Chapter 76

I turn to look at Ryan properly. It wasn't what he said, it was the way he said it. I really look at him, Ryan

had a dull look in his eyes. If I didn't think we were in the same house and I would have surely not if he

smoked, even occasionally, I would doubt his present level sanity was surely not from the result of an

external substance.

I have always known that Ryan was a lot of things, an arrogant, proud and entitled piece of shit, he was an

abuser, physically, mentally and emotionally but he was also a victim at some point in his life before he

became the exact monster that probably scared him at night. He probably doesn't even recognize what he

has become, he must have embraced it to be a part of himself.

Ryan was also possessive and jealous but lately there has been a difference to him. He would mostly

ignore my presence but whenever his focus was on me, whenever his spoke to me, his voice was high

pitched, his fingers wringled beside him and they was a slight slur to his speech