Semua Bab Endless Soul: Bab 31 - Bab 40

One of the things that drives me the craziest about our relationship is that beyond the insecurities, the fights and the ups and downs? It's that, no matter how long two people have known one another, how long both people shared times with each other, it can still be so intensely hard to keep one another, especially when you know things aren’t working out lately.In relationships, with friends, in family situations, at work, or just about everywhere. Being honest with another person, especially about your feelings and the things that bothers you the most, is terrifying. It's super hard actually.And by honest, I don't mean just saying whatever's on your mind, no matter how unpleasant or potentially hurtful it may be. But just as there's a difference between "full disclosure" and "honesty," there's also a difference between "I'm going to tell you what I think you want to hear because I'm afraid to hurt you or lose you in that way, that’s why" and "I need to be honest about my feelings,

Kahit isang konting silaw lang ng liwanag ay hindi ko nakita.Maybe, I was destined to live in darkness. Baka kasi masyadong na-enjoy ko iyong pagiging masaya ko kaya kailangan manatili na ako sa madilim na parte ng buhay.I always knew this would happen anytime soonest. But shit…bakit naman masyadong mabilis iyong pagbawi sa akin? Bakit…bakit naman masyadong mabilis magpalit ng panahon ang mundo?“How do you feel?” Conan asked me. Hindi ako sumagot.“I don’t wanna live anymore,” I said. Not bothered answering his first question. I then heard him sighed.“There’s more to life than your pain Tala, trust me.” He said.I began crying. It scared myself. It scares me how I couldn’t recognize how beautiful life is. Because I know, at this moment, pain is covering my entire system. I just want to put an end to this. Kasi mas madali na lang kalimutan ang lahat kapag wala na ako sa mundo.“C-can I just e-end this q-quickly?” I said stuttering with every words I said. Nanginginig ang buong kata

Hinang-hina akong pumasok sa loob ng kwarto habang hinahagilap ang cellphone ko. I called Cha and told her about what happened. kasama niya si Kaila, kaya sabay silang pumunta rito sa bahay.“Ang s-sakit…” I sobbed.Humarap sila sa akin, at dahil sa lubusang pagpikit ko habang umiiyak ay hindi ko na makita ng masyado ang itsura nilang dalawa.“Just cry it out, we’ll be there with you.” Kaila uttered before pulling me into a tight hug. Cha on the other hand sat beside me and caressing my bach while she was resting her head in my shoulder.Para akong batang pinapatahan nilang dalawa because I couldn’t stop crying. My body was shaking in pain and anger. Lahat ng mag sinabi ni Lexus sa akin kanina ay tumatak sa isipan ko, everything sank-in. and I never imagine that he will be the one who would break me totatlly.Gusto kong magpahinga pero iyong puso ay damang-dama pa rin ang kaninang pangyayari.“Shh…all things happened for a reason Tala, good or bad, trust me. But please know that we ar

Conan made it all easy for me. I thought it’s going to be real hard, but it was actually a lot easier with him. And I like where is this thing is headed to. And for those days, I’ve learned how to like him as a man, but we aren’t really talking about that. Isa pa, hindi ko pa alam kung handa na ba akong magmahal muli sa pangalawang pagkakataon.Masyadong nasanay yata ako palagi sa presensya niya, lalo pa at lagi rin ako sa bahay nila dahil gustong-gusto lagi ni tita Cora na doon ako sa kanila. Gusto ko rin naman talaga pumunta dahil nakaka-relax tumambay sa garden nila.Kaya madalas kapag nandoon ako sa kanila ay naging bonding na namin ang magtanim sa garden nila. Conan’s family is very welcoming and kind. Parang naging instant ampon ako ng pamilya nila, kulang na lang ay papel.“Tita, nanawakin ko muna anak niyo buong araw bukas,” pagpapaalam ni Conan kay mama sa cellphone. “Okay lang po ba?” dagdag niya pa saka ako kinindatan.Napatawa na lang ako sa kanya habang umiiling.“Aba’y n

The sound of the crickets was oddly comforting as well as the cracking sound of the swing every time it moves. Napatatingin ako sa itaas ng langit at isinandal ang ulo sa kadena ng swing. There were full of stars again.I somehow learned to like this place as much as how Conan loves to go here. Sabagay, sino ba naman ang hindi magkakagusto sa lugar na tahimik.Nang ibaba ko iyong tingin ko, nakita ko na nakaluhod si Conan sa harapan ko. Him, kneeling down in front of me happened in such a short span of time. Ni hindi ko na napansin na hindi na pala siya naka-upo sa swing.“Anong…ginagawa mo?” I said.He was on his knee…holding a usual box of a ring.A ring…he had a ring, with his knees bended all for me.Napatakip ako ng bibig habang nakatingin sa kanya. Then he grinned at me habang pinaglalaruan niya ang box na hawak niya sa kanyang kamay. Kung ako, sobrang gulat ko sa bilis ng nangyari, his reaction was opposite of mine…he looked like he was really ready and made-up.The beating of