All Chapters of Never To Be Loved Again: Chapter 111 - Chapter 120

Alicia gave a bright, beaming smile. “I’ll be fine, uncle. Don’t worry and go. I’m sure mother’s missing you dearly too. And… please give this to Dimi as well.”She passed the letters she wrote personally to the marquis. Though the letters a queen writes should have a seal of royalty before being sent, this letter was written beforehand and before she was pronounced queen.The letter was also personal.The one letter she sent to the Dimitri of the past became a problematic occurrence that labeled her as a spy sharing Ehrlich’s secrets to Coulson. She needed to be careful, for her sake and for Dimitri’s sake.This, too, would probably be the last letter she’ll send to Dimitri for the many months to come.The marquis nodded his head and looked at the letter in hand. Alicia noticed his expression turn sour when she spoke of Dimitri.“Did something happen to Dimi? He didn’t come to the wedding ceremony, and on top of that, I know he was fuming with anger that he directed it towards you be

Ivan’s eyes softened and flashed momentarily. “You said something like that before as well. When did it occur? When did you have trouble sleeping?”Alicia smiled bitterly and said, “Six years ago… when my mother died.”He looked at her with solemn eyes and stretched his hand out to caress her head.“So you’ve had a difficult time sleeping at night because of that,” his voice was soft, “I understand. To have someone you love dearly leave you would frighten anyone, after all.”“…Yes.”But truth be told, the moment insomnia plagued her at night was the moment she re-lived the past. She had no plans to wallow in self-pity or blaming others for the misfortunes she’d gone through, but it was difficult… was it depression? Fortunately, she was able to recover and mend her broken heart to an extent in Coulson, but when night came, memories of her death and the last minutes of it kept rolling on repeat.It was difficult to sleep.If she closed her eyes, she kept wondering if she’d end up in tha

“Your Majesty, this phenomenon usually occurs with children. Those children fall asleep thinking they’ll never wake up from their deep slumber. So they begin to fear the night and fear the thing so natural to us. I’m not sure why Her Majesty’s experiencing a similar case when she’s a grown adult now,” the court doctor said with tightened brows, “but in any case, I had tried to ease the symptoms of prescribing medical herbs that would ease her nerves, but to completely eradicate her insomnia, I will have to place the responsibility of finding the cause root of her problem to you, Your Majesty.”Ivan nodded.He knew already the true cause of her suffering. She said that her troubles began after the death of her mother, but in truth, it had to do with the life experiences of her past and the memories she retaiTed.The answer was obvious to see.For a fragile person like her who came back from the dead, how can she not be afraid of the dark?His eyes were full of complex emotions looking

Before making their public appearance, Ivan had attempted to pacify his beloved wife sensing that she was wrought with anxiety and nervousness.Heaving a sigh replete with anxiety, she readily agreed to Ivan’s suggestions. At her consent, he immediately grabbed hold of her hand and did not let go. Unknown to her, his heart gushed with mellow happiness.What he told her afterward shocked her more than his suggestion. He said that so long as she held his hand tight, the eyes of the nobility will remain fixated on their hands that none would care to look at her.It seemed to prove successful too. When they sat down on the throne, Ivan did not let go of her hand. She had tried to sneakily pull her hand away, but Ivan would not budge.It was a fortunate case that all eyes were glued to their locked hands despite pretending not to. From the moment they made their appearance in public with hands locked together, the nobility immediately lost interest in the queen and vied to know their relat

However, the moment Mrs. Cessley left the area, another group keeping a close watch on the queen all throughout slowly made their way to her.Alicia looked at them. She recognized the young woman leading the group and immediately, her countenance hardeTed.‘Seraphina.’Seraphina Rissel.In the past, she was one of the leading nobles who mocked and showed her derisive comment behind her back and in secret. She was married then, but for odd reasons, she remained unmarried and without a noble partner in this present life.“Greetings, Your Majesty. I am the eldest daughter of Duke Rissel, Seraphina Rissel from the House of Rissel.”The air changed subtly at that moment.The nobles who could not get enough of the queen and talked in fervent shut their mouth tightly as if there was a lingering unspoken promise.Their eyes drifted towards Alicia and Seraphina back and forth, attempting to read the mood.They lay in wait seeing what would happen next.Alicia’s intuition beckoTed her that some