Chapter 54

DENVER

I knew this would be hard, but I didn’t think it would be this hard to let her go. It’s so fucking unbearable trying not to think of her.

Aside from murmuring her name while asleep or waking up to hear myself calling out for her, there has been this emptiness inside me. It comes with all the baggage of taking the wrong step.

All my life, I’ve always done things rightly with no mistake, but now I think I’ve done something so stupid for the first time. So stupid in the sense that I thought I could do without her or get on with my normal life routine.

I thought I could.

Maybe I was wrong.

Being cut off from her bright smiles, easy laughter, and cheerful presence is similar to dying slowly. It’s different from when she is angry at me and likely not wanting to speak to me. At least then, I could see her at the firm and make sure she was alright.

Now it’s a blank slate. Now, I’m left with the memories of her and how she felt in my arms. I think of how she made me soften from the hard