All Chapters of SURRENDER TO YOUR HIDDEN DESIRES.: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

He didn’t let her go as they drove to his home a mere 5 minutes away from the Hermes bridge. To Rachel, it felt like forever. Her body was awash with a new fire she never felt before. Sex with Jacob was routine. She got undressed with the lights turned off, he kissed her, took off his clothes, and climbed over her. He entered her slowly, sometimes fast if he was feeling wild. Her mother had told her that sometimes men were so caught up in their own pleasures that they forgot about a woman’s satisfaction. Patricia Rivers had told her that she was supposed to endure it. Marriage was about endurance. Yet here she was in Nate’s car feeling her mother must have been wrong. He held her firmly against him, his fingers toying with her nipples. He nuzzled her neck and ears but didn’t go any further until his driver pulled into the drive and he led her under the cover of darkness into his house. Rachel could barely see. She vaguely made out the huge silhouette of his house. She could barely w

But Rachel wasn’t thinking about going back to Gem Hills any time soon. She spent the rest of the day hiding in her old bedroom away from the August visitors who had heard that she was back in Ermernia. Any false move and she would be hiding from people trying to take pictures of her. It was later during the day while she was watching two birds have a conversation about which electric lines to land on that Mabel brought the newspaper one of their old neighbors, Mrs. Smith, the renowned town’s gossip had brought on her visit to see if the rumors were true. True to Nate’s warnings, they made front page. There she was in his arms. Well given her affinity for the front pages lately she wasn’t surprised. Nate looked as good as ever, his fingers were placed dangerously close to her boobs. And she looked like she had wine for dinner, which she did. The article wasn’t flattering though. There were speculations about her confession about teenage boys and if Nate Madden was somehow running an

“Excuse you? Get out of my way.” She tried to push past him but he was a solid wall of lean immoveable muscle. His skin was warm under his shirt. Her mouth felt dry as she remembered the feel of his chest on Wednesday when she stumbled out of Sheldon’s with him and on Thursday night when he held her against his chest. Which begged the question, what was he doing following her to Ermernia? “How did you find me?” she demanded. “Sit down Rachel. Don’t make me beg,” he warned but she wasn’t having any more of his nonsense. Crossing her arms in front of her chest she stared him down – which was kind of hard since he was taller. “No. I don’t care if you beg, how hard you beg I don’t want to be here! You wanted me out remember? You said we couldn’t see each other again so why did you come for me? Why did you trail me all the way to Ermernia you stalker?” “Because I want you. And for all the wrong reasons." Rachel sputtered. That effectively took the spark out of her. “And you want me t

“You are still with him aren’t you?” Mabel’s tone was neutral but Rachel could just detect the concern in her voice. She was curled up on a plush cloud sofa with her phone to her ear. When Nate had cleaned her up and given her another shirt of his to wear she decided to explore the place and discovered it wasn’t the other apartment. This was his home, a three-storied stucco with a Victorian look which he said he got off a realtor who owed him a great deal. So far he wasn't pawing her at since he had some work to do and he said she was free to do whatever he wanted. She was done reading the pile of Reader’s digest she had found in a cupboard in one of the rooms. It was when she was bored out of her mind that she decided to call Mabel and Mabel wanted to hear everything! “Yeah, I would have to go back to the cottage eventually.” “So…you guys are a thing then?” Rachel chewed her bottom lip. “A thing? I won’t go that far.” Mabel’s next response was heavy with sarcasm. “You had sex wi

Tom was right on time to pick her up. But she had delayed the packing and arrangements of her things and by the time she had gotten Larry to hurry up too, it was late into the night. “I suppose we would have to wait till tomorrow now since there are likely no more flights at this time?” She said smugly feigning regret. “Actually we will be taking Mr. Madden’s jet, ma’am,” Tom said watching her carefully. Of course, he has a private jet! He was Nathaniel Madden after all. Well, there would be other ways to punish him. Nate had sent her the suite number he reserved for their stay in Mainland. Larry was going to stay with his friend but she was hoping she could get Nate to get him a room close to theirs because she needed support from her agent and best friend. She had called Mabel and told her about the freelancing leaving out the detail about Nate and Mabel had been thrilled and wished her luck. Then she called Ben who was also elated and promised to keep mum about this new opportu