It's Saturday. About 19 hours since I aced that Reynold Boyce Case and another 19 hours since I beat the shit out of Regina Foxx. She was given urgent medical attention. I was driven home, with a warning from chief Bradford that we'll see Monday morning. I think that will determine if I lose my job or if I'm keeping it. It definitely can't be the latter.
With my phone wedged between my ear and my shoulder, I unlock my door to enter my apartment. I may not live in a penthouse, but I live in a comfortable apartment since Caleb milked me dry.I shut my door and hold my phone against my ear with my hand. I drop my keys on the coffee table as I go to my room.
" Mom, are you putting on makeup right now?" I ask, imagining my mom in front of her bedroom mirror applying make up ready to party and maybe hook up as usual every Friday and Saturday night.
" Well yeah. Mommy gotta look young and find someone to make her feel good." I scrunch my face and shrug off my coat and drop it on my couch.
" Ew, mom, don't say that." I roll my eyes pinching my forehead.
" Shut up, Lauren." My mom chuckles. Ever since my father died, she's been hooking up with random guys in the name of finding love when technically she's trying not to think about my dad.
When he passed away, mom was in therapy for at least three months. It wasn't really easy for everyone. My daddy was the best man in my life even if he never really liked Caleb. Mom too actually.
" What's up with Tina? She doesn't call anyone and I'm worried if she's okay." I say and go to my bedroom.
" You don't have to blame her. She's just like you. You girls don't like checking up on your mother." She says and I roll my eyes. She knows it's not true. I always call to check on her and Tina too.
" Mom, it's also your duty to check on her. To make sure she's okay and staying in college. How are we so sure she's in her dorm room studying, or storming parties in Miami."
" She's 22. Let her be. When she's old enough she will learn her lessons that all this doesn't last. And she will call soon when she's out of money."
" And you're gonna give it to her?" I ask my mom.
" I don't want your sister following men for money, Lauren."
I sigh and run my fingers through my hair. Tina can't be fixed. She doesn't want to get fixed up. I'm pretty sure she's in a man's house giving him a blow job for crack. Mother knows she's a junkie, she tries to help Tina in her own way, but Tina don't want to be helped.
" So Lauren, how's the academy treating you?" Mom asks.
I huff. Seriously. I graduated from the academy almost a year ago and she forgot. Bravo, mom, bravo.
" Mom, I'm no longer in the academy."
" Oh. Then what have you been doing with your life these days?"
" I work with the MPD mama." I tell her as I take off my shoes.
" Miami? Seriously. You won't believe I thought you stayed in New York City." She says.
I don't blame her. Since my father died, we haven't been in touch. Part of it is because she doesn't like talking to anyone and me included. She isolated herself and found solace in the arms of strangers in the name of her men friends.
" I live in Miami, ma." I tell her.
" So you're still dating that nutjob boyfriend of yours, huh?" Mom asks.
I sigh and stand up, putting my phone on loudspeaker and tossing it on my bed. It's been almost a year since our breakup and it feels like it's two days ago. No matter how hard I try to forget him and the hurt he implanted in my chest it's so hard. Caleb was my first everything. Well except for my first kiss. He was the man I truly feel comfortable with and I fell deeply in love with him and even gave him my innocence. Something I wished I didn't give him. And he played me. Played me like a fucking piano.
The day I found out about Regina and Caleb, he wasn't guilty and he even said it to my face that I belonged to him. That no matter how hard I try to forget him or tell myself he doesn't own me, I'm still gonna find myself thinking about him.
" I own you, Lauren. Every part of you. And I'll break you and pick you up later when I feel like it." He'd said. Dude's got fucking balls.
I want to prove him wrong that I'm not tied to him but he's winning. Every night when I'm having cold showers, I think about him. Even when I'm watching a movie alone or with Roxie and maybe my friends, I think about him. He was so sweet when he started. He was the nicest gentleman I've ever known. And I ask myself everyday what changed.
" Lauren."
" Yeah ma." I call out softly as I stand in front of my mirror, my reflection staring back at me.
I may not have the body of a model, but I think I'm beautiful. I'm not that tall, I have average curves and hips. My tits aren't big and they're not small. Average. But Regina Foxx has the hips, the big titties, the red hair and even the Kim Kardashian booty. She has everything and more. Her pale skin is like porcelain while mine is olive. Almost brown and nearly golden. I got my skin tone from my mom. She's the most beautiful woman I know, with her beautiful golden brown skin and smile. I don't even think she smiles often since daddy passed away.
" What nutjob, mama?" I ask, running my fingers through my brown waves. I took that from my dad. He's got brown hair and he was my role model. He inspired me to join the force and be better. Being an agent might not be a big deal but I love my job. The fun and thrill of pretending to be someone else. It feels like you're in a movie.
" Cardiac. What's his crazy name again? It's cardiac, right?" I laugh. She's always referring to Caleb as cardiac and I still don't get why.
" It's Caleb, ma. And we're no longer together. We broke up." Or he broke up with you?
" Why? So you finally realized that boy is nothing but a pile of horse shit and he's not good for you." I sigh.
" Mom..." I sigh and go back to my bed. The more I stare at my mirror, the more I ask myself where did I go wrong. How did I fuck up my four years relationship. I guess it wasn't even meant to be in the first place.
" He cheated on me. With a beautiful redhead named Regina Foxx. She is an agent too. Works for the MPD and we're in the same department. I see that bitch almost everyday." I sigh.
" He cheated? That dipshit cheated? Well it doesn't matter as long as he's out of your life for good. I fucking hate that kid. And he had to cheat on you with a fellow undercover agent. That kid has no shame. You gon' forget him, Lauren and get someone who deserves you. A good looking boy. Someone far better than that cardiac kid."
I chuckle. " It's Caleb."
" I don't care. Why did it take him so long to get out of your life? That boy wasted your life."
" Mom, it's okay. Thanks, you're always good with words. How come we don't talk often?" I decided to change the topic. Enough of Caleb. He's my past and he's gonna stay there.
" I've been busy, hon. You know what I mean. Let's not go into that sad phase of our lives. It's Friday night, baby, it's a night to get laid and get a man. You should get your ass out of your bed and go have fun. Go party, Lauren Gray." Mom says and I smile.
" I don't even know when last I partied."
" What! What have you been doing with your life since that boyfriend left? Staying at home and sulking all night." Well, that isn't far from the truth. I've never been the type who likes to party so I don't blame anyone at all, but myself.
" Go take a bath, get dressed and go out there to party. You're still a young woman Lauren, stop trying to live the life of a Nana."
" Sure thing mom, I'm gonna think about it."
" Okay whatever. Just don't say I didn't warn you when you turn thirty five." Mom says on the phone.
" Mom." She hangs up.
I groan and fall backwards on my bed. My life sucks. All thanks to Caleb. That asshole.
***
It's 9pm and I'm home alone as usual. With a glass of red wine beside me, I watch each episode of my favorite series. When I'm not out there impersonating people, this is what I do with my boring life. Watch TV with a good wine and then go to sleep. But this particular night, I find myself thinking about sex. It's been a year since I last had sex and it's eating me up. I'm not really the sex crazed woman who can't live without sex, but tonight I don't know if it's Reynold Boyce or my raging hormones but, I really want to get laid.
These past months, Danny, my pink vibrator has been my boyfriend and he's always faithful to me. At least he gives me an orgasm, something Caleb Shawn barely gave me. Each night when we would have sex, I had to touch myself just to get an orgasm. I wonder how many times Regina Foxx had to fake an orgasm just to pleased that sick fuck who's now her fiancé. My doorbell rings, breaking my restless mind from my nasty thoughts. I don't have a lot of friends so no one ever visits me. No one except Roxie and maybe Tanner sometimes, since most of my friends are now married nursing their first or second child. So I'm wondering who's outside my door at 9pm Saturday night.
I open the door and Roxie stands outside well dressed in a blue off the shoulder dress with long sleeves. Her blond hair is nicely made and she looks beautiful.
" Roxie."
" Hey Grandma." She shakes her head and walks inside my apartment. I shut my door and turn to look at her.
" What's up? Do we have an undercover job nobody told me about."
" Go get dressed grandma, we're going out to party. And I'm sorry to say this but you don't get to say no today. Look at you, you've been staying indoors all night and I can't even remember when last you partied."
I groan and walk to my living room as I sit down. I grab a cookie and stuff it in my mouth. Roxie walks in and snatches the half bitten cookie from my mouth.
" Hey. What did you do that for?"
" Go fucking get dressed." She snaps eating the half bitten cookie.
" Did you have a fight with Stevie?" I ask her. She sighs and sits next to me.
" It's crazy. Sometimes when we would have a fight, we would sort things out within two days. It's been two weeks, Lauren."
" Shit. That's a long time."
" Exactly. I think he moved on finally. Who knows he might be dating a Caribbean girl and I'm all here, horny and lonely and single. This shit sucks. Relationship fucking sucks. I fucking hate this bitch called relationship." Roxie says.
Damn. Roxie is not the best when it comes to dealing with heartbreak. She would get drunk on some occasions and just sulk all night. Sometimes it affects our jobs.
" So you wanna go out and party tonight and maybe get laid?" I ask Roxie with a smirk.
" Fuck yeah." She giggles and I giggle too.
" When was the last time you got laid?"
" Two nights ago with Danny."
" You fucking slut. Who the fuck is Danny?" She squeals and I roll my eyes at her.
" Danny is my vibrator, Roxie. He's my only boyfriend. The boyfriend who would never cheat on me and he always gives me an orgasm."
" Bitch."
We laugh.
" I named mine too, you know. I called him the big hulk."
" Fuck, Roxie. I never knew you keep that too."
" Well I do now since Steve won't touch me anymore when we were still serious. And the few times he did touch me, he did it for himself. He used me to pleasure himself. That piece of shit."
" You know what, I'm gonna go to my room and put on a dress and we're storming one of the top clubs in Miami."
" Yes! Now you sound like my bitch."
I giggle and go to my room. I think it's time I listen to my mom's advice and get laid. I don't need a boyfriend. I just need to get laid. Walking inside my closet, I check for any slutty dress. Anything that screams class. I settled for a red strap dress with strings laced together in a deep V-neck. My breasts are a little exposed. The dress is mid-thigh and it hugs my body like a second skin. I add light make-up on my face and apply red lipstick on my lips. I smack my lips together and stare at my reflection in the mirror.
Sliding a comb through my hair, I decide to just curl it and comb out the curls into waves. I slip my feet inside my black heels and grab a black pea coat. I take one last look at my reflection and I look good. I grab my black clutch and walk out of my room.
" Yes. It's been a long time since I've seen you this hot. Come on, let's go have fun." Roxie says as she stands up.
I switch off my TV and Roxie and I walk out of my apartment with our arms hooked together.
**
" What's this place?" I ask Roxie as I look at the building in front of me. I don't usually go to clubs except when I'm undercover. But this, this is fucking real. This is me trying to have fun and maybe get laid.
" This is a new club in Miami. It just opened a month ago and it's fucking awesome. You won't regret it. Miami big guys always storm this club." Roxie says as she parks her car in an open space. The parking lot is filled with expensive cars. And Roxie's Tesla is not an exception.
Aside from the police department that we both work for, Roxie's family is kinda rich. They own the most luxurious and expensive hotel in London.
I throw my peacoat on the backseat of Roxie's car and we step out of the car as we approach the entrance. We show our IDs to the bouncer out front and he nods, smirking at me. I pretend to not notice as we enter inside.
" Fuck." A strip club. Way to go Roxie.
There are several expensive couches splayed around with rich hot men in suits occupying the seats. There's a glass like kinda thingy in the middle of the room and strippers without tops or bras and just in panties dance around the poles.
" Have you been here before Roxie?" I ask above the music. It's really loud in here as we go to the bar.
" Once. Steve and I."
" Why would he take you to a strip club?"
" Oh come on, Grandma, we were just having fun."
" Right." I mutter.
Roxie and I sit next to each other as we order drinks. The bartender comes back with two cocktails and two glasses of gin.
" Thanks." We say to the tattooed bartender and he smirks at us before going back to his duty.
We throw our heads back to chug the gin.
" Fuck." I gag, covering my mouth with my hand and coughing.
" I can't wait to get drunk and dance with you."
" You can't get drunk if you're planning to get laid." I tell Roxie and she rolls her eyes. I sigh as I take a sip from my cocktail. I sip slowly, not ready for another cough battle.
I glance around the club and my eyes fall on a particular blond man. He's with another man who's with a girl.
" Fuck." I inhale through my mouth.
" What?" Roxie asks as she turns around to look at what got my attention.
His blond hair is long and I'm pretty sure it's tied in a man bun at the back of his head. Tendrils of his hair fall at the sides of his face and goddamnit, he is gorgeous. He's literally the most good-looking man I've ever seen. His nose is well shaped and I can't see his eyes, since he's engraved in a conversation with the other man. The blond man laughs and his laugh is beautiful. From the faint light and the distance, he looks to have golden skin. Bright golden skin and flawless. He spots a black denim jacket and a white shirt.
" Fuck, he's beautiful." Roxie whispers beside me. I gulp and look away.
" You should buy him a drink." She adds.
" Why the fuck would I do that?"
" To show him you're interested in him."
" Fuck no, Roxie. The woman doesn't chase the man. The man chases the woman. That's how it's done."
" Said by whom. It's the twenty-first century babe. Look at this piece of meat." Roxie says and I turn around to ogle at him again. Shamelessly.
He looks so calm and beautiful as he listens to the man who's seated opposite him. I really can't make out the other man but there's a dark haired girl who's hanging next to him. I lick my lips out of my own free will as I slurp from my drink. The blond haired man looks up and a pair of bright blue eyes stare into my soul. I can't look away. I try to look away but his blue orbs are mesmerizing and I'm awed at his beauty.
Our eyes lock in an intense gaze and I swallow, absently sipping from my cocktail through the straw. And then the blond haired man smirked at me.
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I look away at once, gripping tightly onto my glass of cocktail. My heartbeat is beating hard against my chest and I don't know why. How can one man look so beautiful and gorgeous? I feel his eyes burn into my skin from behind me and I know he's looking at me. " Oh my God, Lauren. He's so fucking gorgeous." Roxie mutters. I bite my lip. " Yeah. And it's crazy we locked eyes." " You should buy him a drink, honey, and watch him walk over this club to talk to you." " I'm not desperate Roxie." " Buying a man a drink doesn't make you desperate. It's just speeding things. You're a beautiful woman and I'm not blind, I think he wants you." " You're not a prophet, Rox. He doesn't want me. We just locked eyes and I'm embarrassed he saw me eye raping him." Roxie snorts out a laugh. I roll my eyes and take out my straw to gulp my drink. " Fuck." Roxie giggles.
I open my eyes as I scratch my eyelids. God I feel so weak. My legs feel weak and it's strange. What did I do to myself? Oh shit, now I remember. I had sex with a breath taking blue eyed, blond haired man last night. And it was awesome. Amazing and the best sex of my boring life. He gave me something Caleb couldn't give me for four years. An orgasm. Not just an orgasm, multiple orgasms and a wonderful night that I'm never ever going to forget. I touch his side of the bed and it's empty. I sit up with the duvet covering my naked self as I look around the room. He's truly gone. No evidence that he was ever here. Like it never happened. I peek at my naked self under the duvet and I'm really naked. I can still feel his hands all over my body. Groping every part of me last night. I fall back on my bed and groan. I reach for my phone, hoping to find a missed call or maybe a strange text from a strange number like these girls wh
Stepping out of Roxie's car, I look up at this familiar strip club. Tanner decided to sit the party out since he's having a date with his partner. I blow out my breath, different thoughts running through my mind. What's gonna be his reaction if he sees me. What if I'm being clingy? It's called a one night stand for a reason. You don't go back to fuck your one night stand for the second time. I guess that's why he left my bed. Maybe I wasn't all that good in bed. " Lauren Gray, what the fuck are you thinking about?" Roxie asks me as we walk past the bouncer out front. I think she knows me more than I thought. Roxie tends to know when I'm thinking too much. " Nothing." " You're a bad liar." I chuckle nervously as we go to the bar. " I'm just thinking about my blonde haired one nightstand. What if he sees me as a creepy clingy woman." " Why would you think that
" You're so beautiful, Lauren." Anderson says as he smiles. This is fucked up. It's been six months since that one nightstand. And it's been six months and I still can't get him out of my head no matter how hard I try. I started hooking up, maybe to spite Caleb and forget that stranger. But it's not working. The men are always too annoying. Roxie talked me into signing up for a match me website. And I didn't. She went behind my back and created the account and forced me to hook up with these strangers. And at the end of each blind date, it always turned out exhausting. The men are rather too annoying or not pleasing to me at all. They're always rich. Wall Street businessmen. And Anderson is one of them. He's pretty sweet. Handsome, hot, rich, but he's nothing compared to that stranger. Just his bright blue eyes stole my breath away and I can't seem to get him out of my mind.
" Chase Newton." Chief Bradford answers. " He's pretty hot himself." " What exactly am I going to do? Follow him in order to protect him from his father's enemies." " Well no. We've got you a job in his University. You'll be his physics professor." No shit. " What? Why don't I get to do the job?" Regina asks. " Why's she even here?" I ask, glaring at Regina. " We'll come to that later. Let's focus on your big case, Lauren. Your job is already secured. You're his new physics professor so you can easily keep an eye on him. We've also got you an apartment close to college in case you'd love to live close to college." " How is Chase's professor going to protect him?" " You can easily keep an eye on him by creating a relationship with him." " A relationship?" " Yes. Not a sexual relationship if you may know. A Professor and student kind of relationship. For a kid like that he's brillian
Roxie and I throw our heads back as we down our shots. We're at our favorite bar. We usually come here sometime just to get wasted when one of us is going through shit. The tatted green eyed bartender already knows us and he's been giving me the green light these past months. I told him straight that I'm not interested. I've never been interested in anyone ever since Chase fucking Newton fucked my senses out and got out of my bed leaving my sex life scarred for good. How can he be so perfect? And now I just discovered he's in college and 23 years old. Roxie coughs as she turns on her barstool to look at me. She's been pretty lucky these past months. After her encounter with her one night stand, Ren, they have been seeing each other since then. Ren is hot, Irish and pretty rich himself. He kinda liked her, but Roxie doesn't seem to like him that much and that's because of Stevie. He's still calling her and I'm sure they've
I walk into the classroom straight to the lecture podium. I should have probably stopped by my new office and dropped my blazer, 'cause it's kinda hot in here. It's not like there aren't working air conditioning here, it is the anticipation of seeing the one man who's made me feel all these weird feelings these past months. It's strange and foreign and I hate that I'm starting to feel like that again even if I haven't seen him yet. I drop my bag on the desk and lecture textbooks and notes on the desk. I look up at my supposed students and I count nearly 100 students. There are a lot and I don't bother to look for Chase. I can't, cause I'm scared I'll screw up and fuck my first lecture up. I clear my throat as so many eyes stare at my face. All right here we go. A girl approaches me as she hands me the roll call. It's the list of the student's names that are taking my class this semester
" I can't do this." I say as I walk inside Roxie's apartment that evening. I just got home after class, took my bath, didn't bother to eat as I drove down to Roxie's apartment. I needed someone to talk to. Someone who's gonna talk me out of thinking about going over to Chase's apartment. Although we have a lot to talk about but, I don't want to risk it. Me and my instincts know it's definitely not gonna be only talking. I see Tanner in Roxie's kitchen holding a bottle of water. " Oh hey, Lauren." Tanner smiles at me. " Hi, Tan." I groan and fall down on Roxie's couch. " Definitely you had a nice day." Roxie chimes as she smirks. I roll my eyes. Aside from seeing Chase again, my day was great. " So did you meet him? Did you two kiss?" Tanner asks as he sits next to me on the couch with his shit eating grin. I
EPILOGUETwo years laterChase and I went on a vacation in Hawaii. We're in our beach house in Hawaii. Reynold Boyce was arrested after being proved guilty for shooting me and nearly killing me. They found him through the tracker in the money I handed him. And a secret hidden surveillance camera in the parking lot showed a recording of Reynold Boyce shooting me. He was transferred to a maximum security prison in Russia. He's not getting out anytime soon.Regina was also arrested. She was found guilty. I was right. She was compromised and she truly worked with Reynold to ruin my life and my career. She confessed later after she was confronted. According to Tanner, Regina died in prison two months ago after being beaten by a fellow inmate in
42| THE END" How certain are you that Regina is working for Reynold Boyce?" Tanner asks that Tuesday evening.We're in my house and they're here to console me because I just got fired because I slept with my client. It's not their fault, I told my friends, maybe I deserve it. I'm too reckless.I've been calling Chase's number throughout these past days, he's not picking up my calls. I'm on the verge of driving to his house myself. I'm worried about Tina, I miss Chase. I'm just so screwed." Lauren?" Roxie calls my name when I don't answer Tanner's question.I sigh and sit down. I've been pacing ar
41| EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED" Something is wrong. How's he out of jail?" Tanner asks as he paces the floor of my living room.It's Sunday. I spent Saturday night crying, cursing Reynold and thinking about the countless ways I wanted him dead. I've tried calling Chase's number but it's not connecting. I think he blocked my number. My life's over. The only man that I fell in love with, I ruined everything. Maybe I was the reason Caleb left me for that redhead bitch. Because of me my sister is nowhere to be found. She's skipping classes and nobody has seen her around because I kicked her out.Why don't I ever make good decisions? How the fuck did I ruin my fucking relationship with a man that made me happy? He was right. I care so much about my
40| I'M SORRYI don't pay attention to the two men who're about to kill themselves for thousands of dollars but on Reynold Boyce. My heart is beating strangely too fast. Reynolds eyes are locked on mine as he gets off the stage. I bite the inside of my cheeks, suddenly feeling the urge to get the hell out of here. I want to throw up right now.How the hell is he out of jail?But I can do this. I have to be strong and supportive for Chase's sake. Reynold Boyce won't stop looking at me with his sly one sided smirk." How's he out of jail?" I ask the question that's been eating me up since I laid my eyes on Reynold." I don't know. I'm going to
" Who do you think would send you such creepy messages?" Tanner asks.It's Saturday morning and I barely slept last night. I spent the night thinking who would want to send me such creepy weird messages and no name came to mind. Well except Regina. But why? I called my friends on FaceTime this morning to find a solution to this. I can't tell Chase. I don't want him to worry because of me and the other reason is because I don't want him to know about my job. I want to tell him myself and I'm planning on doing that tomorrow which is Sunday." Tanner, can you at least decipher whose person's number is that?" Roxie asks. We're all in our houses since it's Saturday morning." It's a blocked number and a complete dead end." Tanner says, shaking his head.
I knock on Roxie's door as I patiently wait outside." Yeah. Come in." Roxie's voice calls out to me.I slowly open her door and step inside her office. Her desk is filled with different paperwork and she's on the phone with someone. She sees me and smiles at me." Lauren!" She smiles proudly." I'm gonna call you back, babe." She says to the other person on the phone and hangs up.Roxie drops her phone on her desk and rounds the desk to hug me." Oh babe." She squeezed the life out of me. I laugh and we pull apart, wit
I wake up to the smell of coffee, bacon and eggs in the air. Without being told, I know my mom's behind that beguiling aroma. It's Monday morning. The day all of this pretentious act that has to deal with Chase comes to an end. If I'm lucky, today should be a good day for me. Chase left last night and I don't remember him leaving my bedroom. When I woke up at midnight, I found a handwritten note by Chase, telling me he couldn't spend the night and that he had to leave. Attached with beautiful kisses and I love yous. I quickly take a shower and get dressed in a dark grey short sleeve dress. I slip my feet inside my pumps. I add a little natural make up and twirl around in front of my mirror. I look good. I grab my handbag and walk out of my bedroom to the kitchen. I am correct. Mom is in the kitchen eating bacon and eggs, with coffee on the side." Good morning, ma." I smile at my mom and grab a mug to pour myself some already brewed coffee."
" It's illegal right?" I ask Chase. We're in my bedroom and he's yet to leave after dinner. My fingers play with the diamond necklace he bought me around my neck. I still can't believe he'd get me something like this. And then his words kept ringing in my head.'I don't want you to hurt me.'" What's illegal?"" The underground fighting club." I say.Chase smiles." I mean, for a long time I knew underground fighting was illegal. Big, rich men, who get off watching two people try to kill themselves have tried to legitimize it, but I don't think they've succeeded."
On Sunday, I clean the house and constantly check my phone for a reply from Chase. I haven't gotten anything yet. I feel like he was ghosting me." Are you okay?" Mom asks when we sat down for breakfast that morning. " You've been checking your phone constantly? Is it the boyfriend?"I roll my eyes." Yeah."" Something wrong? You guys fighting again?"" It's not really fighting. There's this guy I actually dated for a short time because I wanted to... you know...try and get Chase out of my head. Well…Chase got pissed I was dating him and this other guy and he wa