My life has never been so easy for a wolfless like me.
As I watch all the people miserably at the birthday party, I cannot tell how many glasses of wine I have already consumed while trying my hardest not to have any eye contact with the noblemen standing not too far from my seat beside my father’s.
It is my eighteenth birthday and they say that I am of legal age to wed one of the noblemen who came into this palace to ask for my hand. The larger the land, the better. As if I am some kind of livestock being prepared to bring in more possible allies from other countries. And I heard that it was because Helena suggested it to my father. Helena, his top favorite among his concubines is awkward and sickening because we are just the same age. I have no idea what Kingdom she came from but father was so crazy about this lady. She's supposed to be in here though but she left yesterday to visit one of her cousins. The suffering I have now is all of her doing and I will never forgive her and her evil whispers to my father.
“Princess Eodelle, where are you going?” One of the servants tried to stop me from going down the platform and I gave her a cold look in the eyes.
I pulled my skirt up, high enough for me to step down the stairs without my father, Emperor Oswald Wycliffe, bothering to look at me. He was having a conversation with one of the Kings he intended for me to marry; A forty-year-old man whose wife had just recently died due to malaria that spread through his Kingdom.
But he is the wealthiest man in this banquet and is assumed to be the highest bidder once the auction starts. I could see the glare of other nobles against the King and his boastful smirk just gave tension to other bidders.
I heard the disease in his Kingdom was a disaster though. But before that happened he and my father had allied against a huge Clan of werewolves from the east that refused to bow to my father’s authority.
I heard they eliminated the whole pack and didn’t let anyone escape. My father was there and he kept on bragging to everyone that he killed the Alpha and Luna as a warning to every Clan that they will face the same fate if ever they refuse to bend their knee.
It happened so many years ago when I was still a child and was imprisoned a lot in one of the towers of the palace because the emperor just hates to see me. He blamed me for my mother’s death and kept on reminding me how miserable his life has gotten since I was born.
There was a time when he almost beat me to death after I broke the vase that my mother loved and he rained curses at me, saying that my life would never be happy because I am a disease to this family. Or if he could even call it a family.
And it’s terrifying to think that they only see me as a beautiful face, like a trophy to win as these men stare at me with their raven eyes. Especially King Richard who had been eyeing me from the platform with his creepy smile. I cannot believe I spent almost four hours with my maidservants dressing me for this occasion, only to feel miserable on the day that is supposed to be one of the happiest days of my life.
So many guests had arrived that the hall became so crowded I had to squeeze myself through them just to head straight to the garden where few people went. I smelled the fresh scent of the bushes and flowers and filled my lungs with air as I enjoyed the small freedom I got, away from my father's eyes and from everyone.
But I smelled something that made me close my eyes… the scent that almost took my breath away as I walked between the tall yews towards the maze garden. It was so dark in here and I could feel the excitement rolling down my stomach. I can't help but smile as I felt the thrill crawling on my skin.
It’s crazy because I should be feeling scared by now but my inner wolf tells me to enter the maze and my feet just move on their own while my mind was filled with utter curiosity about why I am feeling this way.
When I adjusted my eyes through the darkness, a tall human figure appeared in front of me, and in surprise, I lost my balance. But the stranger had amazing reflexes and he caught me immediately by my waist, his hands steady and his arms strong while his eyes stared down at me, both surprised and shocked while one of my hands instinctively grabbed the sleeve of his coat.
"Are you alright, Miss?"
His gentle baritone voice mesmerized me. And I failed to respond fast because I was smitten by his handsome face. Even through the dark, I can still see how perfect his jawline is, his small pointed nose, and his almond-shaped eyes.
What is a handsome man doing in this part of the palace? I can't believe I am being swept away by a man I just met. And his eyes glint from the faint light of the moon that shines above us, making it look silver.
I feel so drawn to him. Emotions that are so strong I almost couldn’t breathe. It spirals down in me, making me feel like we’re the only people in this place. I couldn’t feel or hear anything other than his arms on my waist and the chaos that rumbled in his chest. I have never felt like this for someone before. And my inner wolf screams at me the word "Mate".
"Yes, I-I apologize for what happened," I murmured to him without taking my eyes off his handsome face and he smiled at me. His sexy pinkish lips and perfect set of white teeth made me bite my lower lip because I had to stop myself from feeling too delighted in front of him.
“No worries, My name is Aster by the way,” he introduced himself. I am glad that despite my awkwardness, his smile didn’t fade.
Is he one of the bidders? I cannot believe I would find my Mate in this desperate time of my life. And I know he can also feel this ecstatic feeling while he stares down at me with excitement and wonder in his eyes.
I was about to ask him what Kingdom he came from but I heard quick footsteps coming toward us and I know my short time of freedom is up.
“Princess! We have been looking for you around! You cannot disappear just like that! You have to go back! The Emperor wants your presence!”
I must have murmured something bad out of panic because I saw Aster's face turn cold all of a sudden. He looked down at me and the smile that I once adored turned stoic. I could even see him clenching and unclenching his jaw.
“It’s alright, your Grace, my fiancee is already waiting for me inside,” he uttered flatly, his lips in a straight line, and his eyes went so cold he became a different person in just a matter of seconds.
I felt like my heart dropped down on my feet and my mind went numb after what he said. I didn’t take my eyes off him even when he left and walked out of the garden while my maid kept on urging me to hurry to come back inside. I just feel so devastated when he told me he already has someone special waiting for him inside the hall.
But why is there sudden hatred in his eyes?
Who is he?
My feet were heavy as the maid led me toward the hall. There is this wrenching feeling in my chest. I suddenly feel too terrified, hurt, and confused about what happened in the garden. Terrified, because I thought meeting my Mate would give me a ticket on my way out of all this mess. Hurt, because Aster was already engaged to someone else despite being my Mate. And I have never felt so devastated after hearing it from his lips. And no matter what I do, I am still a slave in my father’s eyes; not even my Mate could save me from this. Confused, the man’s face was bright as the moonlight until the maidservant came and the reaction on his face changed from being amused to disdainful.Was he scared when he heard that I am the daughter of the Emperor? Because that’s what most people feel whenever I try to make friends with them. My status stops them from getting too close to me because they know how my father despises me and no one wants to make the Emperor upset. Unless they have a death w
“W-what? You cannot say that—”“Why can’t I? Your father is a murderer,” he growled at me with rage in his eyes. His lips pursed against his teeth, and I could feel the malice in his every glare. “He killed my parents long ago and I was just lucky I survived! He annihilated my whole pack and there is no way I could ever let him live after what he had done to my Clan!”I stared at the enraged expression on Aster’s face and I can see how much he has been waiting for this moment to avenge his family. I couldn’t say anything because I have known about this story every time my father boasts it to his colleagues while he was drunk most of the time. Subconsciously, I looked down at my hands and my dress and I could smell the disgusting metallic scent of blood all over me which must be from King Richard when he was stabbed in his chest and his stomach while we were dancing. My body trembled as I embrace myself, remembering the horror of cries and shrieks of the innocent lives killed in that b
“This is just the beginning of my revenge, your Grace,” The formality of his address to me sounds like an insult to my ears after I almost destroyed my vocal chord from the screamings I did while I push away the box from me and curled at one of the corners of my cell, crying. I cannot feel my face anymore. I have been crying for almost an hour now since they brought me here and I am starting to feel numb and empty. I embraced myself feeling so cold and weak after all the mental torture that Aster gave me.Without looking, I heard the cell open and I knew it was the guard who took the box again, and then the metal bars clanged when they locked it. I peeked at them and saw that Aster was still there talking to the blonde guy he called Emyr as if he was giving instructions. The guard who was holding the box nodded its head to both of them and disappeared towards the exit of this stinking, cold dungeon. I cannot let them do this to me! I am tired of always being the weakling!With trembl
[ASTER’s Point-of-View]I couldn't sleep so well last night.I thought it was just because of the humidity in the air or the uncomfortable softness of the bed that made me stay up all night so I spent it in one of the palace wings and stared down at the vast lands of the Empire I just conquered three days ago. I have been planning this revenge for so many years. Because the former Emperor was so careless for the past two years of his regime and ignored the call for help from his people about the disturbing poverty that spreads like wildfire in this State, some rebels joined forces with us and ended the tyranny of Emperor Oswald Wycliffe. All his subordinates will be facing death sentences soon for spending the tax money that they force people to pay. An unjust amount that people struggle to give as they worry about how to get food on their table the next day.But this kind of restlessness is just too disturbing and my inner wolf was feeling so down the whole day which affects my mood
[Eodelle’s Point of View]Did I just see remorse flashed in his eyes?I ignore whatever pity he feels for me. I can’t feel anything anymore after what happened to me in that dungeon. It feels like they took away a part of me that still believes that there is kindness no matter how cold this place is. But after all the anger, the pain and the violence they showed and caused me, all I could think is how unforgiving this world is, for the people like me who have nothing to do with any of these people and yet I am still hated for the crimes of my father.Every inch of me hurts and my head throbs terribly, “The only kindness you can give me is at least you had let me die in that dungeon…” I murmured bitterly on him and I watched how his face turned dark and stoic.“Do you think you can get away from me that easily, princess Eodelle? I am not as merciful as you think so you will stay here as long as I want. You are my prisoner and you will do whatever I say,” he uttered coldly as he looked
“Oh, princess Eodelle!”I almost tripped as I ran towards her, sobbing terribly. I felt like I was looking at an angel as she smiled down at me. I embraced her tight and we both dropped to the floor, relieved and happy to see each other again. Even Nina’s face is drenched with tears, glad we found each other in the palace after the chaos that happened so many days ago.“I thought you were dead!” I cried at her with grief in my chest, my body trembling terribly because I never expected to see her again, “I thought I was the only one left… I felt so alone…”“Me too, your Grace… I thought I was going to die that night! But the new Emperor spared my life!” She caressed my hair smoothly then dried the tears on my face, “I guess he knows you need me and ordered his soldier not to include me with the people they have to execute in the town square. He’s your mate, right? I guess that connection made him a little softer on you,”“I-I don’t know, Nina. I still don’t trust whatever he says,” I s
“What—”I didn’t gave the Beta a chance to recover from his shock. I made quick steps towards the woman while my hand was gripping on my metal pin so tight. I am filled with blinding anger. My body moves faster than my mind that I couldn’t control whatever I was doing. What I only have in my head was to stab that woman to death and the only word that screams in my head was ‘revenge’.Helena! She has to die!I feel like I am going insane. My eyes were menacingly wide but I feel so light, so calm on my chest. It feels like my whole body was moving on its own. Like something within me just overtook my body, wanting to spill blood in this garden and see Helena’s lifeless body down my feet. I should be terrified by what is happening with me right now but I can’t feel anything. I lifted my hand and swung it over her head, aiming for her long, small neck without any second thought of remorse.But before my weapon reach her skin, a strong hand caught my wrist. The next thing I heard was a scr
“Do you think you can get rid of me that easily, princess?” he snarled, his eyes glinting with anger, its gray hue turning into crimson that shook me to the core. I looked down at my hands and instead of seeing the metal pin stabbing against my chest, I saw Aster’s hand on my left breast bleeding severely while the metal pin was buried in the back of it, stopping my reckless attempt at suicide.I was lost for words as I stared at his face wide-eyed, both our breaths were ragged. I could smell him all over me. The crimson hue in his eyes faded after a few seconds as tears blurred my vision from another feeling of defeat. Why am I seeing a glint of pain in his eyes? Is that some kind of pity?No. He really would never let go of me…“Your Grace…” Helena kneeled beside Alpha Aster after he pulled the pin out of his hand with a grunt. Helena pulled him up, away from me and I was left on the ground, still in shock. The adrenaline running in my veins gave a pulsing feeling in my head as I wa
“Aster no…”But I couldn’t stop him anymore.As fast as he could, I saw how he killed the palace soldiers one by one inside the Emperor’s Hall and saved Nina. But to his shock, he stopped in front of Lady Marian’s body which was lying on the marble floor, cold and unmoving. He stared at her for a bit with a solemn face like she was some kind of a sister for him and lifted her, and carried her towards me and Nina where she covered her lifeless body with a curtain he took from one of the walls with the insignia of the North Kingdom as one of the allied Kingdoms of the Empire.As soon as he came back to me and our baby, He held me tight once again and looked at the small child in my arms with his gentle eyes despite the agony he must be feeling all over his body. And then he glanced back at Lady Marian's body which made me sob as my heart broke into pieces for losing a great friend.“She is a good person, Eodelle… She helped me through a lot about you and Laurent. She never deserved thi
"MARIAN!!!"My whole body froze as I watched her kneel in front of the red guard who stabbed her. Her face turned dark before she fell to the ground, her body not moving anymore. My nose was filled with the scent of her blood as it wafted all over the place, giving me shudders all over my body. The hall turned silent as we all watched Lady Marian dead on the floor. I feel like my heart and soul were shattered into millions of pieces and it horrified me more when I could no longer hear my child's cry. He also turned silent as fear crawled all over me. "See what you have done, Eodelle... I told you not to fight me anymore. I may be a liar sometimes but you know what I can do when someone upsets me," Emyr sneered while I stood frozen, still in denial that Marian was already gone just like that.Tears fell from my eyes, "What do you want me to do then, Emyr? What do you want from me?!" I tried to contain the anger inside me as my throat ached while I sobbed. My whole body was trembling
It is a call of desperation.I glared at Emyr. He knew from the start that he and Helena won't win this war. That is why he is trying to make some bargain to spare his and Helena's life. But there is no way I could let these two escape after what they did to my son...to Aster. I don't exactly know if he will do his side of the bargain though. But I am getting more desperate to see Aster once again and have my baby in my arms. I know I shouldn't trust Emyr with his poisonous words. I shouldn't let myself be deceived by his lies. But my child's life is more important to me."Show them to me first, Emyr! And then I'll decide!" I yelled at him with confidence in my voice. It is me he is pleading to and not the other way around. I should be the one who must ask for demands. "Sure! Just follow me!" He answered with a grin on his face which made me more suspicious. I know I should be more careful but knowing that I am finally going to have my son back takes all the fear in my head and jus
I immediately went to the officers who were leading a horse for her to use and then thanked them shortly after I put on some new set of clothes and before I hopped on the animal and galloped towards the Imperial City in a route not too familiar for me. I had to take it as per Lady Marian's advice so that no Red soldier wouldn't recognize me on that path where few people take it because it was a little farther than the main road.With gritted teeth, I made the horse run to its full speed. But I have other plans. I know Lady Marian is already waiting for me at the downtown alley where four Talaphatian soldiers are with her. I know she will surely get mad once she finds out I didn't go just as we planned. I have to go alone and never wanted to put my best friend's life in danger just like what I promised King Laurent. She will be safe with her guards.Through the woods, all I think about is Aster and our son. I will go to Headow Stronghold alone and face whatever will be waiting for me t
This is the day.I feel like my heart is in my throat. My heartbeat pains my ears as the throbbing goes harder, faster, making my hands tremble in fear as we all march towards the wide plain at the border of Northern Kingdom and the Imperial city.King Laurent didn’t allow Lady Marian to march with us. She is waiting for me at one of the darkest downtown alleys for the mission to save Aster, and my child. I can’t wait until this battle march is over. I can’t wait to see Aster again and our son. I pray Helena didn’t do anything to him. I pray he is safe inside the Headow Stronghold and being watched by my ancestors, keeping him safe.The sky is clear and the sun is gentle on my skin as I rode with the three Kings on my side. The North, West and Talaphatian King swore their loyalty to me and the future that I promised to them. The future that we all are seeking is free from greed, violence and self-interest that the Imperial council portrays just to make themselves more powerful and t
The council meeting with the Northern Kingdom and the Western Kingdom was not good. There was tension between the two Kings and I can feel that even Laurent felt a little frustrated about it. King Anthony never liked the arrogance of the King of the West who was Katrina’s father. His grumpy face reminded me of my father and I can’t deny that each time he looks at me with his mouth curved downward and his eyes judging, piercing eyes penetrating through the stoic facade I have been practicing because I never wanted them to think I am scared of them.We are all in a place—a carved cave the northern men use as the council chamber. In the middle is the wide wooden table with the map of the continent carved into it with wooden pieces representing each Kingdom and the Headow Stronghold. King Lauren and Lady Marian never left my side even when we entered the chamber. King Anthony never wanted his little sister to join the war meeting with me but she insisted because she is also part of what
I have to make him believe I have the ability to rule the Kingdom just like a true Wycliffe does. I can feel the blood of my ancestors running through me as my inner wolf convinces me that I am not the same Eodelle who used to fear a lot of things. King Laurent and Lady Marian looked at me with their brows angled upward, worried that I might fail to convince the Northern King to join the alliance. King Laurent cannot guarantee that he can beat the Headow Stronghold after the Southern Kingdom already pledged its alliance with Helena and the Western side was still indecisive about it.“Eodelle, you don’t have to. We all know…” Laurent whispered to me as he stood on my left and Lady Marian on my right. They still have no idea that I have finally had my wolf. But to be honest, I am scared I won’t be able to control myself once I unleash and shift into my werewolf form. It will be my very first time and I am aware I will have to endure a hell of pain once the process of physical change ha
[ASTER’s Point-of-View]Now I understand how terrifying it must be for Eodelle when I threw her into this very dungeon. Dark, cold, stinking… I am a monster for making her suffer the first night we met. What a tragic first meeting we had. I totally hate myself just thinking of it.I promised Eodelle I will bring our child back. But I failed. I underestimated Helena and I was overconfident that I could still have her trust. I never thought that while I was gone, she had lost our child. I should feel bad about it but what she did to Eodelle is beyond forgiveness.I heard someone sniffing not too far from my cell in the middle of my mooring. The voice was familiar to me as I listened to it carefully.“Nina?”The sniffing stopped.“Your Grace? Is that you? Why are you here?” she asked in shock. I don’t know what cell she was in but her voice was clear. She is careful enough not to make it echo inside the dungeon.“Long Story. But can you tell me what happened?”Nina was very detailed when
For two days I have been trying to stand up on my own feet, wishing the effect of the poison that was given to me by that healer would finally be gone. Despite my anger and my demand not to see her again, the healer still comes into my tent to give me an antidote from the poison for my fast recovery. She had been asking for forgiveness for what she did to me and what happened to me and my baby but I refused to talk to her, letting her guilt eat her inch by inch. Without my baby in my hands, I can’t find any sympathy to give her. My heart is just filled with revenge and a huge desire to have my child and Aster back. To save Nina and make Helena pay for everything she did to me and to the people important to me.I have been suffering from a high fever and with the level of dizziness I feel, I could barely get up from my bed. My body feels like I am inside an oven, slowly being cooked into ashes. I am sweating so badly that the maidservants in the camp had to replace my bedsheet thrice