Lahat ng Kabanata ng Love and fear : Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 20

Lucy POV I could feel the control slipping. Astrid was coming forward. I could feel my canines coming forward and my nails turning to claws. I was trying so hard to keep all my happiness that my sister was alive, anxiety that she was in a healing facility and anger that I thought I was all alone for so long in check. Astrid was screaming in my mind to find Lanie when Axel's voice came through the darkness. "Breathe, Luc, don't let her win. You are in control. You are in charge. No one takes your choice from you!" he whispered. I could feel myself begin to breathe normally and my canines retracted, and my nails were my own again. I had to keep it together. Now was not the time to lose control! No pity parties today! I turned to Axel, and when I went to say thank you, I noticed the look on Bonnie's face. She was shocked like she had just seen a ghost. I tried to apologize, but the words were so quiet I couldn't get them out. I thought Bonnie was staring at me, but she

Aunt Bonnie was right. It wasn't good. Lanie had been in that facility for years, being poisoned. She went there first for just a wolf relaxation retreat, thinking that would help her wolf calm down and deal with the trauma of losing her parents watching them die. That's when her wolf started losing control and had to be sedated until she found her mate, Lanie, turned 18 two years ago, and her mate never came. This could mean a few things: they aren't born yet, very unusual, aren't of age yet, or are dead. Only time will tell where her mate is. The only way to heal the wolf is to wake her and chain in her silver so she can't hurt anyone. Lucy was against this. She thought maybe Axel could help Lanie as he helped her. Axel agreed to try. Aunt Bonnie began mixing the herbs to wake and heal Lanie's wolf. Lanie was anxious to talk with Anna again. Would she be mad, would she blame her for everything, would she lose control and kill a bunch of innocent people again? 

A lot had been happening the last few weeks. Axel and Liam had been working hard to train Anna and Lanie. They had come so far in just a few short weeks. Anna was already more trustworthy. Lanie felt much more assertive with the training and the poison out of their system. Maddox was returning today, and Ellen was ecstatic but terrified because they'd be going back to her pack very soon. Aunt Bonnie was preparing Ellen for what would happen once Maddox Marked her. She wouldn't be able to shift until the next full moon, but her wolf would come alive in her mind. Her wolf was currently dormant. Aunt Bonnie was also explaining to Ellen that she is now she is 18, she will start to feel her magic intensify, which will make her a target for dark witches. They will feel her power grow, and she will need to be wise not to overuse her magic and wear herself out. She will need to practice every day to get stronger. She is all good things. She gets her magic from the earth, life and love. Dark

Lucy was desperately trying to rest before dinner. Her head was swirling with what to do. She practiced what Axel had taught her, some kung fu clear your mind trick, but it was not working, and she was feeling so agitated. She almost roared when there was a knock at the door. "Come in," In walked a jaw-dropping beautiful strawberry blonde. Her dimples were adorable when she smiled! Her freckled face was perfect! She thought for a minute she might ask her what she used for face cream. Her forest green eyes were all too familiar. "Hi, I'm Treena, Killians sister. He told me you are his mate." " I haven't accepted him." "Oh, I know he thinks you are going to reject him, but let me tell you why that would be a huge mistake." "I don't think I can be Luna to a pack like this one. You seem very nice, but I am just not...." Lucy trailed off, not wanting to finish her excuse. When really, she was just afraid. "Look, Lucy, I know Killian's re

Ellen POV I heard Lanie cry out in pain, and it radiated through me like I was feeling it too. I reached for Maddox but forgot he was on patrol hours away near the border. I ran down the eight flights of stairs instead of taking the elevator, hoping  I was fast enough. I wasn't. Anna was in total control. I saw more fear than rage in her eyes. I went to spell Anna to sleep, but Aunt Bonnie said to let her feel her emotions. If we always stepped in, she would never learn for herself. Axel was trying to calm Anna, get her to breathe before he could touch her, but she was shot with something, and Lanie fell to the ground. The wolfsbane worked more like poison than a tranquillizer. Anna was fading. I watched as Axel watched her eyes go slack, and that's when the tether holding Axel's self-control and calm demeanour snapped. Axel lost all control killing the guard with the tranquillizer gun. Before I could even open my mouth to speak, he killed another guard, and the