جميع فصول : الفصل -الفصل 70

I feel like the world is falling apart.Julian words had the force of a punch to the stomach. And I'm sure my heart missed a beat.My eyes burn.My hands shake. My whole body freezes, and I could swear the blood has frozen inside my veins.Even my throat dries, narrows, constricts.My mouth is suddenly bitter.Because here it is, the moment I feared the most… the moment when everything between us would end.Yes, it has come, and now that I'm listening to him say those painful words, I realize that was never prepared to hear them. Not fully. Not with the weight they carry… Not with the pain they cause in my heart…. with this deep sadness that consumes every part of my chest.Even though my eyes are burning, and maybe they're watering, I try hard… Even if my expression probably gives away how much it hurts, I really do my best to smile.But yeah, it really hurts.It hurts like hell…That's

Honestly, I couldn't catch a minute of sleep. All I could think about was that day, seven years ago, when I met Julian and my father. It was winter, and I had just lost my mother. Alone in the world, I thought there was nothing left for me anywhere. But like a light, they appeared in my life and illuminated the darkness I was in. Remembering this brings up conflicting feelings that are hard to ignore.In a way, overthinking about it again and again has saved me from thinking about how my heart is aching. Julian was my first crush, my first love. But of course, in his eyes, I was nothing more than a brat he pitied… until my nineteenth birthday. However, what does it matter? Julian doesn't remember that night. He doesn't remember the reasons that made me give up these one-sided feelings of mine and move on.Although, I didn't really move on. My feelings for him stayed hidden, disguised, tucked away in a dusty drawer deep in my heart. They didn't die. They

I sigh deeply and give a discreet smile. “Nice try.”“Well, at least I tried.” Tyler shrugs his shoulders, then returns my smile. With a pat on the table, he stands up. “If you change your mind… you know where to find me.”I watch his broad back move away and can't help but check out the way his muscles mark his shirt. He must spend a lot of time in the gym, but… His body isn't like Julian's.Argh… No one is like Julian!I reach for my phone fearfully, with my heart pounding desperately in my chest… Now that I think about it, at that moment, Julian seemed about to ask me to lunch. But I was too scared, too afraid that his words would hurt me even more. So yeah, I ran away.Of course I ran away.With withered shoulders, I look at the screen of my phone, at the messages… There are none from Julian.My heart is so tight… I'm so sad that tears threaten to rise in my eyes and

By the time I get back to the restaurant, it's almost empty, although there are a few tables occupied with people who aren't interested in my presence, or in my watery and puffy eyes. That’s certainly a relief because that's exactly what I want — to disappear.But my sadness doesn't escape the attention of Tyler, who immediately withdraws from the counter and walks towards me. I sniffle, drying my eyelashes with my hands, entering with short, stumbling steps. And the next thing I know, he's already in front of me, holding my arms fondly, supporting my body that feels suddenly too heavy.“What happened?” Tyler asks me a bit worried… Even his voice trembles slightly.I open my mouth to answer him, but I'm at a loss for words… the only thing that comes out is a choked sob.Tyler sighs, looking around, noticing that people are starting to lift their gazes to me.“Do you want to go inside there?” I deny with my he

Julian is opening the door, a space big enough for me to enter his room. I lock the air into my lungs and step inside, immediately surprised that his desk is so messy, especially when it comes to Julian, who doesn't leave a single strand of hair out of place… In fact, his appearance is completely out of place too…Click — he locks the door, making me flinch slightly.I glance at the way he approaches the curtains to close it.He is closing the curtains.Realizing it makes the air go out through my nose slowly, and I'm feeling my heart pounding heavily against my chest, wanting to definitely leave my body. Maybe it's tired of being part of me too.I'm standing in the same spot, watching Julian walk across the office with his hand in his hair, stopping next to the desk with his back to me. It makes me slightly anxious because I can tell how nervous he is. “Come here, Angelee.” His voice comes out loud, deep, sending gooseb