บททั้งหมดของ Dangerous Desires : บทที่ 21 - บทที่ 30

LUCA I've already lost my sanity but my survival is at stake. If I don't end them, they will forever keep controlling my decisions, controlling my self. I must survive. I must save myself even if that's the only thing left. I will go to Italy. I will try to end these torment, I know failure is as fatal as success but I won't let fear of failure stop me. I may loose what's left of my sanity, hell. I may even loose my life but if I continue sitting in New York and letting the pain and voices from my past feast on my vulnerability then I will definitely loose what's left of my sanity. I will die in the end so why don't I make it worth the while. I must go to Italy now. I will find my deadbeat dad. I will find Mr Hyde. I will find his wife. I will punish them. And then there's Lily, saving the best for last. The sweetest girl there is. She has been loved and taught to love, to dream and to live. Me, I have never been loved, I have only been taught to hate, to destroy, to show anger. I

LILYLast night, I did the most unbelievable thing, making out with Luca in a parking lot, and I absolutely loved it. I didn't cry myself to sleep last night; instead, I relived the entire experience over and over again in my head. It was amazing. This weekend, I'm home alone. My parents traveled for a conference and took Isabella with them because, well, they didn't know I was staying home. The plan was to travel with Tiffany to London for the music and dance festival, but we couldn't get any tickets, and at the very last minute, which was this morning, West bought two tickets and Tiffany chose to go with him over me, so now I'm stuck home watching a scary horror movie, which I hate.I'm sitting on the couch in the living room with my feet on the couch, my knee pressed against my chest, and my arms wrapping around it. My body is shaking, the haunting music from the movie filling the whole house, and to make matters worse, all the bulbs are off, so I'm sitting in the dark living room

LILY I turn around to walk to him. He signals me to stop. "Kneel on your four and crawl to me." Kneel? That's the height of humiliation. I'm already naked before him, but going on my knees will rid me of whatever pride or dignity I have left. As depraved as it's sound, my body betrays me by getting hot on the demand. Lowering myself to the ground, I kneel and bend forward, placing my elbow on the floor and crawling to where he is seated on the edge of the bed. I lift my elbow from the ground and raise my body, but I'm kneeling before him like a peasant while he is seated on his royal throne. He took me by the wall like a common slut. I slowly undo his buckle under his watchful eagle eyes. I unzip the pants and pull it down, leaving it to fall in a puddle at his feet. His boxer falls next, and I'm out of breath. This man is a boner. I'm a little scared too. How did I expect him to fit in with me? He is perfect. His thick, long, veiny cock stands at attention, already dripping

LILY"No.""Did your girlfriend cheat on you?""No.""Did your girlfriend..."No. I don't have a girlfriend. I'm gay.""Oh. Oh. Oh." He is still staring at me. Really, that's all. I have nothing else to say. He looks away from me, and a frown turns down his lip. I think I may have hurt his feelings. "I'm sorry. Really, I'm sorry."He looks back at me, and a wide, beautiful smile curves his lips. He squeezes my hands. "I know." He picks up his glass and continues sipping."Can I have a taste?""Are you old enough to drink?""Yes. I bet we're the same age. I'm 19." I stare him down."I like you; you're also a liar." He laughs. "I'm nineteen, but you're not nineteen." He empties the content of his glass and sets it down."Oh, I didn't get your name.""That's because you don't care." There's a hint of amusement in his voice, so I know he is not mad. "Andy." He stretches out his hands, and I take it."Lily."He glances at the watch wrapped around his wrist, stretching his hands and standin

LILYAfter a round of attempting ten very indecent questions, I failed. I'm sure my failure is enough to prove to Luca that I didn't have sex with Andy, or, as he likes to put it, fuck Andy. I'm as vaginal as a nun, but not for long because this coming weekend is my 18th birthday and I'm entering age 18 as a woman.I have proven the whole point to Luca. Why do I still have to buy and, most importantly, wear the vibrators?Tiffany and West left us a long time ago; ever since they hit it last night, they have sneaking around and stealing little moments together. I won't be surprised if I find them making out under the escalator. It really takes just one time to unleash the beast. We still haven't talked about her experience, my mom hasn't called to check on me, and most especially Luca is still acting suspiciously and not offering any information about the men I watched him murder in my living room.But right now Luca is pushing me to the counter so that I can complete my bet. I stamp m