Lahat ng Kabanata ng Regretting Divorce: Return of my heiress Ex-Wife: Kabanata 181 - Kabanata 189

E L L EMy nerves were literally high up the roof when Mikhail walked into the room with a big smile on his face, oblivious to the news that would change everything."Hey, beautiful," he greeted me, kissing my lips."Hey, baby," I smiled nervously."What are you doing?" He said, walking into the room and removing his shoes."Uh, nothing much. Just relaxing.""Hmmm." He stared at me for a while, probably noticing the tension in my face."Are you okay?" He cupped my cheeks, looking into my eyes. I fidgeted, unable to keep eye contact for too long. My gaze fell on the floor."Is there something wrong?""N-no. Nothing's wrong. Everything is great.""You're acting strange. Come on, talk to me. You can tell me anything."I swallowed hard, staring into his eyes."Mikhail, I need to tell you something, and I'm scared. Please, hear me out." I said, my heart was racing a thousand miles an hour."Okay.""Please, promise me that you'll hear me out.""Of course, sweetheart." He held my hands, urgi

S E B A S T I A NI sat in the mini art studio I had in my house, admiring my works. Her face, it was everywhere. Perfectly drawn and carved by me, for the past few months, I've had at least eight pictures of her drawn, painted, and carved.She was the only one I could draw, think or talk about, the only person who was constantly on my mind.I stared at my latest painting.It was a portrait of her.In my arms.Smiling.Happily.Like she used to, when she fell in love with me.I wanted her to look at me like she used to, to touch me, to let me touch her, and most importantly, I wanted her to smile at me the way she was smiling in my picture.This was the closest I felt to her, the closest I felt to her presence. She was all around me. The only way to see her.The only way to feel her.But it wasn't the same.I would give anything just to hear her voice one last time.One last chance.To see her.Touch her.Hold her.But she hated me.She didn't want anything to do with me. And it hurts

S E B A S T I A N"Partially. It's not the only reason, but yeah. It's because of her. I can't move on. She was the one for me. The one I've always wanted, and no one has ever been able to compare. Even though I know, that's not fair, and she has moved on. I don't know how to move on, without her. Every time I close my eyes, I see her. All I want is her. And no one else.""With all you've said, I think the first thing you need to do is forgive yourself for making a mistake. You've lived with the consequences for so long, and you can't seem to get over it, but the only way you're going to feel better, is if you stop beating yourself up. You were a victim of circumstances, and you didn't have a choice. It wasn't your fault. And no matter how much you beat yourself up for it, it's not going to change the past. We are humans, and learn from our mistakes.""How do I do that? How do I forgive myself, and accept the fact that it wasn't my fault when it's really my fault? I didn't trust her.

E L L E"You're right. He would definitely threaten you. I want him to see that the two of us are perfect for each other. We're in love, and he cannot say anything about that. We don't have to do things according to his wishes, because, we're doing things the right way. We're together and we're happy. He'll come around once he has gotten over the shock. It will be my surprise to them when we're back in the US, but for now, we're going to bask in our little happiness. Just the two of us.""You're absolutely right. But, I have to ask. Is that what you want? Do you want to get married?""I'm not in a rush, baby. We've only been dating for seven months, and having a baby was not planned. But, we're not doing anything wrong. It's not like I'm pregnant, and we're not together. We're in a serious relationship, and it's not a crime to have a baby out of wedlock. Yes, I want to be your wife, but not out of the pressure of society staunchly believing a woman should be married before she has a c