CHAPTER FIVE.

Breanna stuck her head through Alyssa's bedroom, they were supposed to go shopping today but after the news, that Lucas has broken to her two days ago she didn't feel like going "we wouldn't spend much time there"

Alyssa shakes her head in negativity, it wasn't like she didn't want to go with her cousins but she still need time to wrap her head around what Lucas had told her.

Breanna tried to convince her they would get food from town but Alyssa stood by her decision and she gave up and left. she got up and picked up the book she was reading last night.

since shoving Lucas into the lake two days ago she has been avoiding him and keeping her mind occupied.

the image of he dripping wet in the water came to her mind and she smiled

"are you sure you don't want to come with us Allie?" Willow fidgeted at the door "if you want me and Breanna can stay with you" she added

"I will be fine just need a little rest" Alyssa fall back in her bed and smiled at her cousins, they were always by her side even moving to France they still found a way to be there for her

"we are starting to think you are ignoring us" Breanna said coming back in with her purse

"don't be ridiculous, I would never ignore you, take Alexa with you ,I promise before the wedding we going to do something together" Alyssa smiled ignoring the anxious feeling in her gut

"when cousins exchanged a brief look but didn't push it any further

" we were talking so much about wedding yesterday that you went missing " Breanna admitted sheepishly " and yesterday doing dinner you were so quiet that we thought we were annoying you, asked Alexa and she didn't know what was up with you"

Alyssa felt a sinking feeling in her gut, she had been so engrossed in her thoughts about Lucas that she was hurting her family, Alyssa stood up and held Breanna's hand " you guys being here,talking about your weddings, and spending such a special time in your life means so much to me"

"you were acting so weird and when you are quiet we didn't know what to think" Willow said shrugging off

they were right, Alyssa thought. how could they know what to think when she never told them anything about Lucas? she carefully hid that part of her life from everyone, including her mom, maybe it was time to tell them but after breanna's wedding of course or maybe after willow's wedding

" she is doing it again " Breanna said to Willow who nodded her head

"I'm not doing anything, you better get going before Alexa come get you" she denied, changing the topic

with a gentle nudge Alyssa scoot them out of her room, when she heard the front door close a minute later she relaxed, why did Lucas has to come back now into her life?"

how will she tell her family the truth, she knew it was the right thing to do but didn't know how to do it.she couldn't look her family in the eye and tell them she had gotten married to Lucas why she was in college in California?

and they were still married.

how would she tell David,she was someone's wife?

she was still trying to absorb the enormity of the news Lucas had broken to her, she had laud tossing around how could he have done this to her?wasnt he satisfied?

she sigh she need to clear her head, she got up and made her way towards her mom's garden

"Alyssa"

her eyes popped open as she saw him standing at the entrance of the garden, she should have stayed inside her bedroom, she wondered how he made it back,his car keys were still with her but she wasn't about to ask him

"I'm busy Lucas "she said straightening her spine, she tried to walk past him but he blocked her way "you are blockng my way" she complained without looking at him

"he have to talk Alyssa"

"we already did" she replied with a sassy tone

"we didn't you shoved me down the lake and drove off" he ran his through his hair, why was she being so difficult " we are alone and there is no lake nearby so we are going to talk, we mght not get another chance" he said with a firm tone

"you had three years Lucas, three years worth of chances" she looked up at him " you showed up here unexpected, spring this news on me, then expect me to sit calmly and talk to you?"

"Alyssa sit" he pointed at the bench, said ignoring her question

"you don't change Lucas"

"I'm glad we are finally talking" his tone was firm"you want to keep wasting your time arguing fine but I'm not leaving here until we talk"

"the only time I wasted was being married to you" she turned to walk back, Lucas pulled her back faster than lightening to his chest, she looked into his smokey gray eyes and saw flames there, felt the spsrk ignite her blood, sparks no other man had made her felt except forom Lucas.

Excitement raced over her skin when his gaze dripped to her mouth, she could barely breathe with him close,couldn't think " I thought you wanted to talk" it came out like a whisper

"We will"

"No" she managed to whisper when his mouth lowered down to hers

"Yes"

Despair washed over her when he his lips didn't touch hers.despair and desperation , she told herself to pull away from him or at least not respond to his touch, not feel but she couldn't

"so familiar, she still remember the feel of his lips on her body, Damn you Lucas Ramirez

" Kiss me" he murmured

when she didn't respond he smiled " you know you want to you, it is not a crime if it is your husband

he nipped her jaw, trailed kisses down her neck "fine, I will just enjoy this for the but of us".

she was crumbling fast. breaking down into tiny pieces, the walls, she had built around her memories of Lucas Ramirez was crumbling, she hated that he could make her feel things she didn't want to feel, her bottom lips trembled.

The realization hit her, and gave her a little strength to resist him.flattening her palms on his chest, she gently pushed him, when he didn't budge, she pushed him harder and turned her head away " Stop"

For a long moment he didn't move, then he slowly dropped his hands from her arms and stepped back "You are my wife Alyssa"

"was your wife" she said shaking her head "just because you refused to sign the annulment papers doesn't change a thing"

"Like hell it does" irritation edged his voice as it rose " we are still married Alyssa, whether you accept it or not, you are still my wife"

Alyssa opened her mouth to argue, but something stiffly from the garden entrance or a sound caught her attention.

She froze and felt her heart stop.