All Chapters of Slave or Lover?: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

I try my best to sleep but I can not maybe because I am so happy. I can feel that he is still sitting beside me. I want to open my eyes and talk with him or stare at him to make sure whether he is real, but I can not. He has just ordered me to sleep although he was in a gentle manner. I control my breath to pretend that I am sleeping. Not long later, I hear he stand up. “ Is he going to leave?” I can not tell whether I am happy or not when I make the guess, but he does not move actually. I hold my breath and dare not to move, especially my eyes. It feels that he is looking at me. “Why is he looking at me? Has he found that I am acting sleeping?” My heart drops more quickly and I they are not open my eyes to face his possible anger. Suddenly, I hear him sigh and say, “ Emelia...” I almost respond subconsciously, but luckily I hold myself back.  He seems to not have found that I am pretending to be asleep. He s

“ So, she is useless to you. Then, why are you sad for losing a useless thing?” Alger concludes coldly. I retort without hesitation. “I need to have friends here and... She is my first friend here... She treated me pretty well before ... She even cursed Cody for me...” When I finish speaking, I feel depressed for spilling it out. I lower my head and peep at Alger to see if he is angry because of me lying. But he seems not to care about it. He continues, “ You have already said that it was before. Moreover, she cursed Cody maybe just because she hates Cody herself. It does not mean she is good to you.” I pout and half close my eyes. “ What do you mean by saying that? Do you mean that she had never been my friend?” Alger says, “ It depends how you see friend. If you think that friend is someone you can talk with when you are lonely and gossip about others when you have meals together, she was your friend, is your friend and will be your friend. But if you consider a frien

After a few minutes, Cody comes back from the bathroom. There are still anger and hardness in his eyes. He walks to me and slips one arm underneath my neck and The other under my legs, lifting me up effortlessly. I let out a small gasp in pain as Cody carries me to the bathroom. He walks with me to the tub filled with dark brown water. It smells not so good and I think there is poison in the water. “ Cody, what are you going to do? Are you going to torture me again? No! I can apologize! I am sorry, Cody. Do not be angry. Please calm down. You know there are wounds over me, right? I do not think I can take a bath now. It is not the right thing to do.” I scream and begin to sob, but Cody does not stop. Once he gets to the tub, he gently lowers me into it. As I expected, it hurts a lot. I immediately start kissing and moaning in pain. The dark colored water is stinging me so badly. Tears fall down my face because of the pain. “ Cody, please get me out of here.

“ Since you have apologized and had bath with her, why are you still angry? How did you apologize?” Lily notices that my fists are bloody and dirty. “ I just said that I should not have called her whore.” Lily shakes her head with resignation. “ That is not a good one. That does not show your sincerity. Did she forgive you?” I roar immediately, “ I am her master. Why should I let her forgive me?” Lily pats me on the shoulder and says, “ When we do things wrong, we always want others to forgive me, no matter we are masters or slaves. Asking for Forgiveness is not for the victims but for ourselves, for our inner peace.”  “ Then, what should I say?” Lily can always persuade me. “ Apologize to her sincerely and tell her what you thought and how you felt at the time. Be sincere and the world will treat you sincerely. OK, now tell your dear sister what really happened and why you are still

After saying that, Cody stares at me in silence. I wonder if he wants to listen to my response. I hesitate and say, “ I forgive you, Cody. I was wrong too. You treat me well now and you have changed a lot. I should not talk about what you have done before very often.” Cody purses his lips and does not say a word as if he is waiting for me to say something more. “ What?” I raise my eyebrows. I do not understand what he wants. “Am I still disgusting in your eye?” “What?” I am surprised by Cody is question. Why does he ask? “ Why should you be disgusting in my eye?” I am confused. Cody tires his eyes away I am naturally and says, “ You said I am disgusting.” “ When?” I said I remember that it was when we quarreled and when he said that I was disgusting. “ That is just an angry rush. That is not true. Do not take it seriously!” “ Really? So you do not think I am disgusting at all!” His eyes light up like a shiny diamond. “ Of course. You are an apple in my eye.” I do not know why I say s