Sins Of My Body의 모든 챕터: 챕터 11 - 챕터 20

It is yet another morning of fucking smiling after spending the night with Joshua. This is becoming a habit that I like but that I do not like as well.This is becoming complicated.Just as I am about to lose myself in actual work and not daydreaming, I hear Janice calling for me. “Miss James. Miss James. Miss James, can you hear me?”“Sorry, Janice, you were saying something?”“Brenda phoned; they need you at The Summit Club. She did not give any details, just said it was urgent.”“If some fuck tried anything with one of my girls, I am going to rip his cock off. Tell Brenda I am on my way.”I race over to the agency, all the way I am thinking of Joshua. I can't stop thinking about him kissing me. What the hell has happened to my no kissing rule. What is the purpose of having rules if I am just going to break them?As I step inside the office at The Summit Club, I find Brenda oddly compo

This is why I don’t get involved. I let my guard down, and I got used. I forgot that I could not trust anybody, no matter who they are. He played me, and he played me well. I broke every single rule that I stand by. I was so close to telling him how I really feel. All the feelings he said he had for me were a total lie.Joshua Hamilton is going to pay. You don’t fuck with Veronica James and get away with it.He has been phoning me the entire morning; I wonder if he knows that I was at his father's office today.How do I play this, play along for a little bit longer or confront him now?I dial his number.“Joshua, you called.”“Yes, have you been busy?”“Just a meeting with a prospective client. He caught me quite off guard.”“How so?”“Had some interesting news about a current client.”“Do you want to do lunch?”“How a

It has been a week since I have seen or spoken to Joshua. Now I am not going to lie; the sex was fucking amazing even though it was a trap. Yes, I should not have enjoyed it as much, and god knows that I did not even try to fake it.I have much to my own annoyance not stopped thinking about him. I am practically messed up from my own plan. I sometimes think with other parts more than my brain. I guess that revenge is not such a fair game.But he said the words that I wanted him to say. Why am I so hesitant to expose him then. I need to remember he played me for a fool. But then again, did he just say it because he is playing me for a fool. I need to get this over and done with before it ruins me.I want Joshua out of my life, or do I truly want him to be in it with me? I wish that this was not so confusing. This is why I keep reminding myself not to do relationships. I guess my own game has blown up in my face. I have a staff meeting this morning, s

Just wonderful. I am on the front cover of Flare and You with my ex-boyfriend and his soon-to-be fiancé. “Veronica James: Homewrecker.” “Veronica James: The other woman.” In this business, you have no friends. How are you supposed to get things done when you have to play against the likes of this. That is why I use my body to get what I want. How must I not use my body? Did he even mean that? I must respect my body. Did he not even care about me a bit. Why did he want to talk to me? Am I being unnecessarily hard? “Janice.” “Yes, Miss James.” “Please send Tyler over to my office.” “Sure, Miss James.” Tyler walks in, and I lock the door behind him. I learned my lesson with Joshua barging in.&n

I decided to run off to a far off exotic resort to get away from everything. To run away from myself. My neighbor has not made things easy for me. He loves porn, a lot of it. I am waiting for him at the bar. All I want is peace and quiet. I am preparing myself for some hairy fat man.   “What is his name?” I ask the bartender.   “Don’t know.”   “Very helpful bartender you are.”   The music has gone louder at the bar, I feel someone walk up behind me, I know he is saying something, but I cannot hear a word, he reaches his hand out to me, I take it in my own and turn to introduce myself.   “Joshua.”   “Veronica. What are you doing here?”   “I am here for you.”   “How did you know I am here?”   He goes oddly quiet.   “Remind me to fire Janice when I get back. How long have you bee