85 : "Cardiff"Cardiff85T A T EI was merely excited to tour around Cardiff really quick before the boys' concert will start. I wanted to see what was around the place and how badly I wanted to take photos. As much as I wanted Monique to be here, she can't because she just give birth. Romano was driving me around the city, while Gage and the other lads had a sound check at Millennium Stadium. I ate at some restaurant, bought some coffee and some foods for me and Romano. I bought ice cream too. I took a lot of photos and selfies but I really wanted to do these with Gage. As much as I wanted to watch him do their sound check, he said it was better if I wasn't there because there'll be staff from the management. He doesn't wanna everything to ruin my good mood.I walked around the streets and thankfully not much people noticed me. I have been spotted with Gage and the lads arriving the airport a while ago and I think the cap and the sunglasses kind of helped with my disguise. I really
86 : "Profess"Profess86T A T EIt was already time to leave Cardiff as soon as the band's two-day stay here was over. I enjoyed the place, the foods and gosh the view was amazing. The people were very friendly inside hotel too. My things were all packed and we were all ready to leave for London. Yes, London. Gage had planned to stop over London really quick because his mother texted him that she wanted to finally meet me.Am I ready to meet her and the rest of Gage's family? Fuck no. I wasn't ready because this wasn't part of the plan on how he wanted things while we were on tour. Since they have four days off before they head to Austria for the next leg of their tour, Gage it was bestowed introduce me to his family. Holy shit, I swear to god that I am so so so so not ready to face them. I am also VERY fucking nervous about facing them, who wouldn't right? They're Gage's family. That means I need to act calm and be calm.Shit, how am I gonna even do that?I settled myself inside t
87 : "Worries"Worries87T A T E"M-Scanty?" I stutter.She nods. "Can I come in?""I thought Gage and the other lads were off to a meeting with the management?" I ask, I honestly don't want her to come inside. I'm sure she's here to talk things with me about Gage and what I have with him."Can we talk? Preferably inside."I take a deep breath in and widened my door for her. She walks inside while her eyes were looking at everything that was inside the suite. I carefully shut the door close and followed her to the living room."How was Cardiff?" She asks and sits down on the couch even if I didn't offer her to sit."I-It was fine. Thank you." I answer as I sit across her.She nods. "I'm sure you had fun. Is Gage going to sleep here too or is he staying with his family tonight?"I press my lips together and entwined my fingers to each other."I heard you just arrived an hour ago. Has Gage mentioned how he's going to spend his four days off and where he's going to spend it?" She kept t
88 : "Love"Love88T A T E"Oh Gage I am so happy to see you again!" I watch as Gage's mother hug him tight with his step father standing right next to her.I stand here, nervous as fuck to be actually standing right in front of his parents while I was still bothered about what Mrs. Summers told me a while ago. I still can't help it not to get focused on this dinner I'm having with them."Tate?" Gage calls out.I snapped myself out from it and walked closer to Gage's arm as he laced it around me."Mum, this is Tate Kavanaugh." Gage says while he was looking at me with a smile."My girlfriend." He adds.I smile nervously at him then moved my head towards Gage's mother and stepdad. She looks at me for a while then happily smiled."I have been wanting to meet you dear." She unexpectedly hugged me and rubbed my back.She releases me and adds, "I never thought Gage would get into another serious relationship again after what happened. I'm so happy you came into his life."I laugh softly.
89 : "Im Sorry"I'm Sorry89T A T EI stare at the photo that Gage took on his Instagram. It was a photo of me in black and white, facing my back to him while I was on the jabecausezi. He just posted it three days ago and a lot of hate are already typed on it. Hate on me.But the caption that Gage typed still makes me strong despite the hatred I've been getting lately.He quote: "The view is pretty, but she's prettier."The past days, Gage spent his four-day vacation with me in a private resort where he rented the entire place only for the two of us. So basically the entire resort was ours. He didn't want some people to take photos of me being with him. He wanted me to himself before he goes to Austria and he wanted the two of us to relax together. He was also planning on bringing me along with him but I have other plans in mindThe days I spent with him alone, just proved to me that he must love me so much for doing so many things for me. He loved me so much that it frightens me of
90 : "Lionheart"Lionheart90G A G EEveryone buzzed about our well-deserve break from showbiz and I'm torn between being excited for it and not. The entire band decided to have that even though the management was totally against it.I think I needed this hiatus more than anyone else in the band. I wanna think about the things that happened lately and my contract with Scanty is almost about to end. I am sure that I won't be renewing with them and I'm signing up to Jeff Azoff's. Somewhat he's my great friend and I trust him on handling me.When we ended the OTRA Tour, it was at Sheffield on October 31st year 2015. I haven't seen Tate since we broke up last June 9th and it was the most tragic. Every time we have a day off from all the touring, I always go to New York to see her and maybe talk things with her even if New York was way far from where I was staying. I always find time for her but she didn't.After we broke up, Tate had left her apartment without me knowing it. I talked to
91 : "A Happy Day"A Happy Day91T A T EI ring the doorbell.But no one answers.I tried to ring the doorbell again."I hear you! I'm coming!"I take a deep breath in as soon as the door swings open, I see Monique standing right in front of me. She seemed shock to see me and I was hell sure she was surprised. I've gone for a few months without telling her where I was."Oh my gosh you bitch you're alive!" She screams at my face before she threw herself at me and hugged me tight."Hey. I missed you." I tell her."You're such an asshole for leaving everyone behind including Gage!" She smacks my arm."I'm sorry." I pulled myself away from her.She sighs. "And your hair's already long too."I smile."Gage's been so worried sick of you. He kept coming over. He kept asking me about you. And do you know that he comes here just to make sure you come back because he was so sure you'll be returning?" She narrates.She looks at me worriedly."Can I even come in so we can talk things over privat
92 : "Drunk & High"Drunk & High92T A T EThe loud music was busting up these four walls of the club, it was pretty pretty loud almost deafening to the ears. I can't even hear my own thoughts, it's crazy. Most men were into groups of four to many were all busy drinking and chattering. Most slut looking women that were around were dancing up against a man or two that they probably just met while I'm here drowning myself with troubles and pain.I groan as I take a long drink from my third glass of tequila. Third glass, believe that! And I've never been a tequila fan. I swear I was really planning on getting drunk tonight because of one thing and that's because I was so so so stupid for letting Gage slip away."Has he commented yet?" Monique asks.I shake my head and pouted."Did he even hit you up?" She asks again.I sigh heavily. "Nothing!"I've been keeping on refreshing and refreshing my Instagram account but not even a single notification that was coming from Gage popped out and i
FINALEI watch as Tate teach Beatriz in perfectly cutting the cookie dough out of the Santa Claus head shape-cutter. She was asking a lot of questions to Tate if they'd make flower cookies tomorrow or a small chocolate cake the next day. Beatriz had a lot of questions in her mind and I wonder where she had inherited that kind of interest in baking since my mum doesn't really bake, but then maybe this trait must be coming from Tate's mom. She had mentioned that her mom loved to cook and bake and that she was a great cook.As they finished all of it, they began to press down tiny chocolate kisses over the dough and as I watch my five year old little girl having fun making cookies with her mother, I know I've chosen the right woman to spend a lifetime with."Dad! Don't just stand there. Share duties with us. C'mon!" Beatriz calls out.Tate chuckles. "You heard the boss, Gage."I laugh with Tate and jogged my way closer to my two favorite women as I kiss Tate's cheek then she flashes me h
103 : "First Birthday"First Birthday103T A T EMy heart is pounding against my chest as soon as we arrived at the venue. I'm sure that there's going to be trouble because Miller is here. I know he wants to be a part of his daughter's first birthday party but Monique said days ago while we were preparing for this party that she won't even let Miller come near Tarry.I just don't want Miller to be ruining this day for his own daughter. I've prepared days for this day to be perfect and I've tired the hell out of myself the past week just for my godchild. Gage even helped with the preparations too and he even lavished voluntarily money for this event. I know he doesn't want this day to get ruined too. And I can't let Miller ruin this day for both Monique and Tarry."I'm nervous." I say to Gage.Both of us hopped off of the car and walked inside the hotel. He fixes the button of his polo as he pushed his hair back to his forehead and says to me, "Don't worry about it."I exhale heavily.
102 : "Olivia Tate"Olivia Tate102G A G E SPAINThe following morning, Tate showed me around Spain too like how I showed her Cheshire. I've been to Spain before but not as fun as I have with her and I've never been toured this much around this place. I didn't even know there were places around here that existed and I never even knew about it if Tate didn't showed me around. And when we were here, we never got to see Spain that much because we were on tour.Tate showed me off to some museums, some art galleries, magnificent sceneries that truly wowed me, amazing cathedrals, we even went to the school she went to when she was in elementary and so many other places that we enjoyed till we got tired. There were fans who crowded us though when they saw me and walked up to us to ask for my picture and autograph but my good thing Sam and Ryan were there to secure us.By almost six in the evening, Tate wanted to go to this last place that she wanted me to. Of course I wouldn't say no to he
101 : "Kavanaughs"Kavanaughs101G A G E After we had dinner, I was still nervous. Even though I've talked to them and her father seemed nice to me, I am still nervous.With her two brothers.I know they're really worried about my relationship with Tate. I know they don't want me to be with her because of my fame and it will be a great hindrance between us. I know that but I won't let them ruin what I have with Tate. I've already done too much to save us.And I know how families get so overprotective and they're just like Gemma. But they're the boy version of Gemma which is crazy. I know how Gemma gets so worried when I'm seeing someone new because she's worried that the past might happen again and I know how her brothers are also worried for her because she's a woman and that's just normal.I sigh. I just wish they see that I am really serious with Tate."Hey..." I hear Tate's voice from behind me.I stare at her over my shoulder and smiled. I feel her hands holding onto my shoulde
100 : "Spain"Spain100T A T EWhen we landed Spain, a lot of people took photos of us the second we arrived at the airport. We hurriedly got inside Gage's car and quickly drove to my home. Gage has been silent since we landed and he hasn't talked much too. He was looking straight ahead to the road while the GPS was teaching him where to go."Hey..." I placed my hand over his hand that was holding the clutch.He travels his head to me. "Yeah?""You're awfully quiet. What's up?" I ask.Gage exhales. "I'm just so nervous to be meeting your father and your two brothers. Like seriously how huge are they?""Hulk-like." I answer.He gapes at what I said and I could see now how nervous he really was to meet my family. I didn't even know that he was anxious this whole time. He tries to keep his cool after what I said but I really had no idea that the reason why he's been quiet all this time since we got here was that because he's nervous to meet them.I laugh softly."It'll be okay." I say t
99 : "Holmes"Holmes99T A T EWhen dinner was ready, we walked to the dining table to have eat together."Aunt Josie is a really great cook. I must say she's better than mum." Gage playfully says."Don't tell mum I said that." He adds.Aunt Josie and I were laughing together but I as I look at Gemma, she was just plainly looking at me while she was already starting to eat."Oh Gage you always compliment my cookings. Thank you but I think you just miss it." She says while chuckling."No aunt Josie, it is really good." Gage insist.I smile."You gotta try this sweetheart." Gage placed a piece of tenderloin on my plate. "That's a family recipe." He smiles at me."Thank you." I tell him."So, what are your plans tomorrow?" Aunt Josie asks."Well, I'm actually planning on touring Tate around town. I wanna show her where I grew up. I'm also planning on introducing her to my cousins so I hope Jake is around." He answers her."Oh don't worry. My son just got back from university and I'm sur
98 : "Small Town"Small Town98T A T E"Here's your order sweetheart." Gage placed my macchiato in front of me after grabbing it from the counter. I smiled to thank him but I was inwardly distracted.We were sitting inside Starbucks, just having an afternoon date together. It wasn't like it used to and now he'd always sit away from me. We were actually sitting right across each other now and letting all people look over our table. I watch as Gage signed some autographs and talked casually to some fans who came up to our table. I watched him do his thing and I was so amused that he's still so calm at how he treats his fans. No, he doesn't treat his fans as fans. He treats them as if he had known them for so long. "Thank you Gage." The little girls bids goodbye.When his fans had left our table, he turned to look back at me again. "What's wrong?" He asks.I shake my head sideways. "Nothing. I'm just always amused at how you treat your fans."He smirks. "Well they all have a special pl
97 : "Once Again"Once Again97T A T EGage groans as I hear him shifting on top of my bed just next to me. I was facing my back to him while his arm was loosely wrapping around me. He slowly pulls me in as I felt him pressing his self against my body which felt great. I was happy having him here again. I mean waking up so early in the morning having him here just makes everything feels okay. It feels like nothing even happened and us just continued.All of a sudden I felt him kissing the back of my head and it just makes me smile. It maybe just a simple gesture but it shows love. It shows that he still loves me so much despite the shit stuff that happened all these months. And I am so happy just being like this with him. I feel so grateful because he's here and he's just here."I love you Tate." He speaks to me softly. He tightly wraps his arm around me just a little bit quick and it really makes my heart flutter even ten thousand times happier than it already is. I just kept smili
96 : "Eli"Eli96G A G EI have never been mad and disappointed in my entire life at someone this much. I really hate all of the people that composes the Scanty! Management. Eli has always been right since the beginning of this, they're all liars. I can't believe we stayed to such people for a long time and actually trusted them that they can actually give us the real happiness. I was so wrong about them. All of them. They always make us want to lie to the fans, to our family, to the people around us and even to our own selves.They are all so selfish.I know every signed artist has rules to follow because of the contract but I just couldn't believe that I let them rule my life all this time and all these years. I've never been this happier when I signed for Jeff and finally left them. I am glad that he has my back unlike how Scanty would actually do dirty things without our knowing.When I look back at it now and the things that they did to my life and the mess that they've caused n