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Were you mine? Nightmare
Lea's POV "I wriggled in my bed, trying to sleep but there was this sharp pain in my abdomen and I kept twisting and turning but it was getting more and more unbearable. I tried to move my hand but felt like one hand was tied with something that cut into my skin as I tried to move my fingers. I could feel something wet between my legs and I tried to touch that spot with my free hand. It was wet and I brought that hand close to my eyes. My vision was absolutely blurry. Blood. There was blood on my hand. I tried to scream but my voice got muffled with the sound of water. I was chocking. I couldn't breathe. I wanted to scream for help but I couldn't even make a single sound. It felt like I was back in the hospital bed in labour. Labour? My baby? Kai? Where was Kai? Did I loose him? I desperation made my heart beat in my ears. I moved my head back and forth trying to force myself up and then my eyes opened. And I was slapped in the face by a blazing white light. " My eyes snapp
Were you mine? Brother's girl
Phill's POV What unfolded before me made me both woeful and happy. I saw her head slump on his chest. I saw the worry lines fade from her forehead. Her eyes shut in a peaceful slumber and that was all that I ever wanted. Seeing Lea happy made me happy. I wanted nothing but her happiness. But why then was I burning inside? It wasn't like I was seeing the two of them together for the first time. It wasn't funny because I wasn't even jealous. I mean I was jealous but not of their love. I mean I was jealous because Lea had that shoulder where she could lay her head and forget everything. But I didn't. " Umm, I am going to make this call. I will be back real soon. " I excused myself before my face gave away my frustration. " I am going to grab some more coffee! " Mercy also excused herself and we both walked outside in the lawn. She kept walking behind me without saying anything or catching up. I stopped and turned around. She paused as well. I tilted my head and gave her the questi
Were you mine? My Girl
Jake's POV "I can't do this, Jake. I can't leave him alone," Lea whispered, her voice trembling as we stood outside the pediatric intensive care unit. I had been trying to coax her to go back to her ward but she looked at me without those big, teary, eyes. The same eyes she had passed onto our son. Those eyes I cherished so much. Her eyes were red from crying, and she looked so fragile, so breakable."Lea, you need to rest," I said softly, my hand gently rubbing her arm. She flinched slightly but didn't pull away. "You can't keep going like this. You're exhausted."I insisted. " I can't rest," she shot back, shaking her head. "What if I fall asleep and something happens? What if I never see him again?" My heart ached seeing her like that. A sigh left my lips as I looked around for a better spot. The bench was not fit for her condition."Come with me," I urged, guiding her to a small, quiet room beside the PICU. I closed the door behind us so she could relax for awhile.The room
Were you mine? Confess
Lea sprang up at the sight of Elizabeth Rodgers, almost tumbling over the stand that carried her drip. Lea wasn't someone who ever felt hatred towards anybody. Not even Rosa. But Elizabeth Rodgers was an exception. If there was that one person in the whole wide world who had accomplished that feat, it was her. She hated Elizabeth Rodgers from the fibre of her existence. Ever since she had come across her aunt's journal, she had loathed the ones who were responsible for her family's demise. While acquiring her inheritance, she had learnt that how they were killed. They were killed in a car crash like she had always known but the brakes in the car were trampled with. When she did a little digging she came across the possibility that perhaps the truck that had crushed them was also commissioned to do so. It had been unbearable to even fathom the situation. So much so that, it was easier for Lea to actually get away from Jake that time. His face reminded her of his mother and what she
Were you mine? Connection
" I would have never killed them... never could have because...... because, I was in love with your father. And so was he!" " What nonsense are you spewing woman! " Lea literally knocked off the stand with the drip as she stood up. " It's true. It took me a lot of courage to confess. I have seen many men over the years. Even after I was married, I never had any dearth in men. Your father, however, was different. He was the only one who ever touched my soul. He was the only one who made me want to talk to him all night instead of having sex. " Lea's eyes and ears were about to pop out. It was difficult to hear and imagine such things about one's own parents. " Our meetings were regular and intense. It gave me the high, that I always wanted. So much so that I proposed marriage. It was at this point that I realised, Richard's feelings towards me had changed. I confronted him and learnt that it was because his wife, was pregnant. She was expecting you. Richard wanted to end everything
Were you mine? success
The minutes passed very slow as they waited outside the PICU. Lea lunged at Phill the moment he came out . "How is he? How's Kai?" Lea's voice trembled as she gripped Phill's arm. "Can we see him,now?" She added, trying to peek past Phill into the room. Phill grabbed her shoulders and held her down, before looking up at Jake. Mercy stepped forward,noticing the grim expression on Phill's face. "Why do you look like that, Phill? What's wrong?" she asked. Phill ignored her and turned his attention back to Lea. "You can't see him right now," he said softly. "Kai's awake, but... there's a problem." Lea's face fell, panic seeping into her eyes. "What do you mean? What's going on?What happened to my, Kai? " Phill looked at her with apologetic eyes before turning to face Jake. "We ran some tests and found out that Kai's liver is in acute failure. It's because of toxic shock.We need to do a transplant as soon as possible to save him."Lea's knees buckled, and she collapsed into Jake's arm
Were you mine? Comfort
Lea's POV " Kai... " The moment my eyes opened I threw my hands in all directions, trying to get up and look for Kai. But i didn't have to look much further. He was right across and I could see him in the other room. My baby was latched to the beeping machines with pipes and wires and what not. And right beside him was Phill. He sat at his head side, his hand gently gliding up and down through his hair. Phill turned towards me with a smile when he realised I was up. My head was still groggy because of the sedative the nurse had injected me with but I was feeling all better and alright. " Lea, you are up! Are you feeling alright? "He asked me with that infectious smile. I should have been the one to ask him that question. He was the one with a wound. He had just saved my child's life all over again, perhaps for the zillionth time. " I am fine. How are you feeling? How is Kai holding up?" I walked towards where he was. He was in a wheelchair, I noticed when I went near. He
Were you mine? Promise
Phill's POV I had to do it. I knew how much I was going to suffer after that kiss ended. I didn't want it to end. I didn't want to let go of her hand. I didn't want to see her with anyone else, even if it was my own brother. I knew I was finally letting the dam break. I had been holding back way too long I couldn't do it anymore. I had to let her know. The moment her taste touched me, I lost track of everything. I lost control of myself. I lost my sense of the place. I kissed her and she let me and I was grateful for that. I was half expecting her to shove me back but she didn't. She held me, held my hand as I took from her what I needed. My life force. She was like an EpiPen bringing me back to life. " Phill... " She finally mumbled against my lips, her hands on my chest, gently holding them but not pushing. It took way too much of my energy to stop and finally look up at her face. I couldn't read her expression. Was it shock, fear, disgust, sympathy.... I could not understan
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Were you mine? Life goes on
A month after Lea's death - Jake stood in front of Lea's grave, holding onto the bouquet that he had brought. He had her favourite box of chocolate, custom made by the old baker lady back in their home town. He brought her flowers everyday after seeing Kai off at his daycare. He spent the rest of his day talking to her before going back to picking Kai up again. He brought her all the things he had promised to get her one day when they were little. He was trying to give her everything he always wanted to give her but never really could. Today was no different. As if Lea's death wasn't enough of a blow, after the postmortem Jake was told that Lea was pregnant with their second child. It didn't make things any easier only driving another dagger through Jake's heart. Perhaps it was just because Kai existed that he could move forward.He didn't want to but he had to for the sake of the little guy. With Lea gone, there was no meaning left in this world. All colours were gone. It was o
Were you mine? The end
" NOOOOOO! " Jake flung himself forward trying to put himself between Lea and the bullet but it was too late. The bullet hit her right on point blank. She fell right in front of his eyes,blood gushing out like a crimson fountain. " LEAAAAAA!!! "Jake's voice broke with the sheer intensity of his scream as he ripped his white shirt and pressed it over her forehead. " CALL FOR AN AMBULANCE! NOW!!! " He barked, desperately clinging onto Lea's body as Kai grabbed his shoulder and began to whimper. " It's alright, baby. Don't worry. Mommy will be fine. " Jake could barely hold onto his child as his hands started to tremble. Mercy fell down on her knees, probably the only one whose rationale was still working. She closed Lea's lifeless eyes as her body whacked with tremors as she cried.Lea was no more. It was instant death. " Mercy! What are you doing? " Jake shoved her hand away from Lea's body. " Somebody please call an ambulance! " He kept screaming as Kai's cries reached the breaking po
Were you mine? Finally-Our wedding
Lea's POV I stood in front of the grand mirror.Today, I would marry Jake, the love of my life, and the father of my Kai. Our journey had been anything but normal but it had brought us to this breathtaking moment. My dress was a masterpiece, a custom creation by one of the most renowned designers in the town. The silk fabric clung to my figure, adorned with intricate lace and delicate pearls that sparkled as I moved. The train flowed behind me like a river and the veil was draped over my shoulders, waiting to be lifted.I felt goosebumps at the thought. "Lea, you look like an absolute dream," Lisa said, fussing with the final touches on my veil. She stepped back, her eyes bright with unshed tears. "Mr.Rodger is not going to know what hit him." I laughed, trying to steady my breathing. "You think?" "I know," she replied, giving me a reassuring squeeze on the shoulder."Wow, Lea. You're stunning. Seriously, Jake's going to lose it when he sees you."The door opened and my maid of h
Were you mine? Suddenly
Suddenly Jake leaped off the bed, crossing over Lea as he did. He went for the cupboards, yanking them open, rummaging through the drawer as he did. Lea raised herself up on one elbow, watching him closely. " Jake, what's going on? " She asked with one brow raised. " I swear it has to be somewhere in here. I left it just as it was. " Jake kept searching not looking back at her. Lea signed as she got up from the bed, still very naked and walked right over. " If you tell me what you are looking for, maybe I can help. Is it your wallet? " Jake yanked another section of the cupboard open and Lea stopped at the sight of all the neatly arranged laundry. It was her side of the cupboard. Absolutely mess-free and tidy, just like she had left it years ago. She left Jake as he went through the night stand , touching the fabrics and checking if they were still in the same sequence like she left them. " They are untouched. Why didn't you move them? " Lea's voice was barely above a whisper
Were you mine? Pent up
Lea's POV His kiss soothed me a little. Those things had been bottled up inside and it was high time I let it escape. Tears streamed down my face as memories I had tried so hard to suppress resurfaced. I couldn't hold back the sobs that wracked my body. Jake's presence beside me was both comforting and agonizing."Lea," he begged, his voice trembling slightly, "talk to me." I shook my head, unable to find the words to express the turmoil inside me. Instead, I let out a choked sob, burying my face in my hands. Jake's arms wrapped around me, pulling me close. His embrace was warm and strong."I'm here," he murmured, his lips brushing against my hair."I'm not going anywhere." His words broke something inside me. I clung to him, my fingers digging into his shirt as if he were the only thing keeping me from falling apart. His scent filled me with comfort as I burried my nose over his neck while he nibbled at mine. His lips slowly found it's way back to mine. But before he could kiss
Were you mine? Scared
Jake's POV " Yes, we are coming right now. Yes please. Keep the keys ready. " I called the old watchman because it had been ages since I last went there. Lea hadn't spoken for the rest of the drive and I knew for certain there was something cooking in her little head. I wasn't complaining. She had been through a lot and I was happy to be of any serve to her, any use... anything to make my Lea happy again. Make her smile and dance like when she was a little girl. My crazy, sweet, innocent Lea. She had been leaning on the seat but as soon as we entered the driveway towards the apartment she sat up, rolled down the window and stretched her neck out. " Lea, careful... " I tried to pull her back but she opened the car door before I could pull up and made a run for it. I tossed the keys to the valley with much frustration and ran after her. " Lea, wait" She topped right in front of the elevator and turned around. I was running so fast, I almost banged into her. She pulled my hand int
Were you mine? U-turn
Jake's POV " Of course you get that job, whether you like it or not. " I wasn't even lying. Who better than Phil to look after my little one. I knew he would always have his back, no matter what. Phill chuckled before turning around. " By the way, did you sign the papers before coming inside? " He asked me and it took me off guard. " Papers? What papers? " " Discharge papers. Didn't they tell you before you entered? " He made a disappointed face and looked out of the door even though he could see no one. " These incompetent workers. They can't get one thing... " " Discharge papers? Who is getting discharged? I thought you needed around a week to recover. " Lea interrupted looking straight at Phill. " I am not getting discharged. You are! " Phill pointed at Lea but she stood up. " Me? Oh, alright. Makes sense. " Phill turned his gaze back to me and said, " Get the paper works done and take her home. I think I need to get some sleep... " " Take who home? " Lea stood face t
Were you mine? Promise
Phill's POV I had to do it. I knew how much I was going to suffer after that kiss ended. I didn't want it to end. I didn't want to let go of her hand. I didn't want to see her with anyone else, even if it was my own brother. I knew I was finally letting the dam break. I had been holding back way too long I couldn't do it anymore. I had to let her know. The moment her taste touched me, I lost track of everything. I lost control of myself. I lost my sense of the place. I kissed her and she let me and I was grateful for that. I was half expecting her to shove me back but she didn't. She held me, held my hand as I took from her what I needed. My life force. She was like an EpiPen bringing me back to life. " Phill... " She finally mumbled against my lips, her hands on my chest, gently holding them but not pushing. It took way too much of my energy to stop and finally look up at her face. I couldn't read her expression. Was it shock, fear, disgust, sympathy.... I could not understan
Were you mine? Comfort
Lea's POV " Kai... " The moment my eyes opened I threw my hands in all directions, trying to get up and look for Kai. But i didn't have to look much further. He was right across and I could see him in the other room. My baby was latched to the beeping machines with pipes and wires and what not. And right beside him was Phill. He sat at his head side, his hand gently gliding up and down through his hair. Phill turned towards me with a smile when he realised I was up. My head was still groggy because of the sedative the nurse had injected me with but I was feeling all better and alright. " Lea, you are up! Are you feeling alright? "He asked me with that infectious smile. I should have been the one to ask him that question. He was the one with a wound. He had just saved my child's life all over again, perhaps for the zillionth time. " I am fine. How are you feeling? How is Kai holding up?" I walked towards where he was. He was in a wheelchair, I noticed when I went near. He
