58 : "Cabin"Cabin58G A G EAm I?"Dude." Peter snapped at me.I groan as we head out of the van. I've been trying to avoid and ignore Peter teasing me about falling in love with Tate. I'm not in love with her and that was just a stupid dream. I shouldn't have told him about that dream if I knew he'd just kept on teasing me about it."Gage come on. Tell the truth. Don't deny it to yourself. You're in love with Tate." He whispers to me while he nudges his elbow to my side."Peter. " I snapped."How many times do I have to tell you that I am not in love with her? You won't even listen to me." I tell him."You dreamt about confessing to her. That could mean something Gage. Come on, don't be too blind about it just because Anast--" He stops.I sigh.I watch as Peter sigh too while he looks away from me and clears his throat. "I think you love her man." He tells me.I didn't answer."If not love, then you're probably attracted to her. Maybe you're already attached to her. Tate's beautifu
59 : "Campfire"Campfire59T A T EThe others were already singing along to the guy who was playing with his guitar. It felt like this was just like the Campout I did back in New York but the only things that are different is Peter's here, Adam's here too and everybody knows that Gage is here unlike that night, he was hiding himself under a disguise.As I glance at Gage he was busy talking to the woman next to him. She didn't come from our class, I was sure of that. She looked older than me, wearing a purple sleeveless some plaid button down and her white skimpy shorts. He seemed to be enjoying talking with her and it's obvious that she's enjoying too."Here."I moved my head to Adam and he was already handing me a beer. "Your teachers are out." He says.I gazed at their tent and he was right. I was quick enough to take the can of beer and hold it around my grasp. I glanced again at Gage and he was still busy with that brunette. As for Peter, he was busy talking to a group of females
60 : "Jealous"Jealous60G A G EI have no choice but to share a room with Peter. We decided not to join the campout since there are tons of other girls who will probably not let us sleep.Peter was taking a quick shower while I'm laying here on top of my bed thinking about Adam and Tate being all close again. I don't want to think about it and I don't want to worry about it but there's this huge feeling eating me up on the inside making me mad at Adam for putting his arm around my Tate.My Tate?I laugh at myself because I'm being too ridiculous right now.Why am I even getting bothered about this Tate and Adam thing? I know I shouldn't be feeling this way. Why? Because she's not fucking mine.Tate isn't yours Gage. You're only after her because of sex, that was what you wanted from her from the beginning, right? Why acting up all of a sudden about this petty thing? I scolded myself.I see Peter getting out of the bathroom while he rubbed his hair with a dry towel. He glances at me
61 : "New"New61T A T EWhen I got back to my apartment in New York, I was tired and drained. The second I arrived home, I dropped my things and went to sleep on top of my couch. I was that tired to think I slept the entire hours during our flight back here in New York. I was glad that I'm hope, I miss civilization and phone signal and Internet and Monique. Even though Machu Picchu was a truly a beautiful place to visit, I still can't help it not to miss New York City.Around seven in the evening, my hunger woke me up. As soon as I opened my eyes, I noticed that I haven't turned on the lights of my apartment. It looked as if I was in a cave. So I switched on the lights and yawned as I walked groggily to the kitchen to grab some water. I feel my calves aching, this must be because of all the hiking we did at Machu Picchu. My thighs hurts too and even my shoulders and my arms. My entire body is sore, just as sore as how Gage fucked me all night that one time when he came around my apa
62 : "Realizations"Realizations62G A G EI watch as Tate yawns."You need more coffee?" I ask her."Can you make another cup for me please?" She looks at me drowsy chinky eyes. She smiles at me groggily.I held her head with my hand and pulled it closer to my lips, kissing her hair."I'll be back." I tell her.I walk away from the living room and headed to the kitchen. I started making her a cup of coffee and worried about her because she's been working hard on that reaction paper for hours now. I didn't want to leave her alone on this that's why I stayed up with her even though I just arrived back from Machu Picchu. I haven't had a good sleep but I want to stay up with her. I want to help her stay up and finish her reaction paper because she told me how important she needs to finish it soon.Once I came back to the living room where I left Tate bringing the cup of coffee on my hand, I halted when I found her already asleep on the couch. I glance at my wall clock and it's already t
63 : "Anastasia"Anastasia63G A G EHer jaws was still slightly dropped open until she finally recovers from it too. She slightly shakes her head sideways and looks back at me again. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. It's been almost three years since I talked to her."How you've--""Mommy!" A little girl's voice cuts me off.I moved my head to the little girl behind her as she runs towards Anastasia. She had a long curly hair like mine, but in blond like Ana. From where I stand, I see her eyes were shades of bluish-green. It was truly remarkable. She looked adorably cute. She holds the hand of the little girl that was already standing next to her and my eyes beamed wide when I dropped my eyes to Anastasia's stomach.There's a bump."Daddy's already waiting inside the car. Cmon let's go." The little girl says.Anastasia travelled her eyes back to me and slightly smiled. "I'm sorry for bumping you. I wasn't looking where I was going. I'm sorry."I hear her muffling, "This was a mis
64 : "A.M"A.M64G A G EALMOST THREE YEARS AGO..."Good morning." I greeted as soon as I see her getting up from the bed.She rubs her eyes while she yawns then she looks at me weirdly. Gaping actually, when she saw the vision of me."Holy shit!" She pointed. "It's really you!"Same expression she did last night when she found out it was me. I thought she was over it but I guess she was still too drunk when she found out about it. I tried not to smile by biting my inner lip but she's just too adorable right now."I thought I was just dreaming." She looks around my room."I'm not in my room, aren't I?" She asks, while she travelled her eyes back at me."Not really." I answer her. "But... I'm hoping you're inside the same hotel you're ought to be staying." I smiled.She walks closer to me and once she reached the kitchen counter, she takes the seat right across where I am. Her eyes still glued at me, I think she's still shocked to see me. She's not even blinking while looking at me."
65 : "Her"Her65T A T EI sigh heavily as I read the news online all about Gage. I watch recent photos of him too and it just makes me furious. He was just having dinner with me last night and now he left just like that.Me: You didn't even tell me you were already back in London.Gage: Sorry. Had to come back home ASAP. Something urgent happened.Me: Urgent???Gage: It deals with the management so I can't tell you any other details sweetheart :( Things with them needs to always be confidential.I sigh heavily.Me: It's fine. I'll talk to you later.I walked out of the apartment to head to Wendy's. I want to get one free dinner slash visit the preggy, I wanna see how she's doing. She said her tummy's been aching lately, I think she's having trouble. I want to make sure that she's fine, I've been away for a while since I left for my Machu Picchu field trip. I have been worrying about her because I haven't seen her for days."Welcome to Wendy's." I was greeted by a waitress once I wal
FINALEI watch as Tate teach Beatriz in perfectly cutting the cookie dough out of the Santa Claus head shape-cutter. She was asking a lot of questions to Tate if they'd make flower cookies tomorrow or a small chocolate cake the next day. Beatriz had a lot of questions in her mind and I wonder where she had inherited that kind of interest in baking since my mum doesn't really bake, but then maybe this trait must be coming from Tate's mom. She had mentioned that her mom loved to cook and bake and that she was a great cook.As they finished all of it, they began to press down tiny chocolate kisses over the dough and as I watch my five year old little girl having fun making cookies with her mother, I know I've chosen the right woman to spend a lifetime with."Dad! Don't just stand there. Share duties with us. C'mon!" Beatriz calls out.Tate chuckles. "You heard the boss, Gage."I laugh with Tate and jogged my way closer to my two favorite women as I kiss Tate's cheek then she flashes me h
103 : "First Birthday"First Birthday103T A T EMy heart is pounding against my chest as soon as we arrived at the venue. I'm sure that there's going to be trouble because Miller is here. I know he wants to be a part of his daughter's first birthday party but Monique said days ago while we were preparing for this party that she won't even let Miller come near Tarry.I just don't want Miller to be ruining this day for his own daughter. I've prepared days for this day to be perfect and I've tired the hell out of myself the past week just for my godchild. Gage even helped with the preparations too and he even lavished voluntarily money for this event. I know he doesn't want this day to get ruined too. And I can't let Miller ruin this day for both Monique and Tarry."I'm nervous." I say to Gage.Both of us hopped off of the car and walked inside the hotel. He fixes the button of his polo as he pushed his hair back to his forehead and says to me, "Don't worry about it."I exhale heavily.
102 : "Olivia Tate"Olivia Tate102G A G E SPAINThe following morning, Tate showed me around Spain too like how I showed her Cheshire. I've been to Spain before but not as fun as I have with her and I've never been toured this much around this place. I didn't even know there were places around here that existed and I never even knew about it if Tate didn't showed me around. And when we were here, we never got to see Spain that much because we were on tour.Tate showed me off to some museums, some art galleries, magnificent sceneries that truly wowed me, amazing cathedrals, we even went to the school she went to when she was in elementary and so many other places that we enjoyed till we got tired. There were fans who crowded us though when they saw me and walked up to us to ask for my picture and autograph but my good thing Sam and Ryan were there to secure us.By almost six in the evening, Tate wanted to go to this last place that she wanted me to. Of course I wouldn't say no to he
101 : "Kavanaughs"Kavanaughs101G A G E After we had dinner, I was still nervous. Even though I've talked to them and her father seemed nice to me, I am still nervous.With her two brothers.I know they're really worried about my relationship with Tate. I know they don't want me to be with her because of my fame and it will be a great hindrance between us. I know that but I won't let them ruin what I have with Tate. I've already done too much to save us.And I know how families get so overprotective and they're just like Gemma. But they're the boy version of Gemma which is crazy. I know how Gemma gets so worried when I'm seeing someone new because she's worried that the past might happen again and I know how her brothers are also worried for her because she's a woman and that's just normal.I sigh. I just wish they see that I am really serious with Tate."Hey..." I hear Tate's voice from behind me.I stare at her over my shoulder and smiled. I feel her hands holding onto my shoulde
100 : "Spain"Spain100T A T EWhen we landed Spain, a lot of people took photos of us the second we arrived at the airport. We hurriedly got inside Gage's car and quickly drove to my home. Gage has been silent since we landed and he hasn't talked much too. He was looking straight ahead to the road while the GPS was teaching him where to go."Hey..." I placed my hand over his hand that was holding the clutch.He travels his head to me. "Yeah?""You're awfully quiet. What's up?" I ask.Gage exhales. "I'm just so nervous to be meeting your father and your two brothers. Like seriously how huge are they?""Hulk-like." I answer.He gapes at what I said and I could see now how nervous he really was to meet my family. I didn't even know that he was anxious this whole time. He tries to keep his cool after what I said but I really had no idea that the reason why he's been quiet all this time since we got here was that because he's nervous to meet them.I laugh softly."It'll be okay." I say t
99 : "Holmes"Holmes99T A T EWhen dinner was ready, we walked to the dining table to have eat together."Aunt Josie is a really great cook. I must say she's better than mum." Gage playfully says."Don't tell mum I said that." He adds.Aunt Josie and I were laughing together but I as I look at Gemma, she was just plainly looking at me while she was already starting to eat."Oh Gage you always compliment my cookings. Thank you but I think you just miss it." She says while chuckling."No aunt Josie, it is really good." Gage insist.I smile."You gotta try this sweetheart." Gage placed a piece of tenderloin on my plate. "That's a family recipe." He smiles at me."Thank you." I tell him."So, what are your plans tomorrow?" Aunt Josie asks."Well, I'm actually planning on touring Tate around town. I wanna show her where I grew up. I'm also planning on introducing her to my cousins so I hope Jake is around." He answers her."Oh don't worry. My son just got back from university and I'm sur
98 : "Small Town"Small Town98T A T E"Here's your order sweetheart." Gage placed my macchiato in front of me after grabbing it from the counter. I smiled to thank him but I was inwardly distracted.We were sitting inside Starbucks, just having an afternoon date together. It wasn't like it used to and now he'd always sit away from me. We were actually sitting right across each other now and letting all people look over our table. I watch as Gage signed some autographs and talked casually to some fans who came up to our table. I watched him do his thing and I was so amused that he's still so calm at how he treats his fans. No, he doesn't treat his fans as fans. He treats them as if he had known them for so long. "Thank you Gage." The little girls bids goodbye.When his fans had left our table, he turned to look back at me again. "What's wrong?" He asks.I shake my head sideways. "Nothing. I'm just always amused at how you treat your fans."He smirks. "Well they all have a special pl
97 : "Once Again"Once Again97T A T EGage groans as I hear him shifting on top of my bed just next to me. I was facing my back to him while his arm was loosely wrapping around me. He slowly pulls me in as I felt him pressing his self against my body which felt great. I was happy having him here again. I mean waking up so early in the morning having him here just makes everything feels okay. It feels like nothing even happened and us just continued.All of a sudden I felt him kissing the back of my head and it just makes me smile. It maybe just a simple gesture but it shows love. It shows that he still loves me so much despite the shit stuff that happened all these months. And I am so happy just being like this with him. I feel so grateful because he's here and he's just here."I love you Tate." He speaks to me softly. He tightly wraps his arm around me just a little bit quick and it really makes my heart flutter even ten thousand times happier than it already is. I just kept smili
96 : "Eli"Eli96G A G EI have never been mad and disappointed in my entire life at someone this much. I really hate all of the people that composes the Scanty! Management. Eli has always been right since the beginning of this, they're all liars. I can't believe we stayed to such people for a long time and actually trusted them that they can actually give us the real happiness. I was so wrong about them. All of them. They always make us want to lie to the fans, to our family, to the people around us and even to our own selves.They are all so selfish.I know every signed artist has rules to follow because of the contract but I just couldn't believe that I let them rule my life all this time and all these years. I've never been this happier when I signed for Jeff and finally left them. I am glad that he has my back unlike how Scanty would actually do dirty things without our knowing.When I look back at it now and the things that they did to my life and the mess that they've caused n