C5

"Please, Tommy, leave me alone." She struggled a bit with his arm.

“I didn't mean to do it, excuse me, I know it wasn't right, but it's not for you to leave the party either. Come on! You've barely been in for maybe twenty minutes”he took my forearm.

"Oh, so you didn't want to do it." Yes of course. Do you think I'm stupid? “ I stopped facing him “ now I remember when you told me things about this Morgan guy. Actually , I'm thinking that you only used it as a mirror of your reputation, being someone else who wants to fuck every woman who crosses your path.

“How do you think”he frowned”don't you ever compare me to that guy again”he squeezed my wrists very hard.

"You're hurting me, Tommy, can't you see?" I dug my nails into his forearm.

" I'm sorry!" she released me immediately, "but that's what happens when you provoke jealousy in me , really, America, you do things in me that no other woman achieves. "

“I'm sure that's what you tell everyone when you fuck them for the first time”I crossed my arms”rather help me look for Agatha, that your friend Peter constantly takes advantage of Agatha's innocence.

“Takes advantage? Please, America, she is old enough to distinguish everything, you sound more like those mothers who want to keep their children under their skirts, let her have her fun.

“Nope! She came with me and we'll go together. You know, on second thought, let's make a deal.

"What deal?"

"If you help me find Agatha, I'll stay a while longer, done deal?"

“Done deal!

We began to walk through the crowd, the neon lights pointed at my face, disorienting me a little, I could feel the sensation of dizziness. In some corners there were guys who were taking drugs. If the police came here, the safest thing is that we would all be arrested.

Passing through a corridor where there were some doors, Tommy stopped further on, giving me a mocking thumbs”up.

"What's wrong?" I approached him.

"I think your friend is here, but I don't know how you can take her away if it sounds like she's pretty busy," she laughed mockingly.

In a few seconds I heard:

, Peter, now, please, Now!" Agatha's desperate voice was heard from inside that room.

I approached the door, opening it a little.

Oh my God! They were having sex and the image I saw had shocked me.

I closed the door, I had already seen too much.

"Did you like seeing that?" Tommy was leaning against the wall with his arms crossed.

“What's wrong? Do you think I'm an addict or something ? “ I glared at him. "I'm sorry, but I have to leave your apartment.

“Hey, you said if we found your friend you'd stay a lot longer.

"Yes, but I didn't think I'd find her in this situation." Maybe in something else I can make up for my promise”I patted him on the shoulder leaving his apartment.

I can't believe that Agatha gives in so easily, I hope that in one of the many uncontrolled romances no pregnancy arises, I think she won't even know who the father is if she continues like this. I left Tommy's apartment and got to mine.

I undressed staying in my pajamas, threw myself on the bed and turned on the TV. I felt a little tired, those parties, that kind of thing was not my thing. I always thought that my first time would have to be with the only man I want for my life, who was romantic and sincere. I don't know, but maybe my biggest fantasy wasn't anything related to sexuality, but rather, it was to give myself to one man for the rest of my life. Was it too much to ask?

I liked reading, most of the books I read were romance or fantasy and there was always a couple who lived together for life loving each other, but I think that only existed in books.

Passing channels after channels I found an erotic one. Perfect, apparently fate had conspired for my eyes to see only that today.

I couldn't get what I had seen in that room out of my mind, I can't deny it, it made me want to when I saw that.

I put my hand under my panties, it was so wet that the liquid had gone through the same panties, at times I can accept that I needed some action, at my age I think most of my friends had already had sex, but I couldn't get in with whom I crossed in front.

My desire had exploded so much at that moment that I almost left my apartment looking for Tommy, but I held back, I knew it was only momentary desire, but he didn't deserve my virginity. I stopped abruptly, I couldn't keep giving myself pleasure, there would come a time when I would do something crazy and then regret it.

I turned off the TV, went to the bathroom to wash my hands and change my underwear. I went back to my bed and started to check my cell phone a bit, I still didn't get any work email. I went to the job opportunities website, but it was useless, the requirements they asked for were not even met. They only required a minimum of five years of experience and I was just getting out of college.

I went into the calculator and started doing my accounts for the month, if I took that bookstore job, but with the $40 increase I might have completely adjusted this month's expenses.

I don't know why I was unlucky, I've always known that I'm good, but I've had the bad luck that things haven't gone well for me lately.

When I turned off my cell phone, I inadvertently touched a place where Dalton Morgan was, this man was really handsome, elegant. It made a great impression just by seeing it in a photo. I immediately remembered the things Tommy had said about him, I didn't really believe it, it was probably absurd jealousy of him. These people usually deal with more important things than women and if in a case it were real this guy would never notice me , he just looked at the women who went out with him in the photos compared to me , he was very, but very disadvantaged.

That company looked very nice, it was luxurious. I thought I would be successful, but maybe I answered something wrong in that interview. I only answered what I studied yes, I don't know , I just hope that at least once I do well in this life.

I massaged my head, I suffered from a migraine, most likely those lights and the noise from Tommy's party had affected me a bit, and I also felt that it hurt a lot from thinking so much. This unemployment thing affected me a lot. I got up a little disoriented to search the bathroom shelves for some pain reliever to help me with this or at least sleep. This time I won't worry about Agatha, I've already given her too much advice and it's her problem how I spend it today, although I think she's better than me right now.

I jumped back on my bed. I would wait a bit for the reaction of the pill, I covered myself from head to toe, tomorrow would be a better day; I left my apple”cinnamon scented candle burning and fell asleep.