All Chapters of Testing my sanity : Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

Daniel POV:Feeling a soft hand gripping my hand tightly I shift awake. I start hearing the beeping noise and my eyes open. I take in the bright lights of the hospital room and the strong sanitizer smell. Looking at the person next to me I caress their brown hair and they stir awake"Oh my god Daniel are you okay," Nina says her worried eyes scanning me. Nina. What's Nina doing here? I try to sit up and she practically shoves me back down"The fuck" I say and she apologies"I'm sorry your body is still weak and besides you should be resting," Nina says fluffing my pillow"Okay, how long have I been out," I ask and she stops fluffing the pillow. She sits back down and clutches my hand again but with both hands. I look at our intertwined hands and then I look back up at the ceiling"2 days," she says and I nod"Wait and you've been here the whole time," I ask turning to her and she shrugs"What nobody should die alone," she says and I cork my eyebrow at her"You stayed because you feare

Daniel POV:Today is a gloomy day and it's pouring heavily. We have all these made men standing in the rain in their black suits and women in their black dresses getting rained on to mourn our lost men and most importantly my best friendThe priest has said his general speech about losing loved one's and now his calling me up to talk. Walking up toward the priest I realize that I haven't even prepared a speech. Everyone looks at me as I walk down the line of people. I should have stood in the front with the other friends and family but I just can't watch Xavier being lowered into the ground in a damn box.Finally reaching the priest I thank him and I turn to the crowd. Well here goes nothing"We lost good men this week. We will all miss them dearly but there was one guy here who is/ was my best friend. I met Xavier at a boy's Catholic school. I was 9 and he was 10. He was older than me by 5 days and yet he was the big brother" I chuckle remembering all the fights we used to have becau

Daniel POV:3 weeks laterWhy would anyone want to be a parent? This is absolute shit. Do you know how many times I woke up last night 5 times? 5 times because she wouldn't stop crying it's like she knows that I don't like kids.After watching Amari grow in front of me and then die in front of me it messed me up. It's a part of my life I never want to talk about"Hey," Nina says snapping me out of my thoughts. Looking up she's leaning on my bedroom door frame"Hi," I say closing the website I was reading about how to be a good dad. Now leave me I only care because it's in my blood otherwise I don't want this. I really don't want this. Listen to me I don't"She's asleep," she says walking into my room and sitting on the edge of the bed. She shuffles herself into my sheets and I watch her hesitantly "Pillow please" she says getting comfortable"Uhm what are you doing," I say cautiously and she huffs facing me."Daniel I'm touched deprived" she whines. My eyes widen and blood rushes to m

Daniel POV:"Choo choo" I mutter shoving the spoon into the baby's mouth. She finds our little sessions together as awkward as I find them but we try to make the most of it. Plopping the spoon back into the baby food I can't help but gag and she gives me a look "What it looks disgusting out of all the flavors you like green apples and vegetables" I say to her and she mumbles something but it sounds very aggressive"Hey no don-" she cuts me off mumbling her sentence"Listen here nobody cu-" she cuts me off this time banging her table with her little fists as she speaks"Little girl I will smack your behind," I say. She stops and her eyes widen. "I thought so," I say and I swear she rolled her eyes. This little 15 month-year-old rolled her eyes at me"People die for that you know," I say giving her more of her food. She swallows her food and then mumbles something again. "Nina is out so what do you want to do," I ask her and she mumbles something. You see I can't do this. I don't even

Nina POV: "Ah, Nina" he groans caressing my ass cheeks. He lands a slap on my left cheek earning me to squeal into the sheets"I don't know what you want me to think Nina," he says placing his hands on my stomach to pull me higher. He grabs my waist and now I'm on all fours with my head pressed against the sheets "You do your hair, looking even more breathtaking than usual and then you walk around this house in these little shorts testing my sanity," he says pulling my shorts slightly down. He grunts when he sees my thong. He grabs the fabric like it's hurting him to see it"Nina," he says letting go of the fabric and I hum words becoming way too hard for me to form"I want to eat you out until you're screaming my name at the top of your lungs" he thrusts making my ass bump into him. Fuck if this feels this good with clothes imagine without "So that tomorrow when you conduct the next training team and your voice is faint I want to be able to look at you and say my name is the last