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2020-09-29 17:13:48Geoff came home late that night. I pretended to be sleeping when he arrived. He lied down on the bed immediately without even checking how I was. When I could hear his heavy breathes, I got up from the bed and took a blanket from the wardrobe. I can't stand staying beside him. The man whom I thought really loves me is the same man who would hurt me so bad. Everything is a lie and I will be so stupid to believe him again. I have to wait for the right time for me to leave this place and if I'm lucky, have my revenge.
I woke up the next day with breakfast already set up on the coffee table next to the sofa where I slept. There is a fruit platter, bread, egg and bacon in different trays. No one would think that this breakfast is only for two people. It seems like it’s a meal for a big family. I could hear water running from the bathroom which I believe is Geoff. He is probably taking a shower now.
I got up from the sofa and went back to the bedroom. I have to prepare
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The Love I Have Hoped For 107 The Worry
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