The Love I Have Hoped For のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 51 - チャプター 60

I was discharged in the afternoon. The doctor advised me to take more rest and eat more. He said that my condition is quite sensitive, so he recommended me to stay on bed for my first trimester of pregnancy. Regina was also there and was talking to Geoff almost all morning. I saw her once looking angry while talking to him. I couldn't hear their conversation since they were almost whispering.Before I was discharged, Geoff already left the hospital. He said he is scheduled to have a meeting with the shareholders, and he can't cancel the appointment."I will come home as early as I can. If you need anything, you can tell Nancy. Sometimes, I get too busy so I can't answer your call." He explained. I couldn't feel the sincerity in all the words he said. I guess it is because I already have doubts about him. He also didn't explain why he didn't come home early yesterday like he promised. He didn't even apologize, something that I was waiting for him to say. I love him so m

If there is something that I'm proud of myself, that is my optimism. Despite the experiences I had when I was younger, being bullied by my classmates and growing up with little guidance from my mom because she had to work, I am still able to find the positive side of things. I always had hope in my heart and I never kept grudges. I always tried to understand other people's behavior and attitude towards me. I used to blame myself for being different, making others notice me easily. But this time, it is a totally different. I'm not that same lady who just accepts insults and pain from others. This time, I have to learn how to stand for myself. I will deal with these things rationally. I will keep that positivity that someday, they will regret taking advantage of me.The days passed by quickly. I made myself busy with my business and learning cooking from Tess, the old house helper who used to dislike me. We grow fondness to each other, and I learned a lot from her."The

That weekend, Geoff and I drove to visit my mom in the countryside. I tried to discourage him from accompanying me many times but it didn't work."I haven't spent time with my mom for a long time and I want us to have our own time. I haven't visited her since we got married and I miss being taken care of by her." I remember telling Geoff but his answer was a simple "we will spend time with her together." I even tried pretending to be angry at him but it didn't stop him from accompanying me. I don't know why he really wants to visit my mom with me. I hope he is not suspicious of my plan to escape from him. Actually, I just wanted to talk to my mom and tell her everything. I wanted to feel that I have someone I can rely on and that person would only be my mom but with Geoff around, I'm sure I won't be able to do that."Do you want us to have a vacation with your mom? We can go to a resort or overseas if you want to. Just tell me and I will prepare everything for you." Ge

7th month of pregnancy. Time seems so fast in the past weeks. Geoff spent more time at home compared to the past. He usually sleeps at home beside me unlike before. He also became sweeter to me but not as sweet as our first months after marriage although we never had sex since I got pregnant. Sometimes, I wanted to be aggressive despite my condition just to check whether he would be as passionate as before, but I guess I'm too conservative to do that. He never hugs me when we sleep. His reason is he doesn't want me to get uncomfortable especially with my condition.I already made a plan on how I can leave here. I talked about it with my mom and she prepared all the things that we need. I'm still not sure whether I would push through with it though. I'm waiting for a sign. Any sign would do. I pray every night that God would show me that this place is not a good place to raise my daughter.I should not be selfish, that's what I always tell myself. Geoff may not love me but I'm sure he l

Nancy, or should I say Danny, slept immediately after taking a quick shower in the motel. The room is rather old, and we were lucky to be settled in a room for two in the only motel existing in town. The room is much smaller than the one I used to have in Park mansion, but this place makes me feel safer. I don't know what's happening to the people I have left behind but I couldn't think of any way I could escape from Geoff other than this. And talking about the people I have left behind, I need to call my mom and Annie to let them know that I am okay and they need not to be worried. I headed immediately to the reception desk to ask where I can buy a disposable sim card for me to make a call. The receptionist, who is in his late fifties and also is the owner of the motel, is nice enough to tell me the directions of the only convenience store in town. Luckily, it is just 5-minute walk from the motel and she assured me that it is safe to walk around in this area.This is somethi