Fiona's POVI have a horrible habit.When I get upset and I feel like my life is out of control, I go shopping. Of course this is an issue because I don't really have money. I mostly blame my mother for this habit. She taught me how to spend money I didn't have.It's all she did after my dad died. She bought all kinds of shit, but never groceries. Never things for me. Only things for herself. She acted as though she was the only one who lost my dad. Like I wasn't affected by it too.The only thing my mother ever actually gave me was bad habits and crippling insecurities about whether I was important or not. And yet I continued to have her in my life. We sat down for dinner once a month. Same time, same place, and ordered the same th
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