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2024-10-29 19:42:56Today is my last day as a free woman. I chose to spend the last day of my freedom with my sister, Rosa. Ben and I have spent so much time in these past few weeks. We went to the beach and enjoyed the day together, eating ice cream and hot dogs. I’m not feeling good in these past weeks since I passed out that day. I have no idea what happened to me that day, I felt like someone just hit my head and that caused me to blackout.
“You okay?” Rosa asks, she sits on the couch and chews her snack as she looks at me grabbing more snacks in the kitchen. “
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“Oh, shit! It’s daddy” I was having a nice last day with my sister Rosa, before my dad called me and asked where I am. Rosa and I accidentally meet Riley and Laurie at the ice cream shop not far from my block, they were buying some ice cream before they see us. I haven’t seen Riley and Laurie since I’m out of work a long time ago. It’s really good to see my old friends and talking about some memorial shit when all of us together.
Why Are you Still In My Brain? MINUTES IN PRISON
We pull away and make our way to New Jersey, and we’ll be there around one and half hours. I finally leave Queens and back to my town after a long time, it’s almost 8 PM and I’ll be locked in prison in the next few hours. My dad keeps calling his friend and asked him about my private prison room. They considerate put me into the private prison in the middle of the night so that no one would see how that corrupt people do their job. “You good?” Rosa checking on me from the front seat next to my dad, she keeps asking me the same question over and over again to make sure that I’m alright. “Yeah, don’t worry” I respond. I’m not scared of prison, I’m not scared of everything, my head hurts and it always happens since something strange happens to me last month. “Huk…huk…” I coughed and will immediately throw up. “Hey, hey? Are you okay? Dad stops the car!” Rosa exclaims. I quickly open the car’s door and throw my body on the ground then I thro
Why Are you Still In My Brain? A CELL
An Arabian lady who washed her hands next to me just talked to me, I bet she’s in the same age as Lena. “Mmm, Alanza Baheera, you can call me Zaza or Z. Do you need some help?” She literally introduces herself to me. “Huk, huk… I’m okay” I respond then I rinse my mouth after. “Are you sure?” She asks. “Yeah, I’m alright. I’m gonna back to my bunk now” I say as I wipe my mouth. “Let me walk you home” She takes my hand and places my arm on her shoulder.“Thanks…” I say. The woman walks me to my cell, she’s a nice lady. I do not expect there’s a nice woman like her live in this horrible place, except if she’s from the A or B block. “Where are you from?” I ask. “Tunisia” She replies. “Oh, I mean your cell… but thanks for that information” I laugh softly knowing that I literally asked her an unclear question. “Ahh right, I’m from B block” She chuckles.
Why Are you Still In My Brain? EVERYBODY'S FOOL
The sun has risen, I fall asleep last night when my mind keeps thinking about my old lover. I take a shower at 7 AM, and there are a lot of people in the public bathroom. I make my way to my cell with a wrapped towel on my body, it’s a woman's prison and it’s fine to walk half-naked after taking shower, some of them not even wear anything when they’re brushing their teeth. I kind of like this place, I secretly love this place.“Mmmm mmmm hummm” I hum as I wear my clothes and drying my hair. It’s my first breakfast in prison and I hope they have a portion of nice food in here. My back hurts and I think I got a wrong sleep position last night or my bunk is too gauzy for me. “Alright all done, you look perfect!” I say as I’m standing in front of a small mirror on the wall. I got money in my prison account and my dad left me 500 dollars last night.
Why Are you Still In My Brain? A WOMAN WITH FEELINGS
“Mmm right” I chuckle a little bit, my mouth form into a small laugh, my cheeks get rosy as my eyes keep looking at her. “You’re a bad fool, Maia” Z starts to talk. “You can’t fool people but you fool yourself easily” She ends with a little laugh on her face. “Well, right… I’m really bad at it” I reply as I’m tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. “Okay, my turn! I’m gonna ask you a personal question” I start. “Mmm-hmm okay” Z hums.“Why do you like girls? Isn’t it kind of contradictory? I mean, you’re Muslim right? You’re from Middle East” I ask. “Sorry if it’s exaggerated” I heavily breathe intensely, with a little bit of laugher on my face. Z sigh, she takes a deep breath as she looks at me. “I didn’t choose my sexuality. I didn’t choose myself to like women. It’s not about f
Why Are you Still In My Brain? LENA IS BACK BITCHES
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Why Are you Still In My Brain? WORST OF THE WORST
LENA’S POINT OF VIEW“You have to get the hell I out of here!” I shout to Dmitri, he visits me today. “Relax, Lena! I will” Dmitri responds, he tries to calm me down. “And you have to transfer me to A block before I get the hell out of here! These women got me insane. I can’t even sleep at night! There’s snore everywhere and throwing their foul gas out of their ass!” I exclaim. “I’m working on it Lena, I will fuck Egor and Sasha!” He exclaims in whispers.“I swear to God, they will pay for everything they did to you!” He ends. “I’m not taking those drugs! I’m not carrying them with me!” I sigh, placing my hand on my head. “I know you’re not! But those drugs are inside your bag!” He responds. “I don’t fucking care. You have to get me out!” I shout, almost spit on him and I’m so pissed off. “Okay… I’ll call our lawyer soon” Dmit
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Why Are you Still In My Brain? DESIRE
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Why Are you Still In My Brain? HELL TO ME
A raven-haired girl that I hated but also madly in love showed up in front of my face, she frowned and looked unhappy when she noticed I was the one who opened the door for her. Her tousled hair and eyes that looked so exhausted were evident as far as the eye could see when Lena appeared in front of me but that still didn’t take away the beauty she had since she was born. “What the hell did you do here?” I ask as my eyes are looking at her in annoyance. “Ask the guy who brought me here” Lena scoffs as she rolls her eyes, she gets into my cell without my permission like that cell was hers, placing her stuff on the top of my bunk not hers afterward. Lena one hundred percent knows how to piss me off, she always has a way to make me madly mad at her but also in love, I have no idea what her intention was when she placed her stuff on the top of my bunk, not hers but as I know Lena loves to annoy me or she may be here to torture me, paying that male guard so that she can get this room. “
Why Are you Still In My Brain? UNEXPECTED GUEST
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Why Are you Still In My Brain? GREEN GRASS TO WAILS
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Why Are you Still In My Brain? SAME CHEST SAME PAIN
Tears start to fall down from my eyes and soaked my cheeks. I smile in tears but also cry in pain. How could I disappoint my family and not giving them what they wanted. My family gave everything to me and I never had a chance to repay their kindness. Life is not always fair, I had a nice rich family and I disappoint them. Some of us in this world are struggling for living because they’re not born from the affluent family. Same as Lena, she struggled since she was a kid.“I am so grateful that I had you as my sister…” I sob as tears start to fall down and soak my cheeks. “And I thank you for being the sister that you are. You’re amazing, you’re understanding and I know… that if nobody in this damn world loves me, I know you love me… And I never have to look for love” I end as I wipe my tears. “You soaked me huh? Now I ha
Why Are you Still In My Brain? TELL ME WHATEVER
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Why Are you Still In My Brain? DAY SEXMING
“Oh, God, damn, Jesus Christ!” I moaned passionately as Lena kept kissing my body passionately. She kissed me so damn good and it left burning desire in my wake. She kissed me sensually right between my breasts. My nipples stand bright and erected following her soft damn sensual kissed as I squeezed the sheets with my hands, it felt so good and relaxed, I would never cheat on her cause I cannot find a girl who done me so good like Lena does.“You wasted so much time babe…” I said under my breath as I saw Lena swirl her tongue against my nipple. My pussy was so wet and it cannot wait any longer, but Lena kept played her game and spins out the time. Lena laughed softly knowing that I cannot wait any longer and wanting her fingers to in, but she played her game and tortured me even more. She off her tongue from my nipple and started licking my chin up to my mou
