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11-Spiralling
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Lucy POV
I could feel the control slipping. Astrid was coming forward. I could feel my canines coming forward and my nails turning to claws. I was trying so hard to keep all my happiness that my sister was alive, anxiety that she was in a healing facility and anger that I thought I was all alone for so long in check. Astrid was screaming in my mind to find Lanie when Axel's voice came through the darkness.
"Breathe, Luc, don't let her win. You are in control. You are in charge. No one takes your choice from you!" he whispered. I could feel myself begin to breathe normally and my canines retracted, and my nails were my own again. I had to keep it together. Now was not the time to lose control! No pity parties today! I turned to Axel, and when I went to say thank you, I noticed the look on Bonnie's face. She was shocked like she had just seen a ghost. I tried to apologize, but the words were so quiet I couldn't get them out. I thought Bonnie was staring at me, but she
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