I turn to look at Ryan properly. It wasn't what he said, it was the way he said it. I really look at him, Ryanhad a dull look in his eyes. If I didn't think we were in the same house and I would have surely not if hesmoked, even occasionally, I would doubt his present level sanity was surely not from the result of anexternal substance.I have always known that Ryan was a lot of things, an arrogant, proud and entitled piece of shit, he was anabuser, physically, mentally and emotionally but he was also a victim at some point in his life before hebecame the exact monster that probably scared him at night. He probably doesn't even recognize what hehas become, he must have embraced it to be a part of himself.Ryan was also possessive and jealous but lately there has been a difference to him. He would mostlyignore my presence but whenever his focus was on me, whenever his spoke to me, his voice was highpitched, his fingers wringled beside him and they was a slight slur to his speech
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