All Chapters of The Substitute: Chapter 41 - Chapter 49

I don't know what to think. I am not looking forward to Dale being my childrens father again well technically he is but I can't trust him fully. I am not yet over on how did he push me away. I hate him. I hate him that much I am not ready for him to be my husband again. I've already witness and experience enough for me to say yes to him again. But what happened last night bothers me. Why did I laid down his bed. Damn his tricks. It always going into me. "Forget what happened last night" I told him when I saw him walking in the corridor. Umiling siya sa akin bago nag patuloy sa pag lakad. "No I won't. What happened last night was a dream come true to me. ""Well it's my nightmare" I answer him. Full of anger. I can't hold back myself. Naiinis ako. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ganun na lang ang nangyari. I should fall for him. The marriage that was bound to tie us loosen up years ago and now. Now that he's tying it up I'll just help him with that. No. The marriage that bound u

I wake up the next day with Dale beside my bed. Hugging me from behind habang isinisiksik ang sarili sa akin. I saw his finger wearing our wedding ring. Holding my hands tightly when I tried to take my hand away. "Kailangan ng almusal ng mga anak ko""I already made them some breakfast. Just laid. I'm still sleepy love. " he whisper at me bago muling isiniksik ang sarili sa akin. I didn't move or even think to got up because he's holding me tight. "Just let me do this. This is the things that I missed for those times that I am running away from the marriage that I thought was fake and your scheming plan. I didn't realize that maybe you are a victim too. That maybe the both of us are victim". I hold his hand and start to feel his body at my back. I can even feel his breath in my head and his feet against mine. "What if we didn't suffer and parted for years. Are this gonna happened?""I wish we didn't parted our ways. I wish I could turn back time just to held you""But I know if yo

"I'm going to take our children into school. Are you going with us?" he asked me habang ako ay nag aayos ng buhok. He is in my back. Looking at me straight from the mirror while bucking his belt. I don't have any idea why I say yes on his thought about this. Him in my house sharing room and acting like a parents. I'm fine with this if this is just for kids sake and also for me not to look like a fool to others. People are too confuse on what really is happening in our family. On what really made me this kind of woman. I don't care about what others may say before but now. I won't permit that. "Sure. I'm off to work too so might as well bring me to the site. Or I'll just commute." ani ko. I saw him smile before taking my things. My heart race as I watch him smile. Picking my things and walking out of our room. Lance wasn't too okay with the set up but Lara was more excited than ever. She was too happy having a dad. She always brag about it and always told everyone that she already me

"I'm tired." I told him It's true. I am tired. I am really tired of this shit. Too tired of this lies. Pero parang mas nadadagdagan ang sakit na yun. Because he's here. Comforting me as if he didn't hurt me before. Isa siya sa sobrang nanakit sa akin. "Shhh. I'm here love." He whisper to me. But I push him. I tried to push him. "You hurt me more than they do. How dare you. Don't touch me!" I shouted as I push him. "Shh. Just cry. I won't leave you love." pag papakalma niya sa akin. But those memory keep coming back into my head. Trying to ruin the peace I am creating about him. I tried to forget to for once this time but I just can't. Mas lalo lamang nadagdagan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko noong mas niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit. Kinailangan ko siya noon pero bakit wala siya. It's hard to trust again lalo na ngayon. Sa mga nangyayari ngayon. "No. I can't. I still can't forget those pain you gave me. I can't forget how you treated me. It's still running back. So don't touch me!"

"Ano. Sigurado ka na ba talaga sa desisyon mo na yan? Final na yan? Ikaw kasi masyado kang takbuhin. Takbo ng takbo akala mo naman nakikipag karera ka." Karen told me while rolling her eyes. Inilapag ko ang aking bag bago naupo sa kama ko. I look around and see the same room I had left before. Thinking that I am back again here makes my eyes rolled. Haharapin ko na naman ang kapatid ko. It was just like we're twins. Yeah. Ako ang unang pinanganak sa ibang sinapupunan. Ako ang panganay sa aming dalawa. Ako ang nakakatanda pero bakit parang siya iyong nasusunod. "I hate it when Rose was making move on my husband. Hindi lang ako masasaktan. My daughter was too attached from his father. Hindi ko hahayaang maranasan niya ang naranasan ko. Hindi ko rin pinangarap na lumaki sila na hindi buo ang pamilya. ""So you're saying that you'll stay with him just because of the kids? Iyon lang ba hindi ka kasali sa dahilan na yun? Alam mo isa ka rin indenial queen. Bakit ba lahat kayo ganiyan. Naka