All Chapters of Desired by the Alpha: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

I've been walking for hours. And I still can't believe what's happening. I've been banished, sent away from my tribe, from my home. I'm alone, with no one to help me.I try to take my mind off of it by focusing on my surroundings, but I'm not sure how much good that does. This forest looks exactly like the one I grew up in. The trees, the berries, the animals...it's all exactly the same. And yet, somehow, it's completely different. Being alone out here is terrifying. I'm not used to being on my own, and I don't like it. I wish I could be back at the camp with my mother, safe from the terrors of the outside world. Hell, I'd even take Dean's company. I'd look down on it if I didn't have to, but I'd rather spend time with him than be alone. But it's not just being alone that makes the situation so scary. It's the journey ahead of me, knowing that there's no one to help me if anything goes wrong. I am a wolf without a pack. I'm going to have to learn how to survive on my o

The wolves come from all around, and they all come to me. There must be a hundred of them and they're growling and snarling. They're hungry for the kill and they're all coming to get me. I try to speak, but I'm in too much pain. "What are we going to do?" I ask. The wolves stop, and I realize they're standing in a circle around me."Well," I say. "It's not like I'm in any condition to defend myself."The wolves stare at me, confused. "There's no honor in that sort of killing. No fun, either," I continue. I don't know what I'm saying. I don't know where this bravery is coming from. I definitely don't know if it's going to work, but I have to try something, and with my body too weak to fight, strategy is all I've got."So, here's what I propose," I say. "Take me to your alpha. Make sure he really wants you to kill me like this-- when I'm wounded and can't defend myself. I wouldn't want you to make a misstep and anger him."The wolves look at each other. They're obviousl

It's been more than a week now, but I cannot stop thinking about the Alpha. I can't get him out of my head. I can't stop thinking about his perfect, gorgeous face. When I close my eyes, I can almost feel his lips on mine, his arms around me. I tried to forget about him, but I can't. I never stop thinking about him. It's as though something has changed inside of me. No matter what I do, his face keeps flashing through my mind, and his body haunts my dreams.I wish I could forget about him. I wish I could stop thinking about him. But I can't. Every time I look out of my cell, the memory of his beautiful green eyes and that beautiful wavy dark hair is there, staring back at me. It's almost as though he's haunting me, trying to draw me out.I love him, but I'm afraid of him, too. I'm afraid that he's going to kill me. I'm afraid that he's going to turn me over to his pack and watch them tear me to shreds. I can't keep thinking about him. I have to forget about him and foc

As soon as I hear the news, my blood runs cold. Nicholas-- my Nicholas-- engaged to some rogue outsider?It is a level of rage I've never experienced."Rachel. Rachel, are you alright?" my friend Jessica asks me. I nod, but it's a lie.If Nicholas really marries this Marla girl, I'm not sure I'll ever be alright again. "I need to go," I mutter, standing up."Rachel-- are you sure you're alright?" Jessica asks me.I ignore her questions. The only thing I can think about is getting to the Alpha."I need to see Nicholas," I say, storming out the door."Are you sure you don't want me to give him a message?" she asks. I know she means well, but I just can't think of anything but him. I'm not ready to talk about what's going on with him yet. I'm too raw. I feel like I'm in pieces-- like I'm a jigsaw puzzle that's been destroyed, and I'm working on putting myself back together."Thanks, Jessica," I say, "but I'll be alright.""Are you sure?" she asks. I nod, not trusting my wo

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say to that. As the words sink in, the color drains from my face."Okay," I say to her. "Let's say this is true. Let's say I believe you. There's got to be something we can do, right? Some way to change it?""No," she says. "I'm sorry. This is how you were meant to be. There is no changing your future."I have to let that sink in for a second. I don't even know what to say. I look out at the water, and it seems to be mocking me now. I can feel it, and it's not nice. It's trying to tell me that I'm about to be consumed in pain, and that it's all going to be my fault."So, you're saying then that I should tell him to forget about me. I shouldn't marry him.""I'm not saying that," she says. I'm not saying anything. But it would be the only way to save his life."And with that, she is gone.I am left sitting on that bench, staring out into the water. I can hear a single bird chirping in the distance. And I can hear my heart pounding in m