I had never felt such disappointment and pure heartache as I did now, staring at his empty space, knowing the chances I would see him again were close to nothing. And I had tried so hard not to break then.But I had only to see my best friend Racheal's concerned face, and I started to cry. Silent, wrecking sobs that tore at my chest.And I heard her say, almost as if from a distance,"Emily, what's wrong?"She put her arms around me and pulled me closer."He didn't come, did he?"1 shook my head, and she just let me cry there until I couldn't anymore.When the world seemed to calm down, and no one was around me to see, I sat down with my back to my bedroom wall. My knees were bent at my chest, and I cradled my face in the space between them.I thought about him, for so long at a time that I couldn't separate the memories.His green eyes were narrowing at me, that white smile flashing. He was teasing me again, telling me how much he needed me. And then he was jealous, angry that I wasn
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