The ride back home was was smooth. Like really silent, not a word and so I fixated my gaze outside the window through the drive untill we actually reach our destination. I alight first rushing to the door and opening it. Matts gone. The bastard.
I head straight for my room, tossing my share of the dress on the bed slumping along with it. The door of my room barge open and I roll my eyes.
" Seriously Elle? "
" What am I supposed to say? " I ask giving her a side glare. She put her hands on her waist giving me the best mom look she could find.
" You love that boy? "
" I don't think it's any of your business. Now go. "
" Just be ready by seven cause that's when we are leaving. "
I nod and wait for her to go out before burying my face into the pillow.
Two hours later.
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I give him the hard type of glare I usually give him when he's teasing me and I don't like it at all. Even though it's dark outside, I see him smirk, he saw my face." Can we talk? "" We are talking. "He looks back at the party inside" A more silent place "" You know I am not supposed to be talking with you. "" Just come on "Why on earth is he talking like we are friends like since for ever. I know Remi there is something up his sleeve. He grab my hand and pull me like two buildings away from the party. I don't protest but roll my eyes. My hormones seriously wanting to be with him, alone. I hate you.We finally stop, the place we are is lightened but not too much. I can see his annoying shit handsome face and I suddenly feel like crying even though I don't know wh
Natalie had seriously given me one of those ugly faces a mom gives her child when I walked back to the party. After a few minutes I headed home because somebody spoilt my mood, even though it was not okay before then. I just wanted to get away and Cody had offered to take me home.Now, my pale green dress is on, my phone in hand and I'm walking over to aunt's place. My heart's beating fast like mad, I don't know why and I don't even need to conduct my research. I'm scared and I don't know why. Maybe from the pain of seeing Aunt again considering the way I had acted that day.... She didn't expect itI don't even realise I have reached my destination until I am standing in front of it. With all that thinking, I have overcome a thirty minutes walk from Natalie's. I walk on to the porch, take a very deep breath, release and then take it again and again. I'm really finding it hard to press the door bell. And my heart is beating fast as if I am going to die any m
Aunt comes back later in the evening like when it's dark outside. Not angry but pissed, I understand that she is trying to fix Remi and I together and all, as a good Aunt as she is but it certainly won't work. Remi and I didn't even talk much after that hug I had disengaged and walked to the sitting room to wait where I ended up dozing off. Now I am seated with Aunt just staring into space. I'm supposed to answer to whatever she had just spewed out. And I don't mean to be disrespectful, I'm not just cut out for this right now. I am so fucking stressed but I open my mouth to talk anyway. " I can never trust him again. " I say leaning on my hands as I lean forward in my chair. It's the truth, just how it is and I am not ready to dwell much on that subject. " I understand but can you just forgive him? He is not been himself since you two came here and-- " " We are friends now. I'm going to tell him tomorrow. He certainly did no
I didn't protest when Remi volunteered to walk me home. But I felt a little disappointed that Lily didn't even reach out to me when I was leaving but I made her goodbye any way. Turns out she was staring at some mermaid pictures in her book. Like who buys mermaid books for children these days. Oh, that is so wrong. We walk in silence through the way to the streets. I'm uncomfortable with the ice and I so much want to break it. But then I don't know what to say and I certainly do not want to say something stupid like: 'so, how's Lily's momma? Are you in touch with her?' Or worse 'how about the girl you fucked last night?' I know that's crazy Remi never slept with another person last night and besides, he told me he isn't in any relationship with any woman so.... And it's even kind of weird that I believe him like seriously. " So, are you still single.? " He asks out of the blue. First of all, phew and are you kidding me? That
" so what you're saying now is that you think that that butch Remi fucked did whatever you think she did? "" yeah " Natalie shake her head, standing up from her seat, plate in hand to the sink. I take my time eating as I seriously have no zeal eating mashed potatoes. I want pizza and ice cream and a large burger but that stays in my head. I do not want to give any one a hard time. yes. I'm kidding, I can't do this anymore. l push the plate away and stand " Don't tell me you're not eating that anymore " Natalie say, I pretend to be full and rub my stomach with my hand" I--- "" Don't. listen, if you don't want to eat a particular type of food you can always talk. why else am I your friend if u can't help you. " " But-----" " No. Don't pretend as if you're full. you're pregnant for heaven's sake. I need you to eat. Don't you want your baby to be healthy? " I sigh, rolling my eyes. Ugh, this is why girls have boyfriends. I have to get my self one. And like ASAP. I bite my lower
I pull away immediately and stand up, threshing my hand in my hair as I walk into the kitchen in utter frustration. Like why would he just kiss me, how dare he" Elle " He call, grabbing my hand and turning me to face him" What? " I snap " listen to me okay? now I have a question for you. And I don't want you to lie to me okay " " Why would I listen to you? " I snap again. Snatching my hand away from his grasp in a huff" Because what I want to ask you is very important " I look him down. Seriously, how dare him kiss me? I want to kiss him so bad again like.... ugh. Fuck him" It depends, if I can answer truthfully then I would and if not then I won't " We lock gazes and he end up sighing. As if utterly frustrated about something, it's better not be me though cause I haven't even started anything yet. Ugh, goodness. I need to be reasonable. I had just said I'd be his best friend. I need to be mature. " You fed Lily yesterday morning with the milk in your breast. According to m
" What can I get for you? " I fix my gaze upon him, trying not to blush at the sight is his buttocks. He's sitting on the edge of the bed with a part of the covers strewn across his privates. I look away to the other side, he must be kidding. When did he start caring about me, even more to the extent of caring about what I'll eat. " Elle "" Hmmmm? " I ask, raising my brows up and turning to face him " Since when did you start caring about what I want to eat? " I ask laughing, be smile too, looking away and threshing his hand in his hair" Can't I care about you any longer? "" Well, if I'm hungry, I'll look for what to eat myself. "I say drawing the covers up to the top of my head. " Elle " " I want to sleep. Leave me alone. " I fake a groan, shuffling about under the covers in purpose He pull the covers off my face and turn me to face him " You're being a big baby "I lock gazes with him, blushing profusely to my embarrassment. " Speaking about babies, are you sure it'
The next few days, I found myself locking gazes with Remi, too constant for me. Like you know staring at him and catching him staring back? I didn't know why? But it just seemed like I keep he was looking at me. Like I'll just look up and meet his gaze. I hated it so bad because it made me feel super uneasy. There had been even more distance than there'd ever been between us. I hadn't gone to his house since the kiss but he'd been to mine. Particularly with Aria. We rarely even talked directly to each other. And he'd been akwardly silent, no, we hadn't even talked about the kiss. If it were up to me, I'd never bring the subject up because I dreaded it so bad. And that part of me not going to his house? Well it took me efforts, but I've felt more like I had had enough. I felt like I've been pushing myself on him..... Which was a good sign because I've been wanting to find a reason to stay away. I didn't hate him. No, I lov --- loked him --- A combination of like and love. Even tho
The next few days, I found myself locking gazes with Remi, too constant for me. Like you know staring at him and catching him staring back? I didn't know why? But it just seemed like I keep he was looking at me. Like I'll just look up and meet his gaze. I hated it so bad because it made me feel super uneasy. There had been even more distance than there'd ever been between us. I hadn't gone to his house since the kiss but he'd been to mine. Particularly with Aria. We rarely even talked directly to each other. And he'd been akwardly silent, no, we hadn't even talked about the kiss. If it were up to me, I'd never bring the subject up because I dreaded it so bad. And that part of me not going to his house? Well it took me efforts, but I've felt more like I had had enough. I felt like I've been pushing myself on him..... Which was a good sign because I've been wanting to find a reason to stay away. I didn't hate him. No, I lov --- loked him --- A combination of like and love. Even tho
" What can I get for you? " I fix my gaze upon him, trying not to blush at the sight is his buttocks. He's sitting on the edge of the bed with a part of the covers strewn across his privates. I look away to the other side, he must be kidding. When did he start caring about me, even more to the extent of caring about what I'll eat. " Elle "" Hmmmm? " I ask, raising my brows up and turning to face him " Since when did you start caring about what I want to eat? " I ask laughing, be smile too, looking away and threshing his hand in his hair" Can't I care about you any longer? "" Well, if I'm hungry, I'll look for what to eat myself. "I say drawing the covers up to the top of my head. " Elle " " I want to sleep. Leave me alone. " I fake a groan, shuffling about under the covers in purpose He pull the covers off my face and turn me to face him " You're being a big baby "I lock gazes with him, blushing profusely to my embarrassment. " Speaking about babies, are you sure it'
I pull away immediately and stand up, threshing my hand in my hair as I walk into the kitchen in utter frustration. Like why would he just kiss me, how dare he" Elle " He call, grabbing my hand and turning me to face him" What? " I snap " listen to me okay? now I have a question for you. And I don't want you to lie to me okay " " Why would I listen to you? " I snap again. Snatching my hand away from his grasp in a huff" Because what I want to ask you is very important " I look him down. Seriously, how dare him kiss me? I want to kiss him so bad again like.... ugh. Fuck him" It depends, if I can answer truthfully then I would and if not then I won't " We lock gazes and he end up sighing. As if utterly frustrated about something, it's better not be me though cause I haven't even started anything yet. Ugh, goodness. I need to be reasonable. I had just said I'd be his best friend. I need to be mature. " You fed Lily yesterday morning with the milk in your breast. According to m
" so what you're saying now is that you think that that butch Remi fucked did whatever you think she did? "" yeah " Natalie shake her head, standing up from her seat, plate in hand to the sink. I take my time eating as I seriously have no zeal eating mashed potatoes. I want pizza and ice cream and a large burger but that stays in my head. I do not want to give any one a hard time. yes. I'm kidding, I can't do this anymore. l push the plate away and stand " Don't tell me you're not eating that anymore " Natalie say, I pretend to be full and rub my stomach with my hand" I--- "" Don't. listen, if you don't want to eat a particular type of food you can always talk. why else am I your friend if u can't help you. " " But-----" " No. Don't pretend as if you're full. you're pregnant for heaven's sake. I need you to eat. Don't you want your baby to be healthy? " I sigh, rolling my eyes. Ugh, this is why girls have boyfriends. I have to get my self one. And like ASAP. I bite my lower
I didn't protest when Remi volunteered to walk me home. But I felt a little disappointed that Lily didn't even reach out to me when I was leaving but I made her goodbye any way. Turns out she was staring at some mermaid pictures in her book. Like who buys mermaid books for children these days. Oh, that is so wrong. We walk in silence through the way to the streets. I'm uncomfortable with the ice and I so much want to break it. But then I don't know what to say and I certainly do not want to say something stupid like: 'so, how's Lily's momma? Are you in touch with her?' Or worse 'how about the girl you fucked last night?' I know that's crazy Remi never slept with another person last night and besides, he told me he isn't in any relationship with any woman so.... And it's even kind of weird that I believe him like seriously. " So, are you still single.? " He asks out of the blue. First of all, phew and are you kidding me? That
Aunt comes back later in the evening like when it's dark outside. Not angry but pissed, I understand that she is trying to fix Remi and I together and all, as a good Aunt as she is but it certainly won't work. Remi and I didn't even talk much after that hug I had disengaged and walked to the sitting room to wait where I ended up dozing off. Now I am seated with Aunt just staring into space. I'm supposed to answer to whatever she had just spewed out. And I don't mean to be disrespectful, I'm not just cut out for this right now. I am so fucking stressed but I open my mouth to talk anyway. " I can never trust him again. " I say leaning on my hands as I lean forward in my chair. It's the truth, just how it is and I am not ready to dwell much on that subject. " I understand but can you just forgive him? He is not been himself since you two came here and-- " " We are friends now. I'm going to tell him tomorrow. He certainly did no
Natalie had seriously given me one of those ugly faces a mom gives her child when I walked back to the party. After a few minutes I headed home because somebody spoilt my mood, even though it was not okay before then. I just wanted to get away and Cody had offered to take me home.Now, my pale green dress is on, my phone in hand and I'm walking over to aunt's place. My heart's beating fast like mad, I don't know why and I don't even need to conduct my research. I'm scared and I don't know why. Maybe from the pain of seeing Aunt again considering the way I had acted that day.... She didn't expect itI don't even realise I have reached my destination until I am standing in front of it. With all that thinking, I have overcome a thirty minutes walk from Natalie's. I walk on to the porch, take a very deep breath, release and then take it again and again. I'm really finding it hard to press the door bell. And my heart is beating fast as if I am going to die any m
I give him the hard type of glare I usually give him when he's teasing me and I don't like it at all. Even though it's dark outside, I see him smirk, he saw my face." Can we talk? "" We are talking. "He looks back at the party inside" A more silent place "" You know I am not supposed to be talking with you. "" Just come on "Why on earth is he talking like we are friends like since for ever. I know Remi there is something up his sleeve. He grab my hand and pull me like two buildings away from the party. I don't protest but roll my eyes. My hormones seriously wanting to be with him, alone. I hate you.We finally stop, the place we are is lightened but not too much. I can see his annoying shit handsome face and I suddenly feel like crying even though I don't know wh
The ride back home was was smooth. Like really silent, not a word and so I fixated my gaze outside the window through the drive untill we actually reach our destination. I alight first rushing to the door and opening it. Matts gone. The bastard.I head straight for my room, tossing my share of the dress on the bed slumping along with it. The door of my room barge open and I roll my eyes." Seriously Elle? "" What am I supposed to say? " I ask giving her a side glare. She put her hands on her waist giving me the best mom look she could find." You love that boy? "" I don't think it's any of your business. Now go. "" Just be ready by seven cause that's when we are leaving. "I nod and wait for her to go out before burying my face into the pillow.Two hours later." E