see his defeated face..
As I showed Andro the file his face was flabbergasted. And so was everyone else's.
He covered his shock look and placed the file aside.
"Get the meeting started..."
Everyone was whispering while staring at me...I passed all of them a smile and made my way to my table.
Mr Ronald was already waiting for me at my table.
"Sapphire...thank God you are alright....Henry didn't do anything....right?"
"No Mr Ronald he didn't ....I directly refused and he understood...but I didn't expected mr Alessandro to send me...."
"That's why I was stopping him! I don't know what has happened to him these days...he knows what Henry expects but still he sent you...those girls are.....anyways you are fine...that's what matters..."
"It's okay don't worry...I am perfectly fine.."
He nodded and left while I decided how to get the file now..
It was evening now and most of the members were busy packing up their stuff..
I decided to first search for the file in the store room
It was stocked in files from top to bottom and my eyes randomly searched for the number nearest to 211.....
I reached the sequence....there was 210...212...but no 211...
I sighed in fatigue and frustration...
Lifting myself up...I made my way towards his office..
This is my only chance of forgiveness...
I need to get that file.
The room was empty...the meeting was still going on and now was the right time.
The drawers in his office table were locked as expected...
I searched for the key but it was no where to be found
This is wrong...my conscience scolded me..I was stealing something
But I want his forgiveness....
My eyes landed on his chair and to my luck his coat was hanging on it...
Placing my hand in the pocket I felt the keys.
But instead of happiness...fear entered my mind...
What if Andro comes to know of this...
No he will not know...there are no cameras here in his room...it's safe.
I opened the drawer and there were around 8 files there.
File 211 was the last one and I didn't waste much time and locked the drawer back
Placing the keys back into his pocket.
In a hurry the file slipped from my hands and landed near the table.
I was going to pick it up when the door to his office was slammed open and his eyes directly met mine.
Fear was a small word... something similar to a heart attack shook me.
My eyes looked down to see the file lying near my feet.
I slipped it under the table with my foot but as soon as I looked back up
Andro was moving towards me
Next I know my back was pushed back on the table and a gasp left my lips.
His arms blocked me between him and the table.
I thought he will question my presence here in his office but he was angry about something else.
"How did you bloody managed to convince him?...how?"
His eyes were hate personified and his voice as deadly as a beast.
I remained silent...
"How did I not see this 2 years before...how was I so damn ignorant of your whoring ways....I must admit it miss brown...you are beyond my expectations.."
"Convincing Henry takes more than a beautiful face and a sexy body. Which you lack in all respects....so tell me miss Brown what did you do?"
"I....I... explained...him...the proposal....he like-"
"Don't you dare Fu**** lie to me Sapphire!!You think convincing someone takes 3 damn hours..huh?
And not to forget this stinking smoke smell which I can still smell from your clothes..."
"So tell me Sapphire...did you fuc*** sleep with him?"
His grip on my shoulder tightened making me squirm in pain
"Isn't that what you wanted me to do?"
My reply made him freeze at his spot...this is the truth and let's show him it crystal clear
"Didn't you send me to sleep with him!! Didn't you Mr Alessandro Rousso Romano??
You dare to send me to a Fu***** playboy to sell my body to him so that I can get a deal for you...I never thought that you will be such a man Andro...."
"I loved you...and I still love my Andro...but you are not my Andro!!
You are not even a shell of a person my Andro was.....he would never send a girl to get raped by a monster....he would kill a person who even touched his Saph....but you....you are not him...."
His grip on my shoulders loosened and he turned around from me not able to look at me.
"Mr Rousso I may have betrayed your trust...may have faked a lot of things...may have even lied to you...but never did I wished anything bad for you....never did I enjoyed causing you any pain....I am not a sadist like you..."
He turned around and grabbed my throat with so much force that my head was slammed on the table behind and his legs blocked my lower body.
"Sadist....you call me a sadist when it was you who played thousand games with my heart....it was you who made me loose my sanity for 1 whole year....when it was you who fuck** guys while I was finding ways of ending myself..."
My eyes widened and no longer the pain on my neck mattered...
Ending himself....
The pain was still present in his eyes but now the only difference was that it was being lighted by sparks of old wounds.
He was breaking from inside. I could see it but he will never accept it.
"You tried every weapon to kill me...to destroy the fun-loving happy Andro...to ruin not only him but even his empire...but I survived...I survived with the hate I mustered for you. And this hate has no reasons...no boundaries...and no regrets...."
His grip on my neck tightened and I nearly choked
His eyes are beholders of a monster...a monster who I have started to fear
"Don't blame me for hating you...for hurting you...or even selling you to that playboy Henry because even you know you deserve every damn bit of it and even worse...."
He moved back and I held my neck coughing rigorously.
He stood there staring at me struggling in pain but he didn't moved forwards to help.
And why would he when he caused it in the first place.
When the coughs died down and my breathing returned to normal he was still there staring at me lying at his feet at his mercy.
"Get up and leave now...you are wasting my time...."
Oh Andro....
Why each word that comes out of your lips deepens the crack in this already cracked mirror.
I was trying to build a bridge to reach your side but you keep on widening the gap....I don't know when the crevice got turned into a rift and the rift into a valley...but I just fear that don't go that far that even the longest of bridge can't connect our two broken Half's.
That I die from that same cliff trying to reach you...but you have already turned your back on me and started your journey to the continentality of the plains with someone else's hands in yours...
While his back was on me..I managed to pick up the file 211 from under the table and while clutching it to my chest made my way out of his office ...
This file was my last chance of forgiveness...and I will have it.
Don't you worry Andro...I will take away all this pain from you...I will relieve you of the pain that I have caused.
Even if the mirror of my heart cracks ...I will still reflect you back the light that once you reflected me.
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DeceivedI was desperate for his forgiveness...Desperate beyond limits...And maybe that's why I was standing here in Henry's office ,handing him over the file behind Andro's back.As I made way out of his office and the news of Henry's final confirmation to the project spread my happiness had no limits.I was sure Andro will be very happy after all this project was his dream project and also one of the biggest.He was celebrating his victoryBut his celebrations involved being with her and not me.I must admit I never saw Andro as happy as he is today..With her in his arms he is staring at Andrea with so much love ."Oh god Alex I can't believe....I am so happy for you..."With this she captured his lips...I should look awayI know but I can'tMy eyes wanted to see it...to feel my heartbreak...to f
Ending the painI granted his wishI never showed him my face again6 months have passed since I last saw himJust 6 and it feels like I haven't met him in eternity.How is life if you ask?Well it's stagnant...boring...dull. DepressingI got a job after all...I am not very proud in telling what is it.But at least it is the only one I have."Sapphire!! You are needed here!!"I looked around to see my co worker holding out the garbage bag for me.I grabbed it and made my way towards the dumpster in the alley.The clothes I wore were not at all decent.It was my work dress so I didn't had a choice.Night was approaching and my shift was going to start.Breathing a long sigh I searched my pocketPlacing two tablets in my mouth I was ready to go.&nbs
Chapter 16 {9°Celsius}Where are you now?Alessandro Romano p.o.vStaring at her back as my mind registered her wordsA disastrous kind of a storm broke inside me."I was a mistake...I was discarded in dump......I don't deserve happiness....you will not have to see this ugly face anymore.... don't have to touch this disgusting body.... congratulations....goodbye......"No!!This can't be it.I should be happy that she finally decided to leave forever.But then I don't know why a feeling of dread enraptured inside me... like my very soul was getting separated from me.Like by not stopping her right now I was committing the biggest mistake of my life.She said she was a mistake...agreed ...but she was my life's most beautiful mistake.Those years with her were the golden period of my life.She said she is ugly.
Chapter 17 {8°Celsius}Boulevard of broken dreamsMy childhood was the one every other child dreamed of.I never longed for anything neither did any of my demands were left unfulfilled.Result of it being that I never grew up to be greedy.When all your wishes get satisfied you no longer aspire for more and more.You learn contend.And that's what my parents desired me to be like.Humble, sweet, understanding ,down to earth and a perfect gentleman.A man who has strength of character.Power of wordsAnd heart of emotions.A man who doesn't class people instead treat rich and poor equally.And may be that was one of the reasons I Alessandro Romano fell madly in love with a poor orphan girl.Who had nothingNo status, no riches ,no family name.Nothing but a pure soul, a bright smile and golden heart.
Chapter 18 {7°Celsius}Diary part 2I never thought I would meet him again but our destiny had different plans.I was again placed in front of him with head hung downNot daring to look into his eyes and focussing on his perfectly shining shoes instead.I was ashamed of myself.Ashamed of being so damn ignorant and lost while crossing the road.Ashamed of my own situation that made me stand here lost at the centre of the road waiting for death without even knowing it.If he hadn't been the one driving the car I was sure any other person must have ran over me .I expected him to yell at meScold me for being so carelessBut he didn't say a word except asked me if I was alright.I gave my answer with a nod and after that there was silence.I could feel his deep state at me but I couldn't dare to look
Chapter 19 {6° Celsius}When he broke18 March 2017I never deserved AndroHe is too good for me or I can say I am too bad for him.I admit we have a connection very few can have.A connection which soothes my anxious heart with just a mere touch of his fingers.But this connection is good for me and a downfall for him.His mother and his friends have made it clear to him.They can predict his downfall with me at his side.But he cannotHe is too adamant and independent to let others control his life.He wants me and he has made this clear to everyone today.He proposed to me today.We haven't even dated but again he was not the kind of man who dated.He never thinks what others think and does what he wishes to do.He said he wanted me to be his if I permitted.My
Chapter 20 {5°Celsius}Broken AngelSomewhere in New York city"You think there is any chance doctor?"Asked the nurse while looking at the clipboard in her hands"I can't say but she is surely not our responsibility.....no one claimed to know her....we are only left with the last option.."The nurse looked up at the doctor, a little bit surprised at his answer."But doctor how....how ...can we...I mean she is on high dose right now...if we stop it....the results could be severe...""I understand your worries Melissa but can't you see the long line of patients dying to get a bed in here....look outside the door...there are patients who will die if they are not treated right now....she can still survive without the medicines but they won't....""Right sir....I'll get the bed cleared as soon as possible...."The doctor nodded wh
I am faded2 months laterAlessandro's study roomHe sat at his table with study lamp being his only illumination.Papers lie scattered around him and the clock stuck 2 at night.He removed his specs from his nose, rubbed his eyes and placed his specs on the table.Placing both his hands behind his head he leaned back on the chair and closed his eyes.He loved the silence...he loved the darknessThey gave serenity to his chaotic mind.But this silence was also short lived when he heard something falling down in the room next to him.Rushing out of his room to the next one his heart accelerated just like it did most often these days.As soon as he opened the door pitch darkness welcomed him.Afraid he called out her name.."Saph....?...are you fine ....where are you...."No reply...
Beginning of thawPainAn emotion better described by feeling than words.But what he felt was not pain.It was numbness.A numbness that froze whatever was left of him .Froze his brain to even command his body a single action to move.Froze his body to even move a muscle.And when he had accepted his fate and predicted his end.When his whole life had flashbacked in front of his eyes and come to a dead end.An external force cameA force that was enough to throw his body away from the zooming car's path.As soon as his body landed on the pavement and his hands broke the fall a sound was heard that silenced all the other voices around him.The sound was enough to end the screeching voice of the car and the honking horns of the cars.His eyes could only see the cemented grey colour
In his shadowsHe was walking down the halls of the 80 floored office with a satisfied smile on his face.People were congratulating him as he walked passed them with long confident steps.Today was his dayHis company was declared one of the top 10 conglomerates in the world and he was declared the entrepreneur of the year.Today he could actually say that he was successfulNot from the lineage that got passed from his father but which was self made by him.And he was very much proud of it.As he made his way towards the stage to give the speech everyone was eagerly waiting for his eyes fell on the person who stood beside him all along.His motherHer head was held up in pride of him being her son and her eyes had shine of happiness.He offered her his arm and she entangled her own arm with his.He ascended the st
Stay with meI was too blinded by my own problems to see how much he was suffering.I was too blind to see him cry at night holding on to his mother's pictures.I was too blind not to see how much losses his dream business was making because of his lack of presence in his office.I was too blind not to see him give away whatever he ever considered dear in his life.For what if you askFor MeFor making me his Saph again.And maybe for repentance.But for how long.How long will he take care of me.How long will he wait for me to be normal.Some say schizophreniea is life long.What if my problems continue for my entire life.Will he spend his entire life looking after me?Hoping one day I will be fine?When that one day may never come.No if this happens he will destro
Dangerous loveHe entered nearly throwing the car keys in the bowl and made his way towards her room.He marched inside without knocking to find it empty.He was going to exit when he heard the bathroom tap running.He tried opening the bathroom door but it was locked."Saph come out right now!"He shouted knocking on the door.He again tried but no response.He banged on the door calling her name but there was again no response.He made his way down the stairs and opened the drawer to get the spare key of the bathroom.Opening the door he entered to find her no where.He looked around and his eyes fell on the shadow behind the curtain.He pulled the curtain away to take a step back.There she was lying inside the bathtub still wearing her white dress.A bottle of vine in her hands and the fr
Burning in fire of jealousyTears got dried after pleading for so long.Wrists had red marks after struggling for so long.Her chest was heavily moving up and down as she laid on the bed.Devastated.Drained.Destroyed.Her lips wanted to scream, to plead but all that come out of them were silent rough gasps.Gasps for more air.Gasps for calming her chaotic insides.Beads of sweat lingered on her foreheadDropping down on the pillow along with her salty tears.He didn't help herHe stayed in the shadows seeing it all but not doing anything.He wanted to but couldn't.He was dying piece by piece by doing this to her.By seeing her in such a state.But he couldn't step in15 minutes were still left for this madness to end.His eyes kept shifting b
Insane loveSapphire povInsaneThat's what I hear people calling me behind my backBut when was I not insane.Then when I came to know I was thrown away by my parent's into a bin.Then when I didn't speak a word for a week when children at the orphanage bullied me.Then when I slept for days under a tree or anything that covered my head and the passer-by’s just stared.Or then when Andro left me after showing me what you mean by the word love.Yes I was insaneAnd I am happy about it.You know why?Because that's what made me survive.That's what made me realise that after everything I suffered I was still human.A human with lost mindBut she is alive.Breathing each second...Seeing the only person I cared for caring for me in return.Giving me everything he couldn't.Trying his be
I am faded2 months laterAlessandro's study roomHe sat at his table with study lamp being his only illumination.Papers lie scattered around him and the clock stuck 2 at night.He removed his specs from his nose, rubbed his eyes and placed his specs on the table.Placing both his hands behind his head he leaned back on the chair and closed his eyes.He loved the silence...he loved the darknessThey gave serenity to his chaotic mind.But this silence was also short lived when he heard something falling down in the room next to him.Rushing out of his room to the next one his heart accelerated just like it did most often these days.As soon as he opened the door pitch darkness welcomed him.Afraid he called out her name.."Saph....?...are you fine ....where are you...."No reply...
Chapter 20 {5°Celsius}Broken AngelSomewhere in New York city"You think there is any chance doctor?"Asked the nurse while looking at the clipboard in her hands"I can't say but she is surely not our responsibility.....no one claimed to know her....we are only left with the last option.."The nurse looked up at the doctor, a little bit surprised at his answer."But doctor how....how ...can we...I mean she is on high dose right now...if we stop it....the results could be severe...""I understand your worries Melissa but can't you see the long line of patients dying to get a bed in here....look outside the door...there are patients who will die if they are not treated right now....she can still survive without the medicines but they won't....""Right sir....I'll get the bed cleared as soon as possible...."The doctor nodded wh
Chapter 19 {6° Celsius}When he broke18 March 2017I never deserved AndroHe is too good for me or I can say I am too bad for him.I admit we have a connection very few can have.A connection which soothes my anxious heart with just a mere touch of his fingers.But this connection is good for me and a downfall for him.His mother and his friends have made it clear to him.They can predict his downfall with me at his side.But he cannotHe is too adamant and independent to let others control his life.He wants me and he has made this clear to everyone today.He proposed to me today.We haven't even dated but again he was not the kind of man who dated.He never thinks what others think and does what he wishes to do.He said he wanted me to be his if I permitted.My