CHAPTER THREE: MARIA

I woke up laying on my new bed. I can't believe that I really fell as sleep knowing that I'm alone and Lia is not on my side. 

There was no sun that touch my skin like I used to feel whenever I am waking up in the morning. There are no windows here and it feels strange for me because whenever I wake up in the morning, the first thing that I'm going to do is to let myself feel the cold breeze that slowly touching my skin. It makes me calm and make my mind feel the peace. 

"I miss you," I murmured. 

I suddenly felt the sadness. I touched my cheek and I started to feel the hands I missed. The softness and the way he caressed me before, it's way different to the point I forgot how it feels to be touched by other people too. 

My eyes started to tear as if the rain started to pour up to my head down to my feet. 

"How could you leave me all alone?" 

I bit my lower lip and I really find it hard to believe that everything is over and I have to accept that it's all done. 

I don't really know how to move forward. I don't know how to feel better because I had the best. 

"Hey, are you awake?" 

I sat down on my bed when I heard Edward's voice behind the door of this room. I fixed myself and I brushed my hair using my fingers. 

"I'm going to enter your room," he said. 

I heard how he enter the key on the door knob and when he pressed it, the door finally opened. He pushed it and I finally saw him. 

He has a tray in his hand. The tray consists a food, water and I think a medicine. 

He smiled at me while walking towards the bed I was sitting. 

"Good morning," he greeted me, the reason why I smiled. 

He went to the small table on the side of my bed and he moved it in front of me. He put down the tray on the table and he prepared the spoon and pork. 

"This is your breakfast, I made it and I hope you'll like it," he said before giving me the spoon and pork. 

I saw the bread with an egg and a bunch of grapes. There was also a milk on the side.  

I was wondering why it looks so tasty when I remembered what Edward said a while ago. He made if for me. 

"You cooked this? Are you the cook in this mental hospital?" I confusingly asked him. 

He suddenly laughed at me as if I said a stupid sentence.  

"I'm not the cook here. I am the head, remember? What made you think of that?" 

When I heard what he said, I felt ashamed and I just wanted to cover up my face. I can't believe that I have said those stupid words. 

"I'm sorry. It's just, what you said is unexplainable. Why would you do this kind of thing just for me? I mean, I am not special and I won't even pay for the bills and the days of staying here," I stated. 

"You know what, it doesn't concern me whether I did this thing to you or not. You are the girlfriend of my ex-patient, so it's my responsibility to take care of you. Also, I promised to your sister that I will help you."

His words answered all of the questions in my head. I avoided his glance and I tried to focus on the tray in front of me. I started grabbing the bread with an egg and I ate it all. 

My eyes became round because of the amazement. This food tastes good and I didn't think that it will turn like this. 

"Do you like it?" Edward asked that's why I nodded to him. 

I noticed how his lips smiled widely when he heard what I said. 

I picked up the grapes and I started eating it. It tastes sweet, the reason why I smiled without me even knowing it. 

"I guess you love the grapes more than the egg sandwich I prepared for you," he jokingly said before laughing in a silent way. 

"Yeah, I love sweet foods," I answered him. 

This is the first time that I confessed to someone how I really like sweet foods. I suddenly felt comfortable with him. 

I knew Edward and he is really nice. It's just, sometimes I can't read what's on his mind. I can't distinguish his thoughts and moods. 

"Glad, you like it. Now, you may drink your milk. It's a fresh milk. I bought them," Edward said. 

I looked at him as if I can't believe that he did this for me. 

"Why are you doing this?" I asked again. 

I know that his actions are over and I don't have an idea on why he's doing all of this. 

"I told you already. Anyway, hurry, drink your milk and take the medicine. You have to take it for you to become better as soon as possible." 

When he said those words, I remembered what he just said earlier and again, it answered all the questions in my head. 

I grabbed the glass of milk and started to drink it. When I finished drinking it, I looked for the pills that Edward has mentioned. 

I found it on the side of the tray. Its color is white and I never asked Edward what are these pills for. I started taking the pills and it finally reached the inside of me. 

"Good, Lilith. I hope you'll become better as soon as possible. Lia will be happy if it happens."

I smiled when I heard what he just said. He was right, Lia will be happy if I become better as soon as possible. I'm just hoping that this ill will ease away, even if it takes time. 

"Anyway, you will have an activity today. You will meet other patients too. I hope you will enjoy having them on your side."

My left eyebrow raised when my ears heard what Edward said. An activity? What is that for? Do I really have to go there? These are the questions in my head. 

"Do I really have to go there?" I asked Edward in a shy tone. 

He just nodded at me and started to clean the table I used for eating. He picked up the tray and he stood from the chair he was sitting earlier. 

"Yes, you will have to go there, sweetie," he calmly said, the reason for me to sigh so heavily. 

If I could just escape again. I wish I could just stay here in my room. I don't want to face people because I know, they will only pity me for the reason that I look totally fine yet I'm here in mental hospital, taking a meditation.

"Don't worry, no one will judge you there," said by Edward before walking away from me. 

When he reached the door, he looked at me for the last moment and smiled widely. I smiled at him back. 

He locked up the room and I left all alone again. I sighed so heavily because I don't know what to do and what else I can do. 

I just sat down and I wait for the moment that Edward will come back because he said that we will have an activity where I will meet other patients too.

I waited a few moments until I heard someone's knocking on the door and I knew from that moment, it was Edward. 

"Hello, Lilith. Did I make you wait so long?" he asked. 

I never answered him and I just waited for him to finally enter my room. 

"I will enter your room," he said and I heard the door opening. 

The first thing I saw to him when he entered my room was his biggest smile that I couldn't paint.  

"Let's go," he said while smiling. 

I felt my anxiety comes back again when he uttered those words. I don't want to face people, I am afraid of them. 

"It will be okay, you have to follow my order."

I have no choice, but to follow him. I stood up and when he saw what I did, he started walking and I just followed his footsteps. 

We continued walking until we reached the room. I heard noises which gives me shiver down my spine. I just wanted to run away from this place. 

"You may enter the room now. Enjoy," he said to me before pushing me to enter the room and I did nothing, I just let him pushed me. 

When I finally entered the room, a lot of eyes started to watch me. I bit my lower lip and I really feel the strange wind around this room. 

I was about to leave the room when someone approached me and grabbed my hand. 

"Who are you?" I freaked out and I hid my hand that she touched a while ago. 

I saw a woman, I guess she was above thirty year old because of her white hairs and the wrinkles on her face. 

"Don't be scared, I'm not going to bite you," she said. 

I looked around and I saw a lot of people looking on us, but later on, they focused themselves again on doing what they are doing a while ago before I entered this room. 

"I am Maria, I hope we can be friends," she said to me. 

I don't know how to answer her because I forgot how to make a friendship to anyone anymore. 

I forgot everything and I lost all my abilities and I have no idea if I could bring it all again.