Questions
Will the heart remember what the mind forgot?
Or will I just be a distant memory?
Will our love endure the test of time?
But seriously, how do you move one when you always see that person you’re trying to run away from?
Please answer me.
History #1
So I, I turned the radio on. I turned the radio up. And this woman was singing my song.
Lovers in love and the others run away. The lover is crying ‘cause the other won’t stay.
I was solemnly listening to Lisa Loeb’s voice as I was facing my laptop on a bench at Sungkyunkwan University’s open baseball diamond when I suddenly felt someone poke me from my side.
I looked up and saw this handsome guy smiling at me. I narrowed my eyes at him as I removed my earphones. “Can I help you?” I asked.
He smiled and sat beside me. “You’re Ashin Kim from the College of Social Science, right?” He asked me.
I looked at him even weirder. “How did you know my name?” I asked him. Somehow, it’s starting to get creeper how he knew me and he knew my department.
He smiled and handed me a note. “I’m Kieran Wu from the School of Arts.” He introduced himself but then he stood up. “We go to the same building every day.” He told me.
“O…kay?” I replied not sure of where this conversation is going.
He smiled widely. “I won’t beat around the bush,” he started as he inhaled and exhaled heavily. “I like you.” He confessed.
My jaw almost literally dropped. “What?” I asked in disbelief.
He chuckled. “I know it’s a shock to you but I’ve been watching you since you were featured in the Writer of the Month wall four months back.” He beamed.
I looked at him, wondering if he’s talking sanely or if he’s drunk. I don’t know. I just don’t find random confessions that attractive. Sure, he looks handsome but he looks like a jerk. Maybe this is just a prank.
I really don’t know how I would react to this.
He stared back at me. “I didn’t know you were even prettier up close.” He commented then he blushed.
I scoffed at him. Did he just act girly in front of me? “Excuse me, Mister. But I don’t fall into pranks like this.” I told him straight to the point. Just like what he did, I didn’t want to beat around the bush.
He laughed at me. “If this was a prank, there would’ve been confetti falling from the ceiling because your expression is gold.” He told me in between his chuckles.
I glared at him and he stopped laughing. “Chill, Miss Beautiful. This isn’t a prank, okay?” He told me. “Read that note.” He ordered me.
I looked at the note he handed me minutes ago. What if this is really a prank? He would laugh at me for falling for it. And besides, who would admit that he’s a doing a prank on somebody?
I am a Journalism Major and I’ve written numerous of creative stories and plots to the point that I actually already know how a boy thinks.
I heard him sigh when he noticed that I am not acting the way he wanted me to be. “Let me read it for you.” He said as he snatched the piece of paper from my hands.
He cleared his throat. “Miss Ashin Kim, meet me in front of your dormitory on Saturday. Seven in the evening. From the Handsome, Kieran Wu.” He finished and showed the paper to me. Those were the exact words.
But then, I narrowed my eyes on him again. “You know where I live?” I asked him.
He shrugged. “I told you, I like you.” He replied with a wide smile. “Wait for me, okay?” He repeated. Then he turned to leave.
I scoffed at his leaving figure. “Jerk.” I muttered under my breath as I rolled my eyes and continued to write the story I was trying to finish.
“Oh!”
I jerked up when I heard his voice again. I looked up to him, irritated.
He smiled from ear to ear. “Don’t wear a dress and don’t put too much make up. I like you simple.” He told me before running away.
I looked at my clothes. I am wearing a white knitted dress and I just put on my make up before I left the classroom earlier.
I watched his view as he ran up to his friends. He was always smiling. And I’m not going to lie. He’s really handsome. He’s too bright that I get blinded by the light rays around him. He’s a heart throb.
And that makes me even wonder more, why did he just confess to me?
“What will happen to my son, Doctor?” Mrs. Wu was bawling her eyes out at the doctor as I arrived at the hospital.Kieran’ss mother called me minutes ago that Kieran wasn’t waking up from his sleep no matter what they did to him and I had to rush to the hospital to know what exactly happened.How can Kieran not wake up from his sleep? Last night, we were even laughing over the phone. We were even laughing at how funny and adorable Daehan, Minguk and Manse are. He was telling me he wanted to have kids even cuter than the triplets in the future. How come can he not wake up from his sleep?Did he suffering from something that he didn’t tell me? Is he sick? He didn’t keep something from all of us, did he?Suddenly, tears flooded my eyes and my hands were trembling nonstop. Just the thought of him being sick is killing me softly. We have a lot of future plans. We’ve planned everything for our own version of “To i
“Who are you?”I stepped back when I saw Kieran’s eyes narrowed at me. It’s as if he’s looking at a stranger with doubts written all over his face. He looks afraid of me. And it pains my heart to see him acting like this in front of me.I was happy enough that I was the first person he saw when he opened his eyes but how can he not feel the same?I chuckled at him. “Hey, Kieran. Don’t act like that. I don’t like pranks now.” I told him as I tried to convince myself that he’s just playing a prank on me right now.This is not happening.He narrowed his eyes on me. “Who’s playing a prank on who?” He asked. “Who are you?” He asked in an irritated voice. “What are you doing here? What amIdoing in here?” He asked as he looked around.I shut my eyes and felt my heart ripping into millions of pieces. I walked to the intercom and
“Stop now, Ashin. You’ve had enough.”Gina and Joshua are trying to stop me from getting more tequila. But I want more. I want more and more and more and more. If this could at least make me forget about all these things I am holding in right now, I’d like to drown myself with alcohol.I yanked Gina’s hand away and grabbed another glass. I’m guessing, even the bartender is hesitating to give me one now. But I glared at him, so he finally gave me one.“Ashin Kim! Stop drinking!” Gina hollered but I ignored her. To be honest, I don’t even know why I called her to meet me here. If she’s just going to bother me like this, then maybe she and her boyfriend could just go home and leave me alone.Now I get the feeling of those people drinking to forget all the hurt they feel inside. Now I get why no matter how their friends tell them to stop, they couldn’t.I wished everyone would understand
Kieran’s POVI was laughing with Bianca about how she blew her nose during our childhood days. I’ve known her my whole life and I have loved her for my whole lifetime. I’ve always thought that having her around would make my life complete.But now that I have her beside me, laughing with me, why do I feel emptiness in my heart? Why do I feel like something is missing?Then, suddenly, the door opened, revealing my doctor and a woman. I shook my thoughts away.Bianca and I nodded at Dr. Lee in acknowledgement. Then I looked at the woman beside him who’s looking down. If I remember it right, when I woke up yesterday, she was the person beside me. Everyone said that she’s my fiancée but if she really is, why can’t I remember her?I watched her as Dr. Lee whispered something to her making her look at him in shock. For once, I have seen her whole face and she doesn’t look so bad.I
Kieran’s POV“Kieran Wu!” I stopped when I was about to hop inside my car. Mom followed me and she was worried sick. “Son, you’ve just got discharged from the hospital. Where do you think are you going?” Her voice was so soft and caring but it screamed anxiety.I don’t know. To be honest, I don’t really know where I am going. Hell, I just got out of the hospital after three months and now I’m going to drive my car to look for someone I can’t even remember. But why the fuck does this feel right? Why do I feel like I am doing the right thing?I don’t even understand any of this.“Calm down, Kieran.” Mom held my arm and closed the door of my car. “You rest for tonight, okay? Just get a breather.” She told me carefully and softly.“But…” I hesitated to say the next words. I don’t know if I should tell her. Fucking shit I d
Five weeks later…“Ashin!”I looked at the direction where the voice came from. I am on my way to the entrance of the office when someone called me.I smiled at Harold Lee who was waving enthusiastically at me. I walked to him and greeted him. “Hey! What are you doing here?” I asked him.He shrugged. “Kieran is going for a job interview here.” He told me.I raised my brow. “Here?” I asked in disbelief.He nodded. “Yes.” He removed his sunglasses. “His mother asked me to come and check up on him.” He replied making me chuckle. Check up on him? What does his mother think Kieran is? A kindergarten?Harold narrowed his eyes on me. “Don’t laugh. He’s still under my therapy so I still need to check up on him from time to time.” He explained and I raised my both hands in surrender.“Fine! Fine. You win, Dr. Lee.”
“Here’s the manuscript, Mr. Kim.” I told my boss as I placed the newly pressed manuscript on the table. It was the manuscript of my upcoming book.Mr. Kim looked at me and smiled brightly. “It’s nice to see you doing well, Ashin.” He told me.I smiled back and nodded. Mr. Kim isn’t the kind of boss that’s terror and bossy. He blends in with the employees. When I was on the stage of giving up, he was blessing me with those friendly advices. He’s a good man. I’m even a godmother of one of his kids.“You look so good today, as well, Mr. Kim.” I beamed.He chuckled. “I just interviewed an intelligent cartoonist.” He replied. “I’m really impressed.” He’s nodding.I gulped and figured out that he was talking about Kieran. Of course Kieran is a good cartoonist. He was one of the heads of their department before his incident. He has the experience an
From: Kieran WuI don’t see you in the office. Is this your day off?I don’t know what to really feel when I read the text message. Kieran is looking for me in the office. Oh yeah. I forgot that it’s his first day at work.To: Kieran WuI don’t go to the office every day. I got up from bed and took a bath. Today is going to be a long day. I’m going to shop for Gina’s birthday gift. She’s celebrating it tonight at a bar. I bet she rented the whole VIP room for this.“Okay, Ashin Kim. Try to not think about him today.” I muttered to myself repeatedly as I walked out of the bathroom and changed.I saw my phone on the bedside table and sighed. I guess I needed to change digits. I should’ve done it a long time ago, anyway.From: Kieran WuThat’s sad. I thought I’
“Are you trembling?” Zion asked me as I fixed the cuffs of my suit.I looked at him. Trembling? More like I’m terrified. I have wished and prayed for this moment to come but right now, I cannot feel anything but my heart beating extremely and incredibly fast. I’m nervous…or maybe even more.I glanced at the entrance of the church for more than ten times now, waiting for the bridal car to come. I have never been this scared, too. A lot of things are going inside my mind—things that I don’t ever want to think about.“Ashin’s gonna be here any minute now.” Louie tapped my shoulder as he waved his phone in front of my face, reading Ashin’s message.I shut my eyes and sighed in relief. They don’t know how terrifying it is to wait for the bride. What if she suddenly thinks that she’s not ready for marriage yet? What if she woke up late? What if…hell, I don’t even want to
“Is she going to be okay?”I wanted to open my eyes but I feel so weak to even move my eye lids. I can feel something on the back of my hand. It must be an IV or anything.“She’s stable now, Mr. Wu.” A foreign female voice said. “We’ll just have to be really careful. Her condition needs continuous monitoring,” she added.Someone lets out a deep sigh as I feel a hand caressing my face. “Thank God!” Kieran breathed as he planted a kiss on my forehead.I tried my hardest to open my eyes because I want to see Kieran. I want to see him so bad. And I was right, he’s right beside me, waiting for me to wake up. “K-Kieran…”His eyes widened when he saw me awake. He immediately stood up and brought his face close to mine. “Ashin,” he kissed the back of my free hand. “Thank God you’re awake.” He muttered in the most concerned and worried voice I
I don’t know what to feel after hearing conversation. I ran back to my car and revved it and drove off to nowhere. I don’t know where to go. I don’t even know what to think.If Harold is Bianca’s cousin, then does that mean that he’s been granting her wishes? Is he always telling me to get away for his cousin to be with Kieran? I don’t know. I don’t want to think that way because Harold is such a good friend of mine. He was always there when I was in my darkest times. He’s a good man. He is, right?I heard my phone ring and it’s Kieran. I answered it and connected to the Bluetooth speaker.“Love,” his voice is still so beautiful as ever.“Kieran.” There’s a smile about to breakout from my lips. Just one word from him and everything’s right again. I don’t even care about anything when I’m with him.“What are you doing?” He asked. He seem
I woke up with the rays of the sun beaming through my eyes. I couldn’t help but smile as I saw Kieran sleeping soundly next to me. His serene sleeping face will always be my heaven. I’ve always dreamed of this to be happening and right now, I can’t believe it. He’s here. He’s here beside me.I planted a kiss on his forehead before slowly getting up from bed. I don’t want to wake him up yet. He looked so tired when I saw him yesterday so, I want him to rest.I went straight to the kitchen to cook us breakfast when my phone rang. It’s Gina.“Hello?” I answered the call.“Ashin!” Her voice was so deafening I had to move my ear away from the phone. “What is this that I heard?!” She’s still squealing.I narrowed my eyes at him. “What do you mean?” I asked.“Kieran was raising hell to find you! He called Joshua and the rest of the boys. Are you tw
My heart didn’t reach its normal beat even after the whole car ride. I’ve been with Kieran before for a longer time than this but I can’t really explain why my heart is beating crazily like this right now. I don’t know what to do.It feels like I’ve already run out of choices and all I can do now is stay…or leave. But I can’t afford to leave him, so I must stay.Kieran glanced at me as we walked inside the restaurant of his choice. I remember this place. This is where we first ate our dinner. If he could remember me now, then did he purposely bring me here?“Are you alright?” He asked me with those dark and addicting eyes.Damn it. How can I even think straight? I wonder if this is how Anastasia Steele felt like when Christian Grey was staring into her eyes. I wonder if she felt the butterflies in her stomach flip around like there was a storm right in there.I nodded even though I know that it
“I really like your book! You’re the best writer in the world!” One fan exclaimed as I was signing my book that she bought.I chuckled at her. She’s a high-schooler and I might say that she’s in the target of my books. I know how teenagers are so into the concept of love.“Thank you! What’s your name?” I asked her.“Janra.” She replied and I wrote my message for her.“Be good and study hard!” I reminded her and she nodded as she hopped out of the line. I couldn’t help but chuckle at her bubbliness. She reminds me of Gina who’s very bubbly and jolly.The book signing went on for a couple of hours. Surprisingly, there are a lot of people who bought my book. Everyone kept saying that I am a good writer. I doubt that though. Were they only got smitten by the fact that I wrote a tragic love affair? You know people always love the words love and pain. They keep s
My phone is ringing incessantly because Gina is asking me to come with them to the beach. It’s actually the beach resort that Louie is managing. He offered the whole circle that he would pay for our stay in his resort.“No. I don’t want to go.” My words are marked with finality. I don’t want to go. Going there would just mean ninety percent of seeing Kieran and Bianca. I won’t risk for that ten percent of enjoying the resort.“But—”“No.” I couldn’t make her reason out. She’s a daughter of a lawyer. Hell knows no decline when she begins to reason out. “I am going to prepare for my book signing tomorrow.” I replied. “I don’t want to be tired today.”I heard her huff from the other line. I can only imagine her pouting face. “Okay. Okay. I won’t push you to come. But please, don’t be alone inside your apartment. At least
Kieran was not beside me when the morning came. I woke up alone and…wrapped around blankets.I knew I was making a mistake last night. I also know that there’s no one to blame other than myself. I gave in. Just like that I shouldn’t be acting like it is been robbed from me. I was not a virgin anymore before it happened last night but why do I feel like I have just been devirginized then left behind. Hit and run. Why do I feel like I am a victim of hit and run? I don’t even get it.I shut my eyes and remembered everything that happened last night. He came to my unit yearning for me. I know. I can feel it from his kisses, from his touches. I cannot stop myself from asking questions in my mind – questions that I didn’t even verbalize.Does he remember me?Does he remember us?Does he want me back?Does he want us back?I sighed and went straight to the bathroom and tried to live normally. Nor
Kieran and I stayed inside the restaurant for a few moments more. He waited until my tears all ran dry. To be honest, I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what to feel. All I know is that I needed to cry my heart out. Even for one last time.“Are you alright now?” Kieran asked me so softly that I think he’s trying to be careful of what he’ll tell me. I believe he’s scared of making me hurt more.I don’t know if that’s a good or a bad thing, though.I nodded and took a deep breath. “You should forget about this.” I told him.He narrowed his eyes on me. I know he’s very curious but I don’t think it’s the right time to tell him yet. He’s still hasn’t been fully recovered from his amnesia. He may seem to think that he is, but he’s not. He’s still uncertain. I can see it in his eyes.“Ashin,” he held my cheek to make me face him but