Eighteen.My brow arched looking at Chaster who is wearing his infamous smirk with his hands are in his waist while staring at me. Sweats are dripping off to his face. I’m at Philesthrone U today because of a game, and this conceited sleazy creature is kinda famous, and guess what? He really got a fan club. "Gwapo ko ‘no?" he asked playfully with a soft laugh. Ugh! I frowned as I rolled my eyes. Ayaw ko sana siyang puntahan kaya lang he is going to use raw the cap I wore before, that's why we are both waiting for Mang Roby because I utos him to get the cap at home. "Have you cracked your head somewhere? You're saying nonsensical gibberish words again," I said abruptly. I flipped my hair pa for him to remind what beauty really is.He chuckled. "Kailan ang date natin? Schedule —.""Are you freaking nuts? I won't going to date you! Never!" I blustered cutting him off. No freaking way! It's hilarious!"Talkshit ka naman pala. Gagawin pa naman sana kitang baby — aray!" Daing niya nang s
Nineteen. Tila isang magandang kanta ang aking narinig na ikinatigil ng aking mundo. Ang lakas at bilis ng tibok ng aking puso — IS THAT WHAT YOU THINK I'M GONNA FEEL? NO FREAKING WAY! Napahinto ako sa paglalakad. Did I hear him right? O freakingly disgusting! I feel like dying! I can not this! I can not this! I can not! "Hanep akala ko kikiligan ka." Mas lalo akong bumusangot nang tumawa ito. "It's a prank!" Pagkakwa'y sabi nito na akala mo ikinagwapo niya ang ginawa niya. "Are you freaking nuts? Bakit naman ako kikiligin? Sa iyo? Of all people? Ewys at its finest." I thought he's serious! Doh? I almost got goosebumps when he uttered that gibberish words. Nakakatindig balahibo. I think I need to clean up my soul and ears later. "Kapag ibang babae kikiligin na. Ikaw? Papatay ng tingin. Normal ka pa ba?" I rolled my eyes. I already had heard lots of confessions. Sobrang sanay na ako sa ganito — like sino ba naman ang hindi mabibighani sa kagandahan ko? Hindi na 'yon tao if ever k
Twenty. My head is aching so badly when I woke up. Parang pinipiga ito sa sobrang sakit. Muli kong ibinagsak ang katawan ko sa kama at iniharang ang nadampot kong unan sa aking mukha— bakit parang iba ang smell ng pillow? And why it isn't soft and comfy. O damn! Without any more words in my mind, muli akong napabangon. "Where am — O FREAKING!" Napatakip ako ng bibig. Habang inililibot ang aking paningin sa paligid. Ang kaninang pagka-antok ko ay nawala. There are lots of posters pasted on the wall. Where am I? Camille's unit? She's so fond of of this k culture stuffs. But I freakingly am sure that this is not her place. Nagulo ko ang buhok ko dahil sa frustration — I can't damn remember anything... "O freaking geez!" I muttered. I immediately took my phone at the side table to check my face. Napabuntong hininga ako. Maganda pa rin naman ako kahit medyo messy ang buhok ko. My clothes are —. "WHAT THE FREAK? WHAT IS THIS? WHERE'S MY CLOTHES!" I freaked out with my eyes wide open
Twenty-one I heard from Clay about what happened at the bar. Like what Chaster said I really fainted, but because of Sunny we ended up spending a night to his place. I also heard that Camille changed my clothes. That calmed my nerves. I thought that asshole harassed me. "Insan, ang sama mo na namang makatingin," ani Clay na inabutan ako ng strawberry milk. "She's such an eyesore." Hindi ko inalis ang tingin ko sa eyesore na akala mo anghel. "Huwag mo kasing tignan," ani Cloud na busy sa laptop niya. I rolled my eyes. Nandito kami ngayon sa garden. Cloud is doing my requirements. Third is checking my thesis, while Clay and I, we're busy cursing the babaeng higad with her little sister... they are having fun at the pool. "Forward ko na sa Prof mo?" ani Cloud na ipinakita pa sa akin ang pina-revise kong requirements. Kinuha ko ang laptop at ini-scan ito. "Okay," sagot ko at binalik sa kanya ang laptop."Basta 'yong usapan natin. You will convince Dad." I just rolled my eyes and fl
Twenty-two. "Angel Myka Silva, 20. She is a transferee student from Santiago State University, a public school. It's in her province.”Muli siyang nagbasa. Nakuha namin ang mga info sa private investigator nila Camille. O well! This isn't my idea at all. Its theirs. As if magkakaroon ako ng pake sa kanya at mag e-effort pa ako ng time para paimbistigahan siya. Ano siya gold? Whatever! "She is a scholar since grades school up until now. WIS offered her a full scholarship. She's good at studying. She loves to play volleyball. She's a varsity player too. Hobby taking pictures. She has a sister named Mikella, she's 16, Grade 10 at Winchester Academy, and she’s a transferee student too. They both transferred to our school last year. Her mother named Marisse, 42 years old."Bahagyang huminto si Camille kaya pareho kaming napatingin ni Sunny sa papel na binabasa niya. Otomatikong nanlaki ang mga mata ko."She is a daughter of criminal?" Pareho kaming nagkatinginan ni Sunny."O freaking!"
Twenty-three Paglabas ko ng gym ay nakita ko agad si Cianne na nakasandal sa sasakyan niya. He's wearing a black cargo pants and white shirt. He's also wearing his fave specs. Naglakad siya palapit sa akin with a beautiful genuine smiled pasted on his face. He hugs me for a couple of seconds before he carry my gym bag. Such a gentleman! "You look exhausted. Saan mo gustong kumain?" nakangiting tanong niya. Naka-akbay siya sa akin habang naglalakad kami patungo sa sasakyan niya. "To your place. Cook for me." I look at him with puppy eyes. He smiled before he mess up my hair. I pouted.He opened the car door for me. He put my things at the back door. He helps me to put my seat belt. He really never failed to make my heart pound. When I'm with him, I always feel safe and secure."Aren't you busy? I thought you have date?" I asked while my eyes pasted on my phone. He starts driving."You texted me, and she'll understand me for sure." Sinulyapan ko siya habang ang mga mata niya ay nasa
Twenty-four"YES! EXAM NO MORE!" I exclaimed happily with my hands in the air. This is such a good day! Stress no more! "Miss Cassidy! Tone down your voice. The exam is still on going." Inirapan ko si Prof. Manuel na lumabas pa sa room niya para sitahin ako. Doh? "Bald head," I mocked. "Just go get busy shaving your head," I added sarcastically before I turned my back at him. Hindi ba pwedeng magsaya kasi finally tapos na ang exam? O well! He wouldn't understand how beautiful creature celebrate kasi because he was born bald from the start naman. Ugly! I checked my phone. No messages from them. Maybe they are still busy for their exams. Buti na lang I'm brilliant! O geez! I have it all na talaga! Beauty and brain. Moon Dashelle, you're so pinagpala talaga. "Micky," I called out my cousin who is walking like a zombie. What's wrong with this asshole again? "Did you fail your exam?" I asked with my brow arched. He lift his head to see how beautiful her cousin is. "Inom tayo?" My bro
Twenty-five"Chas, code red."Mabilis kong binawi ang kamay ko nang may biglang sumulpot sa kung saan. What the hell is wrong with me? Why did I let him hold my soft hand? I really did lost my mind. So freaking annoying. "Oh. Siya 'yonh maarte." Turo sa akin nang lalaki. Inirapan ko lang siya. "Lasing na ata' to, Dude. Namumula na." Nag-iwas agad ako ng tingin. This is so embarrassing. Baka mamaya isipin niya gusto ko siya o kinikilig ako. No freaking way! Hindi ako kinikilig! Sadyang mainit lang kasi. "Gago. Akin 'to." Sinuntok niya ng mahina ang braso ng lalaki, pinandilatan ko naman siya ng mata dahil sa sinabi niya. He really got nerves to own me. This can't be. "Shootangina. Alam ko," Iiling-iling na sabi nito. "Gago. Tara na. Nagkakabasagan na sa labas."I don't know, but I suddenly feel uneasy with what he said. "Ano bang ganap?" pa-cool na tanong ni Chaster. Pinagtaasan ko ng kilay ang lalaki nang balingan niya ako. "'Yong pinsan nito, sumugod bigla." "Micky?" napatayon
EpilogueThings I didn't expect to happen. People I didn't expect that will come into my life, love I didn't expect to receive, and a woman I didn't expect that I will going to spend my whole life with. Unexpected things really do happen, na dati ay hindi ako naniniwala, pero simula ng dumating siya sa buhay ko lahat nagawa kong paniwalaan, lahat ng imposible ay naging posible para sa akin. I met her at the right time, and at the perfect place. "Dude, sino yang tinitingnan mo?" tanong ni Hans na lumapit sa akin at inabutan ako ng yosi. "Yung pinsan ni Clay," sagot ko ng hindi tinatanggal ang pagkakatingin sa kanya. I fell in love at first sight. I admit it. "Dude, punta ako sa bahay niyo mamaya," paalala ko kay Clay. "Sige dude."I got chance to finally meet her. Mas maganda pala siya sa malapitan. "Apakaarte," nakangising sabi ko habang nakatingin sa kanya. Umirap naman siya sa akin agad. "Apakaattitude."She makes face. I chuckled. She's cute. Finally, I got her attention.
Sixty-nineHave you ever dealt with something you can't handle? Dealing with it, until you realize something won't be the same again. Maybe that's how it really works, that you can't hold everything, that there are things that you need to let go for you to hold yourself from falling apart. "Ate, you're drinking again?" Ella asked as soon as she saw me at the veranda. "I'm not drinking, I'm just unwinding," I plainly answered as I drink in one shot the beer in can I'm holding. I heaved a deep sigh as I stared blankly at the sky above us. Even the sky is freakingly not on my side, there's no stars, even the moon is hiding from me. It's been a week since I decided to get back. As soon as the gallery finished, I immediately booked a flight. Wala na akong rason pa para mag stay sa Pilipinas. Yes, I do have my family there and friends, but I don't think it's enough for me to stay. "New York is still the same," I muttered to myself as I pursed my lips and closed my eyes intently when a
Sixty-eightI successfully park the car outside the Korean restaurant. Nauna akong lumabas sa kanya at naglakad papasok sa resto. I can't breathe with him by my side. His giving me feelings I tried to forget. Every time I stared at his eyes, akala ko okay na ako, but everything just turned upside down. My efforts just got wasted all of a sudden. Yes, I still like him... no, I still love him, but I freakingly know that we can't be together anymore. He already have Angel-eech. He turned his back at me again, while I'm still waiting for him to get me back. Sumuko na naman siya dahil lang sinabi ko sa kanya na everything is a mistake that night. Hindi ako maghahabol, dahil hindi iyon gawin ng magaganda. The foods I ordered just came, napatingin ako sa labas dahil hindi pa rin dumarating si Chaster. O freaking come on.Mariin kong naipikit ang mga mata ko. Tatayo na sana ako para puntahan siya ng bigla siyang pumasok. Pinanood ko siya habang nililibot ang mga mata niya sa kabuuan ng rest
Sixty-seven"Ate, problem," bungad agad ni Ella sa akin pagkapasok na pagkapasok niya sa office ko. By the expression of her face and on how she reacts, I might say that it's really a problem. I put down the folder I'm holding, and took off my Bone Prone Optical Glasses of Chrome Hearts as I raised a brow at her."What?"She heaved a deep sigh as she place the folder she's holding to my table. My brows immediately furrowed when I saw what's in the folder. "I contacted the owner of the photo-art the other day, remember the owner of 'Sweet Dull Memories' na kasali sa exhibit next week. I did reached her —" "So? What's the catch? I told you to settle those arts rights?" "She suddenly said that she doesn't want her work to be displayed." I stared at her, trying to process what she just said. "A collector just contacted me and saw our pamphlet to our website, and she want that certain photo-arts personally."I massage my temple out of frustration all of a sudden. O freaking come on,
Sixty-sixI've never been good of leaving things behind, because I'm always be the one who is being left behind, but despite of that I learned so many things, like finding out who's there for me, and never left when I needed someone the most. I learned to face everything without fear. I learned to forgive but I know I'll never forger everything. "Will you still keep someone that hurt you and cause you so much pain?" Pare-pareho nila akong nilingon ng magsalita ako"Oo naman," sagot agad ni Sunny na wala man lang pagdadalawang isip"No," firmed na sagot ni Vivi"Why not?" taas kilay na sagot ni Shantelle "What for?" simpeng sagot ni MilleThey have different point of views and thoughts. Maybe because, we have different experiences. We tend to still accept someone despite of hurting us, not because they're being martyr, but because they sitll love that someone. On the contrary, some people doesn't want to try it again, not because they're coward, but because they are too afraid to be
Sixty-five"Chaster and I, are dating," she happily announced at the middle of the dinner. Napuno ng tanungan ang hapag kainan habang ako ay patuloy pa ring kumakain. Ramdam ko ang tingin sa akin ng mga pinsan ko pero hindi ko na lang ito pinansin. "What? You and Kuya Chaster are dating?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni Ella. "Actually po, I didn't expect din po that he'll asked me out, kasi I'm still rooting him with Dashelle."I sneered. I couldn't stop myself to glare at her. Is she for real? O freaking come on. "Ya. Being hypocrite doesn't have cure," I mocked as I sip onto my wine. "If you really dating him, you freakingly don't need to drag my name out. Halatang nagpapabida ka na naman," dagdag ko. I don't know what's her deal. O freaking come on. So they're dating? Humigpit ang hawak ko sa kutsarang hawak ko. "I'm just saying lang naman," she fake a smile. My brows furrowed. "So? Do I need to care with your relationship?"What's wrong with this bitch? O geez. So she wante
Sixty-four Last day na namin ngayon, maagang natapos ang convention dahil magkakaroon ng party mamayang gabi. Ella and I just spend our free time sleeping. Chaster is so persistent, he really never failed to annoys me. Ugh. Nagising ako ng tumunog ang phone ko. Half-sleep, I answered the call. "What?" tamad na tamad na tanong ko. Halos hindi ko pa maibukas ang mata ko dahil sa antok. (I love you—) Mas mabilis pa kay flash na inend ko ang call ng marinig ko kung sino ang tumawag. Binato ko sa kung saan ang phone ko. Narinig ko itong tumunog pero hinayaan ko na lang ito.Another way to pester me. He really knows his ways. "Saan ka pupunta, Ate? Akala ko ba hindi ka a-attend sa party?" tanong ni Ella na busy pa rin sa pag aayos niya para sa party. She'll going to attend the party. "Do I need to ask permission or report to you everything I do?" I asked with my brow archedHumaba naman agad ang nguso niya. Kinuha niya ang coat niya na nakapatong sa kama niya at sinuot ito. We hav
Sixty-three"Ate," tawag pansin sa akin ni Ella ng dinantay ko ang ulo ko sa balikat niya. "I'm so sleepy. The presentation is so boring," I said yawning. My eyes unintentionally closed, because I freakingly am so sleepy. I woke up early in the morning just to hear some boring presentations? O freaking come on. "Just wake me up when it's done," tamad na tamad na turan ko. Kinawit ko ang braso ko sa braso niya para mas maging komportable ako sa paghilig sa kanya. Hindi naman na siya nagreklamo. "Just go back to your hotel room if you're just going to sleep here."Nagpantig ang tenga ko dahil sa narinig ko, at tila nawala ang pagkakaantok ko. Taas kilay kong tinignan ang nagsalita, it's Chaster na nakaupo sa likuran ko, straight face at emotionless lang ang tingin niya sa akin na tumagal ng ilang segundo bago siya nag iwas nang tingin at tinuon ang atensyon sa harapan. "Conceited pathetic idiotic moronic sleazy freaking creature," sambit ko. Muli niya akong nilingon, ngayon ay ma
Sixty-two "What do you want to talk about?" I asked with my brow furrowed as soon as I saw him sitting comfortably at the couch near the glass window of the restaurant. He smiled and wave his hand when he saw me. I just rolled my eyes. I placed my bag at the table and sat comfortably in front of him with my cross legs and arms. "Let’s eat first," he said instead answering my question. I flipped my hair beautifully with class. He started eating na as soon I sat down while me still busy showing my hates to him."Huwag mo kong masyadong titigan, baka mafall ka ulit sa akin." I chuckled sarcastically as I flipped my hair elegantly. "Excuse me? I'm not staring at you, it just happened that you're in front of me," I stated fiercely, baka isipin niya tinititigan ko talaga siya. "Fall my ass," I added. Doh? There's no hell way I do that. He chuckled as if he was so amaze on what I've said. "I'm just joking you don't need to be guilty." Agad nag salubong ang kilay ko dahil sa sinabi