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CHAPTER 14
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2021-10-18 22:28:14I don't get myself anymore.
I sighed heavily and wiped my tears strolled down my cheeks. Funny why I am crying in the midst of washing the dishes I have used after I eat. I remembered my family and especially my father, I miss them but they do not even do the same.
I bit my lower lip to stop myself from crying nonstop. When I finished washing the plates, I looked at the time and saw that it was already six in the evening.
I should go to sleep now.
I yawned and stared at the blank wall. I do not know what would be the right thing to do since I could not think clearly. I closed all of the windows and doors first before I head to the room where I would be sleeping. But in the midst of walking towards the room, I saw a note plastered on the cabinet.
It caught my attention because I have read his name over there — Jinx' name.
I went near it and got it before I read what was written.
"Always full your stomach and ta
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