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2020-12-21 10:44:14It took Jax almost a full day before he finally got ahold of me. When he did text, it was just to say thank you. I was trying to be upbeat with my response and told him that the kids had a lot of fun and that I hoped that we could do it again sometime. I did not get a reply to that. I could feel the distance forming between Jax and I. It was a huge cavern and it hurt knowing that I had felt like this was going to happen from the start.
I decided to give Jax his space. I was done with chasing guys. I knew that I was not the best-looking woman in the world, but I was not ugly by far either. I also held many values that I felt would be appreciated by the right man. I was loyal, kind, smart, and I was a hard worker. I was not looking for a man to be my cash cow, because I did not mind working and helping pay bills. If a man was meant to be in my life, then it would happen eventually.
Right when I was thinking that my we
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