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2024-10-29 19:42:56I saw how fast she altered her reaction. Her rage faded but I can't still see sadness nor guilty in her eyes. It doesn't...it doesn't affect her as I expected. It's just nothing for her. She doesn't even look hurt and guess what, I think she felt insulted by what I said.
Nothing is new. Who was I kidding? She's a robot who doesn't care about someone's feelings. That is how selfish she is.
I felt the pain starting to build inside me. Honestly, even if we always argue, I still love her. I'm still hoping that she will change. I still consider her as my mom, but part of me losing hope for it.
Almost 70% of me starting not to care anymore. It's like I'm slowly accepting the truth that she won't change any more. That she doesn't really care about me.
And the worst part is, the fact that she's just using me, the reason why she was giving me 1/4 of her attention.
"Then don't! You don't know everything that I've been through! Stop messing around, Ren! Stop
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