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CHAPTER 22- WHAT IF
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2024-10-29 19:42:56It has been over 3 weeks, and a lot of things have happened. The WAEC examination came to an end, and I must confess, I felt as if a burden had been lifted off my shoulder. That very day we concluded our examination, we(the SSS3 students) made our way to the staff room, each one of us saying our words of appreciation to our teachers.
All the teachers held on a beautiful smile as they said their blessings, wishing us a good future ahead. We all went back to the hall, with one less task off our way. I decided in my heart to use the next two weeks to rest and prepare for my next examination, the NECO EXAMINATION. Yes, the NECO examination, an exam that is also as important as the previous one.
As much as I love reading, I would rather cancel that examination, but
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