Chapter 4: Bleeding Heart

Rodleigh's Point of View:

I hurriedly out of Cianna's room carrying the diary containing Thalia's secrets. I like to think that these are just Cianna's fiction. I like to think she was just insulting Thalia with what she wrote here.

But I couldn't help my feelings of not believing what I found out. It was as if thousands of knives were stabbing my heart now. It hurts. It is very painful.

I first went to my room to put the notebook I got in Cianna's room, and the envelope that Manang had given me earlier. I put aside opening that envelope first. I have something more important to go to now.

"Sir, are you leaving?" It was Manang who's asking me. Although I wanted to answer her, but I couldn't because I was in such a hurry.

When I got in my car I immediately drove it back to Thalia's house. I wanted to hear firsthand from her that what I found out was not true. I can't stand if those are true.

Six years my world revolved around Thalia. I never knew her as a secretive woman. For me, she's perfect and there's nothing to blame on her. So I don't believe Thalia did that to me like what Cianna was accused to her.

No, it's impossible. I can't wait to talk to her. Although my hands were shaking, I tried to dial her number with my right hand. I used a headset so I could talk to her properly.

"Babe, have you come home yet?" She opened up to me very nicely. Her voice is beautiful. Even though I can't see her I know she's smiling.

"Ye-yeah," I tried to calm my voice but I knew it was a bit cracked because of the tears I tried to keep from dripping.

"Are you okay?" Suddenly the tone of her voice changed. What was once fun is now filled with worry.

"Ye-yeah. I'm on my way to see you." I said softly before I finally pressed the end button so she immediately disappeared from the line.

Tears kept falling from my eyes. I just can't help it.

"Damn it!" I shouted as I accelerated my car. I also tried to hit the steering wheel of my car hard to pour out the pain I was feeling.

Why is it so painful?

I hope what I found out is not true.

Please, Thalia? I hope it's not true . . .

"Babe!"

Thalia immediately greeted me with a tight hug. I never hug her back. I remained silent as I felt her.

"W-what's wrong? Why are you crying?" I can see that she's really worried of me. She forcefully touches my face to check what is wrong, what is the problem.

"Babe, what's wrong?" She's now crying too. I wanted to wipe her tears. I wanted to wipe her tears with my own handkerchief, but I couldn't move-I couldn't move my hand to even touch her.

"I-is it true?" Finally, I also had the courage to ask her the thing I didn't want to know the answer to.

"W-what do you mean, Babe?" Her eyes speak. She was still holding my face.

"Is it true that you, yourself agreed for Cianna to be my bride on the day of our supposed to be wedding?" She let go of the grip on my face.

'Please, Thalia, tell me that's not true.'

'Please? I will believe in you, I love you so much'

"I'm sorry, Rod, I'm sorry. . ." She suddenly started to cry while apologizing to me.

"N-no." I shake constantly. I can not accept what I've heard. I do not want to accept it. That's not true, please, Thalia take back what you answered.

"R-Rod, I'm sorry, please? Sorry. . ."

It was as if my heart suddenly died for a moment at what Thalia did next. She's now kneeling in front of me while crying and asking sorry repeatedly.

Again, I can't move to stop her from what she's doing.

I want to tell her that she shouldn't be doing that.

I want to tell her to stop that because I can't take seeing her in that situation.

But no word came out from my mouth.

I seem to be dumbfounded in these moments.

"I know you already know the whole truth, who told you? Is it Cianna?"

"I didn't mean to, Rod. I love you so much and you know it. It was just a mistake I made. . . a mistake that I am regretting almost everyday and I know even for the rest of my life."

"I-I'm sorry, please? Forgive me, Rod-"

"Stop!" I shouted which suddenly stopped her.

"Why didn't you tell me everything right away?" I asked her coldly.

"Because I was scared! I was so scared that you might not accept me anymore. I was scared that you might leave me-"

"You're selfish! You're only thinking about yourself, do you know that? I thought you loved me? Why did you keep it a secret from me-how many years again? Four years? Isn't that great? You're good! " I shouted full of pain and anger.

"Do you know how I would treat the person who told me the truth because of you? I didn't treat her well! I rejected the person who really cared and loved me because of you!"

"Then what, is this all you will repay me for, Thalia? This huge lie you've been hiding from me for years?"

"I don't want your voice to be so cold-" I quickly withdrew her hand that was ready to touch my face again.

"Really?" I asked her full of sarcasm.

"You have no right to dictate to me, Thalia! You didn't just break my heart alone . . . you also killed me!" I laughed as I strained to stare into her eyes.

"I thought I knew you very well." I shook my head.

"But I was wrong." After I said that I turned my back on her.

"R-Rod, please forgive me! Please, I'm sorry, okay?" She pleaded while crying, but my heart is dead because of her, so I didn't listened. Instead, I walked lifelessly out of the gate of her house-away from the woman I loved so much that I now hate.

I was so stupid for believing on her for all those years.

I'm so stupid that I try to ignore those people who value me just for the sake of the person who will kill me like this.

I don't know who to blame. If my own? If Thalia is? I do not know!

Out of nowhere I dialed someone's number. I need someone to talk with right now, or else I'll die.

"I-I just want to die." I said softly to the line after someone answered my call. After what I've said, I shut my phone down. I quickly pulled over my car.

This is the only way I have right now.

To end my life in order to eased my pain.

-

Jacob's Point of View:

I was busy reading my emails when my phone rang.

I immediately grab my phone to check who's calling.

I smiled after I read who it was.

It's my stupid bestfriend.

It made me wonder what his problem was. As far as I know, we haven't gotten along because of his stupidity.

How stupid of him to let her wife left without even knowing that she's a month pregnant with his child.

I was shaken before I pressed the answer button on my phone. I didn't utter a word, I let him talk first.

"I-I just want to die."

I don't know what to answer. I was suddenly nervous at what he said.

He's not the Rodleigh Mariano Del Mundo that I know, he's very different from my bestfriend.

He seems too broke and hopeless.

I was even more nervous when he immediately turned off the call so he quickly disappeared from the line.

"Fvck! What's wrong with you, Del Mundo?"

I quickly left my office to go to him.

When I got to the parking lot here in the office I immediately drove away.

Now that I work overtime, I can only go home in no time.

"Answer your fvckin' phone, Del Mundo!" I shouted because I dialed his number a few times but he still didn't answering it.

I dialed his number again and again. But damn! He's really not answering his damn phone!

While Del Mundo has not yet answered his cellphone, I feel even worse.

I can't be bothered.

There seems to be something wrong.

I struggled to press the answer button of my phone after I saw Del Mundo's name on its screen.

"Damn you, Del Mundo! What took you so long answering your damn phone? I've been calling you since you ended up our conversation earlier!" Because of so much concern so I couldn't stop myself from getting angry with him.

"Uhm, Sir? Excuse me, this is not your friend. This is nurse Amber from Devine Hospital, I just want to let you know that your friend was rushed here due to an accident."

"What?"

"Yes sir, but don't worry he's fine now."

"Thanks, God! All right, I'm coming."

After our conversation with nurse Amber ended, I immediately went to the said hospital.

As the nurse said earlier, I have reached Del Mundo's condition.

"What happened?"

I immediately asked him when I entered the room where he was resting.

"I told you, I want to die." Cold and full of pain, he said.

"What happened?"

Now that I see that he is in good condition, I realize that I am still disgusted with him.

"Over speeding of my car, well, I crashed. It's a pity and I haven't been hit yet." he grinned and shook his head.

"Stupid!" I commented, so he looked at me.

"Yeah, I'm the most stupid human being in this world! Ha ha ha!"

"I used to call Cianna a fool back then, without knowing that I am more stupid compared than her." he laughed hard.

"Are you regretting now, Del Mundo? Are you regretting what you did to her before?" I asked.

"Isn't it obvious, Chua?" he asked sarcastically.

"That's good to know. Congrats, you realized that too."

"I still love Thalia, and I hated her too!" he said while gritting his teeth.

"Fvck you!" I raised my middle finger for him.

"Why? Can you blame myself if I love a cheater?" I was surprised by what he said. Does he already know about Thalia's secret daughter?

Yeah. I had known for a long time that Thalia had a child with another man, the woman my friend loved dearly.

I had wanted to tell Rodleigh about it for a long time, but Cianna begged me not to let Rodleigh know.

Cianna wants Thalia herself to tell Rodleigh the truth. That's how martyr she is, she can cover up her husband's woman for her husband's happiness. That's how brave Cianna is, that's how much she loves my stupid friend.

"Did you already knew?" I asked him in shock.

"Do you also know about Thalia?" Now he seemed surprised.

"Of course, maybe you forgot that your wife and I are also close? I also told you that I love her . . . so it's unlikely that I won't know her secrets." I was pissed off in response to him.

"Damn you!"

I just laughed after he threw his pillow at me and I avoided it.

"I'm so close oh? You're not just an idiot, Del Mundo, you also have blurred eyes so that the pillow you threw in my face won't hit me. Hahaha!" I laughed and raised again my middle finger for him.

"Yuck!" he said which made my forehead frowned.

"I'm not a gay, I won't fvck you, Chua!" That's when I got what he meant.

"Crazy!" I told him before finally leaving the room.

"Son, where is my son?"

The worried faces of Aunt Marianne and Uncle Randy appeared on me when I opened the door.

"He's inside. You don't have to worry he's all fine."

I explained to them so their faces immediately cleared.

"Thanks, God!" They said together before going straight inside.

While I was outside I couldn't help but think of Cianna.

"Cianna, where are you?" I just asked in the absence. Until now, like Del Mundo, I don't have any information on her whereabouts. But wherever she is now, I hope she's happy and she doesn't neglect herself.