All Chapters of My Running Nightmare: Chapter 121 - Chapter 130

“I can’t do this anymore, Kevin. I’m sorry that this is hurting you. I’m sorry that I can’t remember our lives together. I’m sorry that I can’t remember why I stayed with Jesse. I’m sorry that I’m still choosing him over you. I’m sorry that I’m keeping your son from you. I’m sorry that I ever contacted you. I have to go.”   Renee turned around and walked off. She was crying so hard that she could barely see. It felt like her whole world was crashing down around her. She felt like she was making the wrong choice by walking away from him and going back to Jesse, but she just couldn’t remember why that was. She hoped that Kevin would go back home and leave Jesse alone. She knew from her dreams that he was extremely violent. She meant it when she’d told him that she didn’t want to see him hurt.  

He sighed and went into the bedroom. Renee wasn’t there either. He went outside but he didn’t see her anywhere. It was too dark out for her to be walking in the woods. He went back in and went through the house. He looked out the door off the kitchen and found Renee curled up on the swing he’d put up for her. He walked out but she didn’t even look at him. She wiped her face and he knew she’d been crying again. He sat on the swing beside her and she drew her knees up and wrapped her arms around them so she was as far away from him as possible.   “You asked me for the truth. I gave you the truth,” Jesse said.   “The truth is that you're sick in the head, got it,” Renee whispered.   “The truth is that I love you but you don’t want to see that part. You only want to hold on to t

“I don’t have Stockholm syndrome. I fell in love with my husband, Mark, while I had amnesia. I didn’t know who he truly was at the time but I know how he treated me. He didn’t treat me badly. He showed me every day that he cared. I’m staying now because I love the man he is now and I’m pregnant with his child. Christian thinks that Jesse is his father and  Jesse loves him. I’m sick of feeling like I have no say in my own life. I don’t want to look over my shoulder the rest of my life and I’m terrified that Jesse will get away if the police come for him. He’s told me he ran from the police before and he’s more than willing to do it again.”   “He murdered a man in cold blood and it didn’t bother him a bit. The only thing that bothered him was the thought of his brother being taken from him. So, no, I won’t leave,” Renee said as she squared her sh

Renee bit her lip as she looked at the time. Jesse had been gone for a long time. Blowing off steam had turned into a six-hour event. What could he possibly be doing that would take him that long? She was wondering if he’d found someone to be with since she was remembering her past. He’d received a message from someone really late last night and hadn’t looked at it while she was around. If he was seeing someone that would explain his being gone so long.    Just because he was keeping her from seeing someone else or leaving didn’t mean it would stop him. She knew he was suspicious of her knowing Kevin’s whereabouts because he kept bringing it up. He’d promised he wouldn’t go looking for Kevin but how good were his p

“Will you, um, will you come let the guard rail down? I need to go to the bathroom,” Renee said as her cheeks reddened.   “Sure. No need to be embarrassed, baby.”   “That wasn’t really what I wanted but I do need to go.”   Jesse put the bed rail down and helped Renee up. She leaned on him to catch her bearings. She went to the bathroom and came out. He could tell by the look on her face that she was still confused about what was happening. She regained some of her memories if not all of them, but had she forgotten the ones after the accident?   “Do you want to tell me what you really wanted now?”   Renee’s cheeks turned red again but she held her arms out.