Chapter 48

DENVER

I never expected the most difficult part of my life would be choosing between two women.

I stormed out of the office to clear my head because I never expected to hear those words from Sandra. She wants to fix us, and she’s nothing without me, she said.

I couldn’t deny that those words went straight to my heart like a sharp spear. It burned like molten metal but felt good in a way; it felt good that Sandra was saying something good for the first time.

I’m in between giving her the chance to work on us and letting go of Anastasia. I honestly don’t know which is the right thing to do because Anastasia isn't someone I can let go of as well.

Anastasia means something to me; she’s not just my toy to play with. She’s more, and it annoys me that I can’t figure out what I want with her yet.

I still can’t fathom the act of letting her go. It would break me the same way it would break her. Fuck, I’ve never been this messed up like I am right now.

I made sure Sandra was gone before I retur