Nobela ni Jayord Maki

Still raining outside. I left my unfinished homeworks on my study table. There's just something in this kind of weather that makes me sad, gloom, and alone but strangely, I want to feel it, feels like home. Maybe these was the feeling that linked to my idea of what is home or what feels like without having a home.For a long time of being on my own, perhaps it is the reason why I'm used to it, learned to like it.

Pinanalangin ko kagabi na kung maaari ay hindi ko makita, makasalubong o masipat manlang ang kahit na anino ni Miss Mina sa Univesity pero mukhang hindi pinagbigyan ng langit ang hiling ko.Ganun bako kasama?Para namang may takas ako? Pwede niya akong ipatawag sa counselor's office kung kailan niya gustuhin.

I left right after finishing my coffee. I got no answer to everything that bothers me of him. How can I get an answers if I didn't even ask at the first place?I finished the coffee faster than what I've planned. I can't stand the awkwardness I felt between us. Maybe it's just me, the awkward and him? he didn't feel the same way I guess. Why would he be awkward if he's okay with everything and he thinks everything is fine and Im fine.

It started raining as soon as I enter El Viño. I anticipated it so I go home early.Umasa akong makikita ko si Ben sa parke ngayong araw. He really mastered the art of hiding. Maliban sa coffee shop at sa Pines park ay 'di ko na alam ang iba pa niyang pwedeng puntahan.

I rushed down the building.I'm almost ten minutes late. Exact 7am ang usapan at exact 7am din ako nagising.

"Sigurado kang di ka sasabay?" Paulit na tanong ni Jim bago kami maghiwalay. Sa pangatlong pagkakataon ay tumanggi ako. Inalok niya ako ng libreng pamasahe pero desidido akong maglakad. Siguro ay nag-aalala si Jim dahil malalim na ang gabi para maglakad pauwi. Sa tagal ko na dito sa bayan ni minsan ay di pa ako napahamak sa paglalakad sa gabi. May mas mataas pang posibilidad na makasalubong ang mga hayop mula sa nakapalibot na bundok kaysa makasalubong ng magnanakaw o kung ano man masasamang loob.