All Chapters of Abyss in the sea of memories: Chapter 11 - Chapter 18

I never knew how relieving it feels like after letting go of the loads I've been carrying for so long. But I still beat myself up for trusting and believing in him, I'm afraid that I might regret it. I locked myself up in his room to think more. There are so many paintings on the wall, just like that house by the beach. I wonder if he painted all of them, it's really impressive. It reminds me of my Dad because he used to paint too. He loves to paint different types of fish, mostly Koi fish. It's his favorite because of the Chinese Tale his Mother used to tell him when he was young.I can hear them talking downstairs. I wondered if those people are really reliable, but I do hope they can help me, because this is my first time trusting my judgements in people. I guess I'm done playing hide and seek.I finally went out of the room and go down. They had a dazed look on their faces the moment they saw me."Oh, hi, again."

I woke up by the sunlight as it hits my face. I sit up and look around, Kyle and Hue is still sleeping. I wonder where Raina is. I remember how anxious she is last night, while waiting for Ginger and Kyle talking outside."Are you okay? You just passed out." I said to her."I'm fine." she answered. "Thank you, Allen, for helping me." she said. My heart started pounding wildly and my ears are burning as I can feel it turning red. I guess it's because I'm overwhelmed with the fact that I was able to help her.But as we wait, I can't help but stare at her without being noticed. I realized that she's crazy beautiful. Her hair is short and I don't think it was cut with style — it looks more like she cut it herself – but it's not bad. In fact, it suits her. Now, I'm thinking about her again, like I'm going insane.Ginger came out of her room, with her pajamas on and a reall

I made a mistake. I shouldn't have push her. I was so eager to find that mysterious man because everytime she opens up her story, it makes me so mad. I just thought that she doesn't deserve all she'd gone through until now. Thinking she's been suffering for so long makes me want to end it as soon as possible. I don't want to see her living in fear anymore. But maybe I've been deluding myself from the thought that I could help her. That I could save her.She wants to forget everything in the past while I seek for mine. Allen assumed that some things that reminds her of her past is the trigger, that's why she reacted that way before she passed out. Now, I think even in her sleep, she can't seem to relax, I can see her sweating so much."What are you planning to do now?" Allen asked.My eyes adjusted at Raina.I maybe don't know her deeply but seeing her so many times in my hallucinations grew quite

I'm not trying to be a hero. I know that I wont gain anything by helping them. However, their desperation pushes me to do things even if it's against the rules, like stealing Raina's case file for example. I drove all the way from San Lorenzo Police District just to get those files with the help of my colleague. Not to mention, I've been sleepless for almost three days now and I feel like I might pass out soon. Nonetheless, I like what I'm doing. This is actually my dream: investigating and solving cases, stuffs like that. I've studied criminology for years. Been in a training and all that process, but I ended up being push around by that misogynist asshole, Officer Nate.I left Raina at my dorm to go back to my house. I hope she won't get caught or I'll be in big trouble."Can I see that painting?" I said to Allen. Kyle is still in shock that he locked himself again in Pepper's room. My poor sister can't use her own room anymore. These i