CHAPTER 40

NELLY

I left David's apartment to go home. It seemed like the right decision after the silent breakfast. The atmosphere became awkward after that fateful sentence left my lips and, although I wasn't expecting a reciprocal response and was acting according to my heart, his detachment and obvious discomfort made me sick. My submission to him is nothing new, but I feel as if I've broken some magical barrier by confessing my love in that intimate moment, with his sperm still dripping out of me, I'm transparent when we're together, my actions are like the first steps of a child, and I've already made it more than clear how old this feeling is. Come on, even a blind man could see my teenage crush on him. The man isn't crazy, and I'm sure he's noticed. I'm not crazy either, and I know he has feelings for me, even if they're small.

Argh!

I shouldn't have spoken, that's the truth.

Should I call and ask if we're all right?

I think and stare at the cell phone in my right hand, tempted to loo