All Chapters of My Billionaire Mafia Queen: Battle Of Love: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

Ivanna Pov's . Christian presence calmed me a little bit but the moment he left me alone in the car to bring the water bottle, all the terrifying memories of my past started haunting me. The video that Satan sent me was playing in a loop in my mind and then again the judgemental comments of people started roaming in my head. I shook my head trying to distract myself but nothing was working. "How can you think, I can love a person like you? I was just using you like a whore you're. you only tell me where would I get a girl who is ready to spread her legs for me whenever I want to fulfil my lust" I recalled Stefan's words which brought tears to my eyes. I kept my legs on the seat and hugged myself, praying to god to send Christian soon. Only he could stop this voice but he was taking so much time. I sobbed and closed my ears feeling like those people are standing near me and calling me with shitty names. I looked outside the window and found a few women looking at me and gossiping.

Christian Pov.I was looking at Ivanna who was gazing at my house with terror-filled eyes. Don't know what scared her suddenly."Butterfly" She looked at my side."No... I'm not letting you touch me." My eyes shot up with her words."What?""That woman was right when she said you're pretending to care about me. All you want to have s*x with me. Nothing else." I look at her in disbelief. Didn't expect her to come into that woman's words."You think so low of me?" I asked. She shook her head. I observed her face which turned red because of lack of oxygen. She still hasn't gotten back to normal after a severe panic attack. I took a deep breath to calm myself."Christian calm down.. If you get agitated then how will you handle her?" I muttered under my breath and then held her hand but she shoved my hand away."Don't touch me" She yelled, trembling in fear. I look at my hand then her."I'm sorry… If my touch scared you" Her expression softened after hearing my words."I won't touch you i

Ivanna Pov's . I woke up with a dry throat. It took me time to realise I was not in my room. "Where I'm?'' I asked myself and sat straight to look around, only to realise I was in a hospital. My eyes went to Christian who was sleeping keeping his head on the bed while sitting on a chair beside my bed. I recalled everything that happened yesterday. A tear rolled from my eyes. I was feeling embarrassed realising how I acted in front of everyone and a shiver ran down my spine remembering those lady judgemental words. My eyes again went to Christian whose face again calmed me. Yesterday not only did he handle me but also managed to get me out of the crowd and refuse the people to make entertainment of my misery. He protected me with everything and what I did. I accused him and said so many things because of that stupid lady who fit those stupid words in my mind. What an irony, the person whom I love with everything made me feel vulnerable and disgusted in front of thousands of people

Ivanna Pov's.I shook my head realising it's impossible that the person whom I saw in flashback of my lost memories of childhood is Christian. I should focus on the present situation instead of the past. I have to apologise to Christian for behaving like an idiot last night. He was looking at me with a worried expression and then followed my gaze which was on his hand."I'm sorry" He muttered and removed his hands from my arms. "I shouldn't have touched you without permission… I'm sorry" He mumbled. I shook my head negatively."It's me who should apologise," I said, looking into his eyes after holding his hand with mine."You can never touch me inappropriately. It's just I w---was having a p--panic att--attack. I'm sorry". I sobbed, leaving his hand to sit straight and turned my eyes to the ground. I couldn't fathom the courage to meet his eyes anymore because of guilt. I accused him when he was protecting me from those stupid people."Hey," He cupped my face and made me turn my face

Christian Pov's.Finally, after taking a cold shower for twenty minutes, my buddy calmed down. Just the look of Ivanna in that red dress was enough to make me hard. I wish I could tell her how much I love her and what effect she had on me but I can't. She loves someone else.I came out of the bathroom after wrapping the towel around my waist when my eyes went on the stepping stone. A big smile appeared on my face. I took that stone in my hand carefully."You don't know how much I waited for this moment, butterfly. I wanted to show you the house that I made as you desired for us. I fulfilled the first wish you made to me" I muttered and kept that stone back in the sunlight to dry it. I took out the red shirt with black jeans to wear from the shopping bag. I purchase clothes for me as well that match her dress.I know she is not mine and she loves someone else but at least I can do the twinning of clothes with her like a perfect couple. It will be enough for me. I was smiling like a fo