All Chapters of It Started When It Ended: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

It was a boring day. Well, it was and it has been like this since no one knows when. Waking up every day for the reason that I want to die, going to work for some ironic reason—for my daily living. Magastos kasi mag-isip kung paano mamatay. And going back to my place trying to kill myself. Trying. Like, right now. I busied myself finding a nice rope. I spent the whole day at different stores, buying what I needed. Yes, today I am planning to hang myself. Bigti. I am really hoping to succeed with this one because my last three attempts all failed. At first, I bought lots of medicine, grabbing every box I’ve seen at the drugstore. I didn't bother to read the names and so it happens that those meds were multivitamins. I can still remember the smile of the girl at the cashier as she punched the ten boxes of multivitamins with different brands. I almost rolled my eyes on her, but I didn't. It was my stupidity so I should be mad at myself. And it was another stupidity to die from a m

Patricia dragged me out of the coffee shop as soon as we closed it. Biglaan niyang naisip na mag-bonding kami sa bahay niya, dress up, eat, talk, and watch some movies—the things that we used to do. Memories of it came back rushing through my mind. Those were the happiest days that I will treasure until I die. Those were the days of young adulthood—chasing our dreams, making the most out of every day, getting wasted, coming home late but sober. Patricia and I were partners in crime even when we were still at Ariel. “You’re spacing out!” She blurted, making a sudden brake at the stop light. I shrugged and pressed the radio playing a random station. She seemed irritated but she did not say anything. We entered Jacques subdivision in complete silence. Patricia did not wanna ruin the mood even more so she was cheering me up. She told me what happened about her trip at Merida City and told me about a guy she’s been eyeing for two weeks now. I tried my best to give her my full attention and

My heart was pounding as I approached the coffee shop. This was our dream—Pat and I. Open a café, cater different types of people that would want to enjoy the smell of coffee in a cozy place where they could work, talk, and have fun. Sinalubong ako ni Cristine, “whoa! Hindi ka late, himala ‘yon!” I rolled my eyes at her, “Nandiyan na si Patricia?” She nodded, pointing to the office’s door. I breathed in. Breathed out. I kept doing it until I had the courage to open the door. Patricia’s working with lots of paper in her desk, “Pat.” She looked up at me and smiled, “hey.” She seemed a bit off, I wonder if she has an idea of what I’m about to do. I sat in front of her and handed her the resignation letter. It’s funny tho. Letters are not really necessary, I just wanna be formal with her. “You, sure? We’ve talked about this a lot of times! And then what, you’re gonna leave this place? And then…” She lost it, crying hard, smudging the papers. “Gosh! Today you are cutting your wrist, a

I asked Chris a hundred times kung saan nga ba kami pupunta but all he said is, "don't complain. I am not abducting you. You'll love it there." Isn't this a kind of abducting me? Chris opened the window, I busied myself staring at the beautiful scenery. It's peaceful and perfect. The moon is showing its crescent shape. I heard him call someone on the phone, asking for a reservation. "Saan nga tayo pupunta?" We're going on a higher altitude, ramdam ko ang lalong pag-lamig ng hangin dahil nga sa bukas na bintana. We're going through a zig zag road. Because of the sign that we've passed through, I found out that we're at Chip. "Did you know that Disney Republic — our beloved country, has eight wonders?" He said, as soon as we parked at the garage. I raised a brow, "eh?" Eight wonders? I think I've read something like that in a travel blog. "What about it—?" I asked. I'm a little bit curious about these wonders that he is telling, but I am in awe because of the building we are fa

Chris helped me to stand up. He’s now wearing his shirt and we’re on our way to his car. Good thing wala kaming nakasalubong na gwardya o taga-bantay, because we look really suspicious dahil basa kaming dalawa. I did not say anything until we reached his car, he opened the door for me and I made my way inside. Instead of opening the aircon he opened the window, so that we won’t die due to hypothermia. I hugged my knees and leaned my head to the window, feeling the air as he drove. “Still too cold?” He asked, giving me a quick glance before looking at the road again. Halata naman sigurong nilalamig pa din ako? Pft. He suddenly stopped the car. I almost hit the dashboard because of the sudden break, and I almost shouted at him. But then I remembered, he saved me from the pond, lent me a ride, and okay, add the fact that he hugged me so I won’t feel cold. So I restrained myself and just shut up. Bumaba siya ng sasakyan at binuksan ang car compartment. He came back inside the car w